Bipolar check-in #67

I had to call the state of Tennessee main Voc rehab line to give info so they can verify that I’m able to get assistance. I should get a call with in 5 business days to go into local office.

Part of me wants to just apply all over and take the first offer. But I have decided to wait and see how helpful they are. I’m struggling with how to explain away 12 years of not working.

This heat…. I know I’m a broken record but I’m legit struggling. I’ve never handled heat well …as a child living in Florida I lost track of how many times I would pass out from the heat each summer. These damn meds are making it horrible. I am sitting under a fan and I have a very powerful fan blowing on me and I’m still half sick From this heat. I’m constantly sweaty unless I’m standing in a cold shower. This heat wave has to STOP !

Cool hugs all around

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Today has sucked and I haven’t felt like myself and tonight I can’t quit crying. It’s a ****** day

I question psychiatry and my diagnosis too. I don’t trust them.

I might look up some DBT skills today.

Glad the session went okay.

Hi @~Christina, I think your plan to look into the job program sounds interesting. Let us know if it's eventually helpful. I someday want (need) to work again, too. I also have around 12 years I'd need to explain.

I'm hoping your and Bizi's physical pain eases. Also that the heat eases up around the world. I've always hated hot weather, and like you, have medications that further exacerbate it all.

My husband found a potential house that excites me. He got an appointment to visit it at 10 am tomorrow, so we need to get up very early in order to drive there in time. Or, maybe we can stay at his sister's house (even though she's away). It's in the same village area as her house. That's a negative in Hubby's eyes, but not in mine and hers. It's only 45 mins outside Prague and in a hot area, in terms of location appeal. We may buy it to just renovate and flip. Or stay long-term. One part of the house is in a condition we could live in, albeit uncomfortably at first. Another part needs a very large amount of renovation. Unfortunately, this type of place is all we can afford, and barely. Also sadly, the economy made us lose oodles. At least real estate is a fairly good and safer investment.

My nephew is doing very poorly and is still inpatient getting more ECT. He calls my sister crying and wants to go home, but we all fear him getting out prematurely. He's expressed SIs. A possible repeat of my younger nephew's fate scares us all.

Hey Christina,

Hoping the heat wave stops soon, for you and for everyone.

I hate the heat too, right now this morning it isn't too bad.

Cool hugs

Please wish my husband and me luck! There is a strong chance that we will be making a major decision tomorrow regarding a property. I sure hope no one beats us out. The realtor said we will be his first people to see it. Hopefully a different realtor hasn't shown it to others. So far there's not been any word that it has. It's an extremely good opportunity given the price and location. An extremely good location with wonderful potential.

@Soupe du jourSending liquid luck potion your way. Sounds like a great location

Luck!

If it were science, it'd be called neurology

Good luck, Soupe!

Good luck Soupe!

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Originally Posted by ~Christina I had to call the state of Tennessee main Voc rehab line to give info so they can verify that I’m able to get assistance. I should get a call with in 5 business days to go into local office. Part of me wants to just apply all over and take the first offer. But I have decided to wait and see how helpful they are. I’m struggling with how to explain away 12 years of not working. This heat…. I know I’m a broken record but I’m legit struggling. I’ve never handled heat well …as a child living in Florida I lost track of how many times I would pass out from the heat each summer. These damn meds are making it horrible. I am sitting under a fan and I have a very powerful fan blowing on me and I’m still half sick From this heat. I’m constantly sweaty unless I’m standing in a cold shower. This heat wave has to STOP ! Cool hugs all around Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

I think going with voc rehab is a smart decision. Get all the help you can.

Girl, I hear you on the heat. You don't sound like a broken record at all. Yes, we're having agonizing heat here with no end in sight but it's dry heat, whereas heat with high humidity like yours is pure torture. Meds sooo make it easy to overheat and yes, being all sweaty (due to meds) is darn miserable.

A COOL hug to you, too

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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour ... My husband found a potential house that excites me. He got an appointment to visit it at 10 am tomorrow, so we need to get up very early in order to drive there in time. Or, maybe we can stay at his sister's house (even though she's away). It's in the same village area as her house. That's a negative in Hubby's eyes, but not in mine and hers. It's only 45 mins outside Prague and in a hot area, in terms of location appeal. We may buy it to just renovate and flip. Or stay long-term. One part of the house is in a condition we could live in, albeit uncomfortably at first. Another part needs a very large amount of renovation. Unfortunately, this type of place is all we can afford, and barely. Also sadly, the economy made us lose oodles. At least real estate is a fairly good and safer investment. My nephew is doing very poorly and is still inpatient getting more ECT. He calls my sister crying and wants to go home, but we all fear him getting out prematurely. He's expressed SIs. A possible repeat of my younger nephew's fate scares us all.

