Bipolar check-in #71

Mountaindewed · Dec 06, 2022, 08:46 AM

After I moved the fan off my vent my room warmed up pretty quickly and I didn't wake up at 11 like I normally do. I slept pretty decently. I think I'm responding to the increase in the prestiq nicely. I do need caffeine in my system to stay stable though. I had a great therapy session yesterday and we share the same favorite singer who is not very well known.
She was blown away that someone else knows him too. We talked about his songs and just him in general. We were doing a puzzle which at first I thought would be distracting but it actually helped the session go very easy and helped me talk a lot more then I normally would. We were both honest about what we thought work would be like when I returned. She was not judgemental at all. She didn't comment about my body or say I was too skinny or that I needed to eat more but she didn't say I needed to lose weight either. We basically just talked about music and returning to work and how to handle that anxiety.

Man though. Kristie Alley. I was not expecting her to go.

MuddyBoots · Dec 06, 2022, 09:18 AM

Hope you feel better soon, Nammu

Aurelius710 · Dec 06, 2022, 09:47 AM

Get well soon @Nammu !

Aurelius710 · Dec 06, 2022, 10:11 AM

Back to work today, and hopefully this coming week won't be as interesting as the past one. No bizarre dressing downs, no medical crises, no ominous phone calls asking for my boss, that sort of thing!

That said, I do find myself in one of those "Day Before You Get Paid" situations today. I've got to scrimp, but only for a day. On the plus side, I've got gas in the tank to get to and from work and some no bean chili and yellow rice that I can bring for lunch. Shouldn't be too bad!

One thing that's going to be an aggravation is my energy levels. I've been unnaturally tired the past few days and the past couple of shifts. Weather is absolutely a factor, but my physical energy dipping tends to precede my psychological energy doing the same. I'm wondering if Vitamin D will help here. One of my old providers explored using vitamin D for precisely this. It makes sense. Sun's not out as often in winter, so a little extra on the side should help! Fingers crossed!

Mountaindewed · Dec 06, 2022, 01:15 PM

Does anyone notice a difference in how your meds work if you take them with like apple sauce or yogurt? I just took my last valium with a spoonful of vanilla Greek yogurt and I guess I feeel ok. But I'm not sure if it was the yogurt or not.

~Christina · Dec 06, 2022, 04:27 PM

Nammu !!! I hope you feel better asap!

Soupe glad you are getting some medical stuff behind you. Enjoy a trip back to NJ. I’m sure your family is excited to see you Gus again. Mexico sounds like a lovely idea

Beth so your fur babies don’t mess with holiday lights?

Rainbow how are you feeling since your biopsy? So grateful you got results quickly and don’t have to go through any more testing for a bit

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Scooter9 · Dec 06, 2022, 04:41 PM

I've been going to the gym with my trainer and alone. Everything is really weak so there's lots of work ahead.

The Gabapentin is effective with my anxiety, it's working well.

No change in my mood as a result of going to the gym - still depressed and feeling low but maybe that'll get better with time. There's always hope that things will get better.

~Christina · Dec 06, 2022, 04:45 PM

Nothing much going on. We have rain coming daily every day in the 10 day forecast! Not so hot for my Fibromyalgia and PsA but I’ll take rain over snow.

Well I guess it’s official we are keeping Maddie. Steve asked me to order her a name tag a couple days ago. He hasn’t done any actual training the basics with her. But he’s being more active in taking her out more which has been a real help.

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Nammu · Dec 06, 2022, 05:32 PM

Awww she has such a sweet face. I hope Steve steps up the training.

Moose72 · 08:18 PM

@~Christina That's a great picture of your new pup!

I have been sleeping in till 1 or 3 or something ridiculously late like that. Trading an interesting life for an interesting dream life.

I got put on keflex for my red area on my arm that I posted a photo of the other day. The area is better. I have 3 doses left. (I had to take one late today because I slept through the regular dose time.)

Moose72 · Dec 06, 2022, 07:44 PM

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Oooh, that's a large rash! I'm glad you get it checked out. Geez, that Shingles vax has hit you hard.

