Bipolar check-in #71

I'm feeling under the weather but I tested negative for covid and it was too late to cancel anything so I just went about my day. I'm mainly just very very tired and worn out. I saw my blood doctor. She says things look good. My numbers are good. I'm drinking enough water. I can start seeing her every 4 months instead of every 3 months but to still keep with the monthly blood tests. Yeah this issue certainly wasn't me being a "hypocrondiac" though. Anyways we left for our trip later then we wanted. Now I'm just zoned out in bed while my mom and brother are out doing stuff. I have the door to the hotel room bolted and housekeeping came by like an hour ago and screamed "Housekeeping!" And banged on the door and then tried yanking it open. It scared the **** out of me and I said "theres someone in here!" I heard some mumbling going on and I guess they figured out they already cleaned the room. It sure made me uneasy even though it sounded like a young women who was doing it. Anyways I'm currently starving but I can't do anything about it. And I'm super tired but I can't lock my mom and brother out. Theres some places I want to check out in the morning though. Basically I'm just not 100% physically today. But I went to the doctors without my hat on. Which is super good progress when I can leave the house without my hat.

Just tested mum. She’s got no symptoms but she’s very tired, but then she’s 94. She’s negative thank goodness. I was walking around unmasked for 2 days. Other than feeling I’m underwater and having water in my ears I don’t feel badly. Then my ribs hurt from coughing so hard and I’m not hungry. The doctor decided since I’m all vaccinated and boosted and in fair condition that I didn’t need the antivirals.

My daughter is bringing more tests with the food. She’s very close to my mum and worried. Mum is really slowing down

Oh, no I was wrong. I thought from the message that the Mayo put on my portal they decided against the antivirals. But no they just sent my info to a specialist. She called me a while ago and ruled out the more effective medication because I’m on an AP and it’s counter indicated. This one is less effective but still better than nothing. But holy molely I’ve got to take 4 pills at once twice a day for 5 days. I really hope my loss of hearing is just temporary. I can baby hear as it is. I’ve googled hearing loss and it is a rare side effect usually temporarily.

Oh my therapist was mad. He says first I was abandoned by my pdoc who leaves for another state this week. They never offered to help me get meds til I could find a new
Pdoc so I had to hurry. In the meantime
He wouldn’t fill my meds and you could say I’m a little elevated lol I’m
Back on my meds now but he’s worried about me.

He got really upset when he found out thr new pdoc I’m seeing is a nurse practitioner with only two years of psych experience and he had a PA do the assessment on me while
He listened. It was annoying to say the least but man Matt didn’t like
It. He looked up a specific dr he wants me to call.

If it isn't money logistics, it's med logistics. I'm out of my Abilify. I have a scrip ready, but it's at the other Wally World pharmacy. I could arrange to have it transferred, but this comes on the heels of arranging to have everything sent that other pharmacy. Ugh. It's only for one day though.

Speaking about money logistics, the car and home insurance payments are due and I don't have the money to pay them at this moment. The internet bill alone is gonna suck $80 out of my funds. I need the internet, if for nothing else than to chat with my PsychNP. Ugh.

Work has been solid. Good sales. (I even made top of the region for the beginning of the month at one store!) I just wish I could understand why, for the past week, I have had no fewer than three members of a competitor sales company at my stores, including at least one supervisor. They're all nice and personable, but that doesn't change the fact they're the competition and we're all, quite literally, stepping on each other's toes. Also, it's hard not to feel under scrutiny with that many people working "against" you.

One more positive note: For the next three weeks at least, I'll be getting 38 hours. Proper full time work at a job I enjoy! No complaints there!

I can't tell if I'm just being a little bytch or if it's genuinely cold in here. The thermostat is set to 68 which should be warm considering I've been out in 20dF weather without much of a problem. As it is I'm wearing a long sleeve T, a hoodie, a thick hunting hat, and slippers and I'm considering putting on some fingerless gloves!

Ohh muddy 69 is chilly if your not moving about. Personally I like 68 but mum can’t do anything under 72. I think it has to do with humidity, moving vs not moving and personal thermometer of our bodies that can change depending on when and what we last ate. So a temperature that is usually ok can seem cold if we are lacking proper fuel.

Oh Nammu I’m so sorry you have Covid. Hope it’s over with quickly and Mum doesn’t catch it

Beth that’s pretty exciting being able to reconnect. Hope it continues to be a positive thing in your life.

Otroo That’s interesting about things in collections. I’ll have to certainly check into it

Moose. Hope that rash heals up quickly. Do remember to increase fluid intake while on antibiotics.

Wild?! How are you ??

Soupe ?! When do you make the trip up NJ ?

