Bipolar check-in #71

That happens to me time to time too (the song thing... I mean the typing wrong words thing too but I'm referring to the song thing). One thing that helps is listening to instrumental music. There's tons of calming lofi music soundtracks on youtube and post-rock is always a good genre to explore.

I know you have a WRAP and know some DBT skills, time to use them!

Yep!!! Love me some wrap

This morning before 9 was kind of rough anxiety wise. Then I drank a Coke Zero float and felt a lot better. I wonder if I just legit need a decent amount of caffeine in my diet for some reason. I know the days I've had a ton of caffeine my anxiety has been fairly mild and the low caffeine days I've been pretty anxious. Anyways I watched a couple episodes of this show called Zombie Flips or something. Where these flippers flip creepy looking houses. Its on A&E and not on HGTV so some of the people were assholes but it was interesting. Then I finally took a shower for the first time since Thursday afternoon. I'm not depressed, I'm just worn out by the pristiq increase so getting motivated can be hard. But overall I felt fine today.

I just looked at my food app (my fittness pal) and the last few days I've been anxious are the days I have not had caffeine. The 2 days I've had caffeine my anxiety has been fine.

Maybe it is mostly diet related like I'm being told it is.

Do you think stimulants help your anxiety? One time a Dr gave me adderall cause he thought
I had add. My anxiety was ok but man was I manic

I don't know maybe. The one time I asked for concerta because I thought I had ADD my doctor freaked the **** out and started yelling at me about seeking drugs for weight loss. He said he would guarantee I'd end up in the hospital if I was on Concerta.

So I'm guessing I just need a Coke or 2 a day.

Idk. I was just curious. I haven’t studied psychopharmacology yet

Uneventful day. I met my mom for Sunday services. We talked, and when my dad came to pick her up, he decided to advise me on housekeeping (again) for several minutes. Typical really. I just let it go in one ear and out the other.

Currently fixing dinner (butter chicken with rice) and finishing up Hedda Gabler. After that, just trying to decide what to watch next. Apart from a 2pm Zoom call with my PsychNP, tomorrow is wide open!

Aurelius we had butter chicken breast baked tonight with riced cauliflower and sweet potato. Good stuff butter chicken.

A lazy PJ Sunday. Watched a couple of Christmas movies and now watching a 1940’s love story. Only have to watch the movie with half an eye as it’s slow and easy to follow.

I'm sick and I want to run away. To much noise. I just want to be crazy in my own home. With medical staff if things get too rough or IDK meds so it doesn't get worse I recognize I'm loosing touch.

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Originally Posted by Nammu ....So angels everywhere.....

That creates a lovely image!

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Oooh, that's a large rash! I'm glad you get it checked out. Geez, that Shingles vax has hit you hard.

Wow, I finally made it back here. I hung up the Christmas lights in my apartment, it turned out that 200 lights isn't really that many, at all. I light the lights. They are cheery and calming.

Does anyone know if a very low dose of Seroquel can cause depression (50mg)? med dude accidentally sent over 50mg instead of 25. I use it for sleep. I can cut it, but it doesn't cut well. I have an appointment with him this week, but want to check here first.

I think technically any sedative type drug can give you depression. I’m not sure why but that’s been my experience. It was never that way with me with Seroquel but other meds that caused sedation have had that affect on me. Having said that I think Seroquel is meant to be good for depression…. But it’s all about how you react to it as an individual and if you find it’s making you depressed then that’s what matters. I was only on the higher doses so that may have been why it was good for my depression… at lower doses it acts as more of an antihistamine from memory which is why it’s good for sleep and I know antihistamines have had a depressive affect on me the next day. Sorry some of this could be wrong - I’m just going by what I remember reading a few years ago. I hope you can find the right balance.

I don't know if it CAN cause depression, it probably can in some people since everyone's reaction is different, but I can tell you I take 50mg and it doesn't make me depressed at all (but I sleep like 5 hours a night since starting that dose so I can see if you're sleeping 10+ hours being depressed).

Thank you unlived and Boots. I'll probably tell med dude to send over the 25mg and go back to taking that + melatonin or ZzzQuil. There's really no reason to become dependent on the 50mg Seroquel.

See I just wrote a question about add and bipolar. I got some adderall from my buddy the other day and it just leveled me out no mania or anything.

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My dad was feeding my dogs this summer when I was out of town. I get home and go over to their place to thank them and he started telling me how dirty my house was I told him if it bothered him so much he could clean it up he never said another word to me.

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brilliant!

My vent was covered by my tower fan! I just now saw it. I moved it out of the way when I started working out. No wonder its been colder then a witches tit in my room. I swore I was anemic.

My pharmacy has been out of the 100mil tabs of Prestiq for a week. I need 90. I'm not panicking yet. I have some of the 50's left. About a weeks left I think. I'll try another pharamacy tommorow. I have heard of some med shortages but I haven't had any issues until now.

That’s a dangerous thing to do

Yesterday I had a scratchy throat, running nose and eye. I decided not to go to aqua fitness this morning and am pretty sure I have a cold. But Because people with all their shots can get covid I’m taking a home test tomorrow to rule it out, but even if it’s negative I think I’ll have to reschedule my eye appointment! Drat. It takes so long to schedule eye appointments and I’m experiencing blurriness so I was looking forward to this.

I’ve got though one box of tissue already! I think they definitely don’t put as much tissue in a box as they used to. My nose is asking for puffs but we don’t have any and I can’t go running out to the store. Although I’m very, very tempted to mask up and run to Walmart and the library as I have a book waiting for me. But it’s inconsiderate.

After several days doing barely anything, yesterday was productive and pleasant. I finally got a mammogram, which was fine. I don't need another for 2 years. We found and scheduled an appointment with a nephrologist for me. Had another IKEA consultation for our upcoming kitchen. Did some shopping at one of Prague's nicest malls. Finally found an authentic Chinese restaurant. Went to the movies and saw "The Menu" with Ralph Fiennes and Anya Taylor-Joy. Reached my old psychiatrist in Brno for an e-script for a 3-month supply of my psych meds. [I see my new pdoc Feb 1.] Hubby reached his old neurologist for an e-script, too. He still needs to find a new one.

Today? Pharmacy to pick up the meds. We'll need a huge bag! Hopefully also the blood letting center, try to schedule my CT scan (for my sinuses) and maybe my follow-up gynecologist exam, as my monthly has FINALLY ended, naturally. With all of this, I feel notably better.

My family is excited about our visit. As part of the trip, we'll slip away to Mexico to warm up and regroup. We'll do some beach, but also historic sites. Neither Hubby nor I have ever been to Mexico. We can't really afford it, but who cares! As a bonus, Hubby's friend (the one that came and stayed in Brno this past summer), may just join us in Mexico for part. In New Jersey, we'll stay with another friend. She's one of the others that visited us this past summer in CZ, but sadly only outdoors and one day, as we had covid-19 at the time. She'll leave after a couple days to see her family in China, but we'll stay in her house the full time we're there.

I hope you feel better Nammu! Thank you for being considerate and not spreading germs. Around here people just don't care. Which means very little in-person shopping from the next few months.

I hope you feel better soon, Nammu! You are right to be careful for others. My husband and I had already received not only the two covid shots, but the booster when we got covid, but our cases weren't that bad. Still, we stayed home once we knew. We don't have it now, but we plan to wear masks on the plane (and in the airport) when we fly to visit my family. With my brother fighting cancer, it seems smart to do. We also got flu shots two weeks ago.

My father's assisted living facility only has outdoor visits right now. Two residents have covid. I sure hope that's over by the time we visit.