Bipolar check-in #70

Oh lord, Christina! That’s worrying. Find a doctor quick. Oh it’s so hard having old pets. My sister and bil decided after their last one, a lab, not to get any more cause they couldn’t go though losing another one. They live in a split level house and their lad developed hip problems and that was hard on all of them. They are in their 70’s and not so spry themselves.

Price shock indeed. A friend wanted to go out with me to eat tonight and nope, left over spaghetti it is. Our electricity bill went up 110% recently.

MD- I hope your fatigue eases soon. It sounds really rough to deal with. Any way to take it a little easier for the next few days/weeks?

Hallie- hope the meds help with your stomach. GI issues are no fun at all.

Christina- that's a rough situation to be in. Hopefully the clinic can be helpful or that you can find a new doc ASAP. Please post more pics of your dogs as possible

I'm going to try to take it easy before I travel for Thanksgiving it was a spur of the moment decision by my sister to travel for Thanksgiving. We hadn't planned on it originally.

@Blue_Bird How are you doing? I've not seen you on here recently.

I know! I stopped for McDonald's cheeseburger on my way home from the hospital last night. $2.50. That was just a cheeseburger, not a Quarter Pounder or anything fancy. And it was cold and gross to make it even worse.


Prices are scary.

Yes, it's not that bad. At this point biopsies are "been there, done that". I hate that I keep needing biopsies but I'd rather have them than not and need them. And hopefully this one will be the end instead of leading to more procedures like the winter did.

I did forget to mention I have to have an MRI in 6 months again. That sucks. I really don't like those. But I'll deal; I can do anything for 20 minutes and I know now that counting the pings, clicks and thunks in the MRI machine helps me stay calm. I'd still prefer a mammogram (which I'm having then too) but whatever.


If my genetics test is normal and I continue to need so many biopsies there will come a point when we need to discuss whether a mastectomy is worth it. I'm not there yet but I do know it may happen. I can't have surgery every year to pull out one chunk at a time until it's over. If genetics is abnormal the conversations happen sooner and with more urgency.

I'm hoping to sleep tonight. Last night wasn't good and I'm so tired. Hopefully some of the stress is gone and I can relax better tonight. I love being back in my rural home; the hotel in the city is on a busy corner and my room was on the busiest corner of the hotel. So it was louder than usual. However it was also more interesting with lots of people watching from 5 stories up.

I hope the wreath idea works for you!

Welcome!

Welcome Cloudnsunshine

We’ve had half days all week where I could leave early with the kids. Today was a full day though and that was tough on all of us. The kids made it all the way up to 2:45 and then everything fell apart. One student wanted to take a toy home that wasn’t his, one student ran off to the property line and tried to get into someone’s backyard (he’s one of the nonverbal kids and thinks being chased is fun; I disagree lol), and one kid had a screaming meltdown and threw out a bin full of classroom toys. We made him get them out of the trash. Boy was I glad when 3:30 rolled around!

We got CR a new scooter for his birthday. I can’t believe he’ll be 12 in three weeks!

I’m still struggling with haldol. RS says he can still see my mouth move. I have to try something different. The only thing I can think of is the new one caplyta bc obviously I’ve never tried that, or maybe abilify. I’m sure I’ve tried that, I must have, but I don’t remember a bad reaction or side effects vividly like with latuda, risperdal, and invega. Geodon did nothing and it was a pain to take because i had to eat with it, and Zyprexa caused a ridiculous amount of weight gain. I’m already back to my highest weight from vraylar and haldol making me eat. Idk. Hopefully pdoc has some ideas. I’m still feeling her out. I so wish I could have gone back to my old pdoc.

27 now. I had ten more in the subsequent half hour before I finally hit the block button. I heard through the grapevine that the text feature on my cousin's phone wasn't working properly and that's why he called me near 30 times. He doesn't text. His words.

My cousin is, in part, a busybody who feels entitled to my time and undivided attention on demand because we're family. My parents, who are responsible for him being here in the first place, encourage this behavior towards me because (although they will never admit this to me) they don't want to deal with him either and attempted to use me as a go-between.

It's tiring, to say the least, and this blocking is a nice respite.

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25 We’ve had half days all week where I could leave early with the kids. Today was a full day though and that was tough on all of us. The kids made it all the way up to 2:45 and then everything fell apart. One student wanted to take a toy home that wasn’t his, one student ran off to the property line and tried to get into someone’s backyard (he’s one of the nonverbal kids and thinks being chased is fun; I disagree lol), and one kid had a screaming meltdown and threw out a bin full of classroom toys. We made him get them out of the trash. Boy was I glad when 3:30 rolled around! We got CR a new scooter for his birthday. I can’t believe he’ll be 12 in three weeks! I’m still struggling with haldol. RS says he can still see my mouth move. I have to try something different. The only thing I can think of is the new one caplyta bc obviously I’ve never tried that, or maybe abilify. I’m sure I’ve tried that, I must have, but I don’t remember a bad reaction or side effects vividly like with latuda, risperdal, and invega. Geodon did nothing and it was a pain to take because i had to eat with it, and Zyprexa caused a ridiculous amount of weight gain. I’m already back to my highest weight from vraylar and haldol making me eat. Idk. Hopefully pdoc has some ideas. I’m still feeling her out. I so wish I could have gone back to my old pdoc.

Wow, that takes patience and a whole lot of energy (working with the kids)!