Yes it did!: I'm better now but yup fever and big rash!

otroo · Dec 06, 2022, 07:46 PM

Did an adult thing today. I have been thinking of going back to school again but was not sure if I was still smart enough. Well last night I was looking at classes for basic writing skills at the local community College and came across a link for adult education at the school I was looking at well they offered a free test to see where you were at first test was reading comprehension and I got a 6 out of 6 and the other test was math and I got a 4 out of 6. I am signed up for a free math class next year it looks like. I am excited to get out of this house more cause I have been isolating so bad lately.

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Moose72 · Dec 06, 2022, 08:13 PM

Tucson, I'm sorry you're having such a hard time of it lately. I hope your appointments and other care issues are sorted out ASAP. And hospital bills give everybody anxiety. Just try to focus on the good stuff- however small they may seem. I've had problems with anxiety too lately- it sux!: I hope you feel better soon!

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I feel helpless. I am going around using a walker, not able to put much if any weight on my left foot. I have trouble making meals, or doing anything. I cannot imagine the hospital bills coming my way, in the many thousands. I am getting allot of help from my neighbors. This just underlines with me how helpless I have been feeling. One neighbor appears to have taken over my care, or so it seems. She has boundary issues, but means well. She also questions much of what I say, even when it comes to the appointments that I make. I am sure it is not actually that bad, but this is how I have been feeling. I snapped at her when I told her the time of an appointment that I have today. She said the usual Â“Are you sure?Â”. Of course I am, I am the one who made the appointment! So I calmed down quickly enough, and apologized.

My daughter refuses to help me. The rehab facility met over this matter and scheduled a visit for me from every imaginable source of help. I will have five people visiting me every week. Amazing. The problem now is to schedule their visits with me. Also there are those that are dropping the ball. My case manager at a law firm tells me two weeks later that she does not have the police report yet. So I will have to get the friggin police report for them. Once again, I am worried about what I will owe in hospital bills. I am stressing over it.

I do not know what to do!

Moose72 · Dec 06, 2022, 08:16 PM

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Originally Posted by otroo

Did an adult thing today. I have been thinking of going back to school again but was not sure if I was still smart enough. Well last night I was looking at classes for basic writing skills at the local community College and came across a link for adult education at the school I was looking at well they offered a free test to see where you were at first test was reading comprehension and I got a 6 out of 6 and the other test was math and I got a 4 out of 6. I am signed up for a free math class next year it looks like. I am excited to get out of this house more cause I have been isolating so bad lately.

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I hope your math class is stimulating and fun! I've scored well on math placement tests but never done well in classes- go figure.

Nammu · Dec 06, 2022, 09:06 PM

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Originally Posted by Moose72

Yes it did!: I'm better now but yup fever and big rash!

I’m glad to hear your better. That was a vicious looking rash

Nammu · Dec 06, 2022, 09:14 PM

Well! I’m shocked. I only did the covid test to be able to tell the eye doctor I only had a cold. I’m positive! I’ve developed a nasty cough and I can’t hear anything with my left ear, but otherwise I just feel like I have a cold.

Now I have to isolate for 5 days. My daughter is picking up my order from the grocery and mum’s prescription. I have to reschedule my eye appointment and mum’s pt. I’m now masked up even though it might be too late. I’m the cook so served mum. But my symptoms until tonight we’re just running nose and eye. Even though I’m coughing now I’m wearing a mask.

I was so surprised to see that double line.

Victoria'smom · Dec 06, 2022, 09:14 PM

So I didn't get up until 5 pm. I ate and filled out more applications. I have my headphones on since I woke up.

Possible trigger:

Intrusive thoughts to self harm

Moose72 · Dec 06, 2022, 10:21 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Well! I’m shocked. I only did the covid test to be able to tell the eye doctor I only had a cold. I’m positive! I’ve developed a nasty cough and I can’t hear anything with my left ear, but otherwise I just feel like I have a cold.

Now I have to isolate for 5 days. My daughter is picking up my order from the grocery and mum’s prescription. I have to reschedule my eye appointment and mum’s pt. I’m now masked up even though it might be too late. I’m the cook so served mum. But my symptoms until tonight we’re just running nose and eye. Even though I’m coughing now I’m wearing a mask.

I was so surprised to see that double line.

Nammu I bet you were! I hope you don't feel too bad and that the 5 days goes quickly!

Moose72 · Dec 06, 2022, 10:23 PM

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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

So I didn't get up until 5 pm. I ate and filled out more applications. I have my headphones on since I woke up.

