Bipolar check-in #65

Ah yikes, @Soupe du jour , I hope you’ve managed to get some sleep now!
What a shame for your husbands brother- sometimes it’s a fine balance between side effects and medication that works, isn’t it.
I’m glad he is doing better than previously!

I’m so thankful for this forum, it’s so much more supportive and lovely compared to any others/apps I’ve used in the past!

Well I’m still sleeping a lot, I’m not sure this will ever go unless I come off my meds, but if I do that then I don’t sleep at all.
I’m trying different methods of coping with needing so much sleep but it’s a real struggle. I might see if I can come down with my antipsychotic. I have an appt with my p doc in 3 weeks.

Other than that my mood has been pretty good. I’ve had a lot of alcohol (wine) the past couple of days, well maybe not a lot a lot, but more than is recommended! It’s just kind of made me sleepy

I’ve still been keeping really busy, but I’m doing less “avoiding” which is a good sign.
I had a meeting with my director at work and he’s been super supportive. I just hope my previous supervisor (she was not very nice to me) signs me off/marks me as completed.
We’ll see! I have to arrange a meeting with her
I’m dreading it.

I hope everyone has had a lovely day! And I hope you all have a peaceful sleep! Lots of hugs

Sorry I’m just not able to respond to everyone today. I’m just feeling overwhelmed but like I can’t identify why I feel like this ???? Odd

Anyway hugs to all !

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I am sooooooo tired of writing papers for school. I have two huge ones due-one due the 3rd and one due the 5th i havent even started on. i neeeeeeeddddddd aaaaaaaaaa freaking break!

but alas. college. my classes end this coming week and my new classes start next monday!

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25 I think a lot of “support groups” are like that unfortunately. Mommy groups are the WORST. SO judgmental. I belonged to a pregnancy group when I was pregnant for about a month and quit when a woman compared eating fish to actively trying to kill your baby (in response to someone saying she ate fish once in awhile during pregnancy). I’m glad this support forum is actually supportive.

Yes, most online "support" groups can get mean and nasty. Something in me has an instinctual feeling to rebel against cultish beliefs. I hate when one person peeps out a mild disagreement, 20 people attack that person - and s/he never returns. That is not "support" it's authoritarianism and that type of system fails sooner or later. The gentler minority is winnowed out, and that's a sad thing.

I'm mentally revving up for this paperwork. I'm researching how to get some of these proofs- stupid thing is, I've done this so many times before but I always seem to forget how!

Thanks, @Pinny and @*Beth*! We spent just over 2 weeks in the US. The NYC portion of the trip seemed to go faster than the family visit part. Right now we are in a pretty town in Czech Republic (in western Bohemia), but not yet home. We decided to stop here last night because the full ride home was too much. I slept great and woke up at a normal time, 7 am, Central Europe time. Hubby is still sleeping at almost 8 am. We went to sleep around 8 pm local time. Today we plan to visit a nearby town where my husband's great uncle, a famous Czech general, is buried. Then head home.

My brother-in-law had been sickly thin when my s-i-l had last visited him. Yesterday he looked a much healthier weight. He said he gained some.

I'm thankful for members like you, Pinny, who make this place so nice!

I wouldn't give up hope about your sedating meds. It took a while, but the sedation from my Seroquel XR eventually eased. Maybe not at night, but it stopped being as sedating during the daytime. Ugh, patience! I generally sleep 8 to 9 hours per night. If I'm groggy upon awakening, the groggy feeling eases in 10 minutes as my coffee brews.

Too much alcohol is bad for me, too. Even what is the upper "moderate" daily consumption.

@HALLIEBETH87 and @Moose72, wishing you speedy success with you papers/paperwork.

@~Christina, I hope you got a good sleep and that today is less overwhelming. Hugs

@wildflowerchild25, my skin is sensitive to the sun, no matter what. You're a good bit younger than me. I suggest protecting it early not just for things like skin cancer, later in life, but to prevent future liver spots and such. I have two biggish liver spots on my face that I didn't have in my youth. I'm glad you had a good time yesterday. You deserve nice times! Bbqs are my favorite. I adore my gas grill and most from it is fairly low cal.

@Blue_Bird, I've been enjoying your kitty stories. Hope they've come to a truce. Maybe tomorrow they'll be sleeping cuddled up together.

I was taking a break from
Homework reading news when suddenly my laptop went nuts and I have a freakin virus!!!!! I have two huuuuuge papers due this week!

My boyfriend is letting me borrow his laptop and is gonna try to fix mine or get it looked At. It’s at least 3 years old and finger pad is wearing out so if it’s gonna be like $200 to fix it I’m gonna get a new one at Costco. My friend said she’s pick it
Up

My email keeps logging itself out and I have to keep logging back in. This has happened a few times. I change the password every time and it still does it. Nothing looks out of place though. Should I be concerned about anything secuirty wise?