Oh, gosh, twelve. So next year is middle school? And in 3 years he'll want to learn to drive...start growing out your nails now so you'll have plenty to bite then
BUT.
Seriously.
For now it's a scooter and that is wonderful! CR must be excited.

I'm all for you giving Caplyta a try.

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Originally Posted by Aurelius710 27 now. I had ten more in the subsequent half hour before I finally hit the block button. I heard through the grapevine that the text feature on my cousin's phone wasn't working properly and that's why he called me near 30 times. He doesn't text. His words. My cousin is, in part, a busybody who feels entitled to my time and undivided attention on demand because we're family. My parents, who are responsible for him being here in the first place, encourage this behavior towards me because (although they will never admit this to me) they don't want to deal with him either and attempted to use me as a go-between. It's tiring, to say the least, and this blocking is a nice respite.

Aurelius. Dude. BLOCK.

Today what happened IS that I lost the nice $35 locking gas cap that my mechanic put on my car's gas tank last year. Dammit. Oh - I lost it by, ta-da, leaving it on the roof of the car and driving away. Fourth time I've done that in my 41-year history as a driver. So just about once per decade I lose a gas cap due to stupidness. UGGGH

The grocery store. The prices. It is shocking. Bad. Scary, quite frankly.

My DIL will be 32 in a couple of weeks. If she and my son don't plan a baby in about 3 years I doubt I'll ever be a grandmother. If I am never a grandma, my life feels rather pointless. It's my damned Aquarian moon, I'm sure of it. Princess Diana had one and so did Marilyn Monroe. Women who yearn for nice, lovely, wonderful family and pfffft. Screwed

I am so sleepy. A good night to all, from lufffly northern California btw, the moon is so pretty tonight!

I did. Let my parents deal with him.

Hey thanks for asking I was hypomanic/possibly manic the past week so have had trouble focusing enough to post

But I'm starting to calm down and sleep better, since my thorazine is back to the original dose of 400mg instead of 200mg

I went to a yoga class this week. It was challenging but fun

The cats are doing well, here's a couple pics of them, Maybelle is pouting in this picture because I had to wash her favorite chair cover that she loves to lay on, but I put it back as soon as I was done washing and drying it lol

How have you been?

I'm so exhausted this morning despite sleeping 7 hours and 15 minutes. I tried a gatorlyte for fast hydration, a lot of water, a Lunchable for something to eat, a can of Mountain Dew and a 9oz can of Starbucks nitro pumpkin cold brew both for the caffeine. And I still feel like I didn't sleep at all last night. I don't think I have the energy to clean my room today and I haven't taken a shower in 2 days which is a recent thing. I never went more then one day without showering before. But yeah things are a bit sucky today.

On a fun non-cousin related track, I was able to use some language skills yesterday. I had two solely Spanish speaking customers who were looking for a particular type of phone. I understand Spanish when it's spoken to me and when it's written down, but bringing it all together to have a conversation is a challenge for me. Plus, having a technical conversation in Spanish makes it extra challenging.

I love that kind of challenge and I'm proud to say I got it done! They were able to tell me what they specifically needed, I got them where they needed to be and I picked up some extra Spanish along the way. Hopefully, I can close out my week on a similar high note!

I'm spent and a little peeved. Earlier today, I thought Hubby and I were just going out to pick up laundry and go to a general goods shop. We did the former, then he had the idea to visit a local site. Turned out the the roads to it were restricted access, so he suggested we walk. I assumed it would be a 30 min each way deal, but no. I had no clue, when leaving home, that I should prepare for what was ahead.

As we walked, I kept reminding him we were only going down down downhill, and what that meant for the return. We kept heading down for over an hour. When we "got there" it was just a little interesting, no more. I was hungry (it was after noon) and had to pee. Fortunately there was a pub there, so we solved those two issues. But the return was ahead.

Up, up, up semi to steep hills. And, it started to rain. I had a thin jacket on that wasn't water resistant and had no hood and was not wearing hiking boots. I trudged far ahead of him because a) I'm in better shape, despite being in poor shape, and b) I find hoofing up hills easier at a faster clip, rather than a slow one. He struggled, as I predicted and looked tertible. I occasiknally stopped to wait for him to ask how he was. We got to the car soaked and miserable, after almost 3 hours walking (half uphill) and perhaps a one hour break at the restaurant. I took a shower after peeling off the wet clothes (soaked through my shirt and bra), and put my frizzing hair in a pony tail after a couple days with it straight, sleek, and sassy, after its fix in Prague Sayonara! I'm in bed now, warming up, at 3 pm.

Uff da! What a hike! I’m glad there was a pub, but boy, I’d never have made it. Soupe. Congratulations. That gets you a big star sticker.

I had my own little hike yesterday. Only 5 miles (Soupe's was probably longer!), but some of it was sketchy with 6 inches of leaves on rocks and eroded terrain.

The beginning:

Last night was either awake or full of dreams. Huge castle full of traps, but it felt magical. Later on I was in a church in DC and I took religious artifacts to examine them closer and got caught. I had to dress in high fashion and sneak in during a wedding to put them back. I met Michelle Obama and we laughed over the whole episode. Still later there was this holy tree, sort of life in avatar. It was so beautiful. So despite waking up all night and being tired I feel pretty good thanks to the wonderful magical dreams.

Ooo muddy, that much leaves to walk on is scary. Ya never know what’s under them. Are those birch trees? I love birch trees.