The very BEST of luck with the house! How exciting!

Your nephew's situation is heartbreaking. I had a niece, such a sweet, lovely, caring young woman, in a very similar place, and her story did not end well.

But - keep us posted on the house, I know we're all pulling for you!

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Originally Posted by MuddyBoots If it were science, it'd be called neurology

Ha, good point.

I did the stupidest thing this morning. I usually shower by getting wet, turning the water off, lather up, turn water back on to rinse off, turn the water off and done (to save water), but this morning after I soaped up I just walked out of the shower all bubbly and then wondered why I'm more slippery than usual I'm gonna put up the xmas tree today because I don't have a job.

Ofta aqua fitness was a workout today, at 11:30 I go back for more abuse by the same instructor! for aqua class it’s a different instructor m-w-f but for the second class it’s the same two. There’s about 4-5 of us that go to both classes. The aqua fits is not a senior class but I’m pretty sure everyone is a senior. The fitness class though is a senior class and has chairs for those of us who need them. It’s a combination of weight training and strength moves. There’s a Tai Chi class on t-th that I want to start the next time it starts. Everyone is so friendly but I think it might be our age? I exchanged phone numbers with one woman and another goes to the same church. Slowly I’m getting more comfortable with people. No art classes though. The only ones they’ve had lately are too expensive or for more accomplished artists. Though I’ve enjoyed art my whole life I’m just a dabbler and as much as I like it, not very good at it. So I stick to beginning classes.

Just got home. My welcome kit from the Mayo Clinic was waiting for me. Got a swab, a thermometer, pulse reader, peak flow meter and a tape measure! I guess they are counting on me getting symptoms in the next two years. But until I get a respiratory infection I don’t do anything. Sort of cool. If I get a respiratory infection I take a swab and if I have a certain type of infection I then measure everything and fill out online forms. And get paid to do it!

Well I finally got going today. I’m hoping this crying **** Is just pms. I feel
So sad

I can't even go to my mom's at all today because I have to go back to the clinic for a drug test tomorrow (ordered by new doc). I really don't want to go back out tomorrow, driving was scary enough as it is today in a "whoops I'm doing 75 in a 55" way. I think I've slept 10 hours over the past 4 days. I just want to head north bound, see my cats, and sleep in a less chaotic environment for a couple nights.

Can you go after your test? I certainly hear you on wanting a less chaotic environment. I don’t do well at all in chaos. I can only take my grandkids for short amounts of time. They are good kids but so high energy

I am so exhausted I feel like I'm getting sick. I was so out of it in therapy I was almost disscoiated. My blood doctors appointment went fine but it was unecessary. I paid the copay just to spend 5 minutes with her telling me my numbers looked great and to come back in 4 months. Could she not do that over the phone? Anyways I got my food sensitivity report and yeah according to that I'm highly sensitive to a number of nuts including peanuts dry roasted peanuts hazelnuts and cashews among others. I'm also highly sensitive to a number of gluten products including wheat. And I'm highly sensitive to eggs which I've said here before they make me sick. Then theres some enviromental stuff I'm senstive to. I'm highly senstive to dust so I'm wondering if I feel crappy a lot because of my cats and the messes they are always making. I'm senstive to a couple things outside. Poplar trees I'm highly senstive to. Not sure if we have any around there. Yeah and certain meats I'm moderatly or highly senstive to. Which makes sense why I don't always care for meat. But I can eat any vegetable, most fruits are ok. Most seafood is ok. Mainly its just nuts and wheat. I don't know where to go from here though since everything has nuts and wheat in it.

I probably can, but given the way this week's going I have a feeling something's gonna pop up. If I go tomorrow I can stay 5 days; if I stay until Tuesday and go after ffs I can stay a whole week, maybe longer if she cancels again.

I ordered sheets from Kohls last week. They came today. I thought it was odd that I had 2 biggish boxes for 2 sets of sheets but I checked the mailing label and both boxes were for me so I thought I had either ordered something else and forgotten or they just packed them very inefficiently.


I opened the bigger box to find a whole order that I didn't make. My name and address are on the box but the packing slip is for a women in a town 75 miles from here.


Obviously I don't want to keep them. I tried to get a customer service number but their webpage is all auto-bots and they don't have a tag for my issue and I couldn't find one they'd accept to get me into the program. I searched and there just isn't a phone number. It does say returning wrong items to the store is the best way but I take that to mean one or two items, not the whole box someone is wondering about tonight since I'm sure it sent her an email that it is delivered.


So I'm thinking all I can do is take it to Kohls when I'm in the city for therapy on Monday.


Does anyone see anything else I can do? I don't mind making Kohls wait but I don't want the woman who made the order and paid for it to have to wait until at least Monday.

Thanks for any help!