I may or may not have crashed. I’m impossibly depressed this morning. However I was so uncomfortable from the mania last night that I had to take 100mg seroquel just so I could fall tf to sleep and get away from myself. I felt like jumping out of my skin from the energy and it was night so I couldn’t go out and power walk and my house is not conducive to pacing.

But I’m also hormonal and the seroquel does sometimes make me depressed the next day so I might “wake up” in a few hours and be manic still.

Well we’re going to the nursery and then the nature reserve hiking trails. So I won’t have to sit inside my house and head all day.

Omg. My boyfriend saved me!

He somehow managed to get an antivirus on my laptop and worked with IT to clean my computer. I get it back after work.

I got an estimate after insurance on a crown. The estimate was $645. That is a stretch for me but I pulled it off and proceeded with the work. I was to go in Friday for the permanent crown and as I was pulling out of the driveway, they called and said they were incorrect about my insurance and I would owe an additional $992 before I could get my crown. What?!? Like I have a thousand dollars laying around. Talk about sticker shock! It upset me to say the least. I negotiated down to only $276 additional expenditure. That will still be difficult because I’m having to pay cash for the surgery on my tongue. The whole thing was handled wrong in my opinion.

I hope everyone has a peaceful day. Hugs to all.

Dentist are such scammers. I don’t trust dentists at all, they go into that field for the money. Dental is largely unregulated and uncovered by insurance.

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Originally Posted by Moose72 I'm mentally revving up for this paperwork. I'm researching how to get some of these proofs- stupid thing is, I've done this so many times before but I always seem to forget how!

I so feel for you, been there countless times. But you GOT this!! You'll get it done and all will be well

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Originally Posted by Nammu Dentist are such scammers. I don’t trust dentists at all, they go into that field for the money. Dental is largely unregulated and uncovered by insurance.

I agree. That the field of dentistry is not regulated is appalling. Just plain wrong.

Anxiety SUCKS!

Hello dear ones, I hope that each of you are having/have had a pleasant Sunday...or at least, a peaceful one. The weather today is glorious! Warmish, but with a sweet breeze. This week will see our first day in the 90's, so the heat of summer is surely around the corner. I love this state, it's so beautiful, but the sun here gets higher and brighter than I've ever seen it get anywhere else I've been. Well, with the exception of Israel. A part of me craves that sun, but another part of me finds it overwhelming. Such brightness can be overstimulating, which can then cause feelings of anxiety and depression...kind-of a mixed-state feeling, I guess.

Welll....I am so sleepy. Ugh. I am taking myself to get a Mother's Day pedicure today. Some nice, soft color...lilac, or hmm. I'll let you know later which color I chose, haha.

~**~**~* May Day! *~**~**

Thanks Beth I’m having a relaxing May Day despite the decidedly unspring like day. Only 44 feels like 37F and dark, gloomy and rainy. Still haven’t put the solar flower lights out in the flower box. It’s not really been warm enough to do that. Mum, bless her opened windows because it’s May, but the heats on! Making pancakes and scrambled egg for supper. Then tonight is call of the midwife. Then a shower, clean pjs and bed. Because it’s Sunday my religion forbades me to get dressed. Lol 😝 just kidding, but on Sundays I don’t do much or get dressed. It’s my day off. I’ve corrupted mum. As she’s starting not to do anything on Sunday either except listen too the church service in the morning. Shame on me corrupting the elderly 👿

Instead of going straight home this afternoon, we decided to visit my s-i-l (Czech one) since she lives not far from the highway we were taking. We ended up roasting fat sausages (like knockwurst) over a bonfire and will stay until the early morning. I have a 2 pm therapy appointment in the city where we live, so I may only get a couple hours at home to rest, until afterwards. Luckily Tuesday we have no appointments or plans.

As tired as we are, perhaps we should wait a bit longer for our France trip. We thought about planning for it and leaving within a week of today, but...

@*Beth*, Happy May Day to you, as well! It's more acknowledged in Europe than in the US. I learned the day was originally created in the US, but President Grover Cleveland moved the day to September (Labor Day) for kind of stupid reasons.

Wow! That's great!

Traveling can be exhausting. If there’s no schedule take some time and rest up so you can enjoy France 🇫🇷

I'm kinda having a rough time this afternoon. I ate a huge can of chicken and dumplings which had over 3500 mil of sodium and my heart started beating like crazy right after. With everything else I've had today I'm at like 5,580 mil of sodium for the day. Normally I always stay under 2000. Plus I am about 2 days short on my valium so I cut one into 4's so I've taken 2.5 today instead of 3. And just going down from 3 to 2.5 is causing me extreme anxiety and paranoia and irritation and making me think of bad stuff that happened in my past. And thats just going down .5 mil.

Got bad news today. My great-uncle passed away. He's the last direct living relative on that side of the family and that my mom knows. She's taking it a bit hard. Keep her in your thoughts.