Possible trigger:

Intrusive thoughts to self harm

Do you have any prn for intrusive thoughts - like Haldol?

*Beth* · Dec 06, 2022, 10:35 PM

I've been on other parts of the forum and am a bit behind on this thread, so forgive me if I'm not mentioning everyone. You are still all in my thoughts.

Oh, my goodness @Nammu! Take GOOD care of yourself That's kind-of upsetting.

You're in my loving thoughts @Miguel'smom. You always are. I always have a special feeling about you.

That is absolutely so exciting @otroo!

I hope your fibro doesn't flare up @~Christina. I'm praying for you, sweetpea.

Victoria'smom · Dec 06, 2022, 10:35 PM

I'm using the last of my thorizen as a prn but I've taken it the last 2 days I can't afford to take it daily. H is splitting what I have left tomorrow so I have more. But I really need to keep it for emergencies.

*Beth* · Dec 06, 2022, 11:46 PM

I'm getting my hair cut tomorrow and very excited. My stylist and I have a great time together, singing, hugging, laughing.

In 2003 David and I were separated (very). I won't write out the entire story, I'll skip the details, I'll just say that I met a man and he and I lived together for 12 years. The first two years of our relationship were thrilling because he was so loving, so devoted. We had such fun together! Everything, even chores, were fun. During those two years I experienced a life I had never known before or since. Real joy. But things got bad and sad and eventually the relationship ended.

Last week or so I was scrolling around on Facebook and the name of the man I'd lived with popped up through a mutual friend. I was not thinking, it was like an instinctual response. I clicked on "Friend Request," stared at the button for 2 seconds, then I jumped, sat up and thought WHAT did I just do! and literally, not one bit more than 40 seconds after I had clicked on it - unclicked the request. Whew, I thought. I almost made a really stupid mistake.

So today I was on Facebook and I saw something that told me my former partner is now on my friend list. Obviously, in less than one minute he had seen my friend request and accepted it.

I messaged him and we messaged for an hour. He's alone and very isolated, just as I am. Lives with his cat (we're both cat people.) Fortunately, he lives in a different city, about 50 miles from where I live. But "talking" with him...I felt like someone had taken the key and unlocked my handcuffs. We shared twelve years and so many experiences, so many people, he was there when the kids were teenagers, David wasn't. We were both very involved in the cafe scene (the cafe were I worked). So much history. I feel like I have a reason to get up in the morning - to say, Hey, hi! Good morning!

I'm not sure what I've done, really.

otroo · Dec 07, 2022, 10:40 AM

For those of you that have medical bills in collections it is easy to get rid of those bills for free. All you need to do is go online to one of the credit reporting agencies and find on your credit report where it is in default then hit the button that says something like disagree when it asks why you are fighting it put "Hipaa violation". Some times you can only do so many bills at a time. Between my wife and me we had over $25000 in medical bills took almost a year to do it but I also saved $25000 by being patient.

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Nammu · Dec 07, 2022, 11:33 AM

Ooo I just spent an hour on the phone with my clinic, most of it on hold. I told them I tested positive for covid and asked for that medication they sometimes give out to people in the early days . I don’t know what took so long. The ultimate result was that I have to wait on my doctor to review my chart to determine if I am eligible for that medication. They did rule out serious complications and tell me I could call back any time. I didn’t know that. I thought the line was only from8am to 4pm. What do you know! They have a 24/7 phone line! And my eye appointment is now Jan 6th. Which is not bad, I was expecting March.

otroo · Dec 07, 2022, 12:03 PM

For the last I don't know how long I have only been getting a couple of hours if that of sleep. Yesterday I was feeling tired so I went to bed around 7 I woke up at 0830 this morning boy was that nice heck I did not even get up to pee all night lol.
I also think my Latuda is kicking with the new does I am up to 80mg. Not going to lie while I was working my way up to 80 I was on 60mg and accidentally took two one day and that really worked. I told my pdoc about it and she said 120mg is a reasonable does. So I guess Latuda is finally going generic the beginning of next year and she said we would move up to 120mg then. I really hope this helps.
I actually feel pretty decent this morning kind of like I am on the edge of mania maybe I am hypomanic right now but it has that good euphoric feeling but no racing thoughts. I have been having mixed episodes lately and they are the worse ones I have ever had.

Hope everyone has a great day.

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