MM .. no luck getting any kind of refills ? Walk-in clinic? Sometimes they help with a refill if you have pill bottle to show them you are on X meds . Just a thought ?

Blue ! How are you ?!

Hugs and cookies to everyone

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I’m just feeling all kinds of grumpy today.

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I hope you feel better soon Christina

Sorry I haven't posted much lately, just been busy

I got a fitbit and it's been motivating me to be a lot more physically active. I've been getting around 10,000 steps a day and getting on the treadmill, doing weights, resistance bands exercsises and also started going to a yoga class. Yesterday I managed to do one hour and 15 minutes of yoga, I did not expect myself to last that long but I pushed through and made it till the end so I'm really proud of myself

I had my yearly physical with my primary care doctor today
My appointment went well. He said everything looks good in my bloodwork, cholesterol is somewhat elevated but he knows I’m working on that. And he is sending out a referral to a female OBGYN for a pap exam for me , I should get a call from them in 2 weeks. And he sent out refills for my omeprazole. Enough to get through the next year until my next physical since I’m doing well on it. He ordered bloodwork which I will get done before my next physical in a year from now. My blood sugar is good, low risk for diabetes shown in my bloodwork so that’s good, my electrolytes, kidney, liver, thyroid , heart all good. Blood pressure is good.

I'll post some pics of the cats in a little bit, they're doing well. Waiting on the scratching post I got them for Christmas to be delivered, they also have some new toys

I won a 20 piece flatware set at my apartment building's community bingo game today, so that was a nice surprise

Hope you feel better/recover soon Nammu!

Here they are, pics from today

@bluebird. Wow! You’re really motivated and all kinds of. Positives in your life. That is so good to hear! Thanks for sharing

Ha, miss M looks so affronted that you took her picture.

Hugs to you, as well Christina. I hope tomorrow feels brighter. Tell your doggies you need a lick and cuddles.

We leave the end of next week.

@Soupe De Jour; so soon. Wow. Good luck with your travels

My trip was not the greatest. I'm glad to be home. I didn't eat well because my stomach was upset. I get its food related. My therapist told me I need a combination of carbs and protein in the morning. Normally I don't hit my protein goal until dinner. If I hit it at all. Anyways my trip just wasn't fun. I didn't have any issues besides the weird housekeeping episode. I'm not really anxious about anything and I'm looking forward to the holidays. So it doesnt feel like depression much. So I'm guessing it really is just the same old food issues. I just ate a serving of high protein plain Greek yogurt with a tablespoon of cinnamon mixed in. So that was decent.

I lied and told the office staff at work I’m so crazy today bc of late mid day cup
Of coffee lol today fleeeeeeeew by! I called the dang dr my t told me to. I didn’t have access to my Medicare card though so I have to call em
Back. Been seeing some spiders like mostly it’s I see thinks scuttle in my peripheral that looks like a spider. Stupid t had me do a safety plan like usual. He’s worried I’ll slip into thr black
Abyss and need
To go ip “against my will”

Hey everyone! I haven’t been around, just because there’s been nothing to report lol. I’ve been reading and giving out hugs!

I’m doing very well. My haldol taper is over and I am so much more comfortable now! I don’t Fidget at all! No mouth or tongue movements and I can finally sit still with no tremor. I’m definitely happier. I haven’t started on abilify yet, I see my psych nurse on Saturday to start it up. She’s confident I can get by on a low dose because I did well emotionally on the low dose of haldol. I’m just hoping it doesn’t upset the apple cart.

I went to the dentist for my permanent bridge and they didn’t give me enough novacaine! I felt everything, it was terrible. I don’t know why I didn’t stop them. I just never want to interfere with medical procedures and I also think I shouldn’t be a baby but I guess dental work is a different ball game. They couldn’t even complete the procedure because my gums are still inflamed! So I have to go back! When I do I will ask for more novacaine, that’s for sure!

Tomorrow I have another unpleasant medical procedure so I took off the whole day. It’s the EMG test for the carpal tunnel syndrome. They shoot electric current through your nerves and I’ve had one before and it sucks. But I’ll take the rest of the day for Christmas shopping/wrapping. RS has off as well so we’re gonna have a nice kid free lunch together.

And then on Saturday we’re going to a concert! We’re going to see less than jake, a band I’ve loved since I was a teenager. I haven’t been to a concert since 2019. And this is very exciting because I’ve always wanted to see them.

Today wasn't so bad, even without the Abilify. Solid sales day, and I was even able to deal with the contentious customer service issues without undue anxiety. I'm in the area of my preferred pharmacy tomorrow, so I'll be able to pick up my meds before work.

I bought some lights for my Christmas tree to replace the built in ones that burned out. To make a long story short, I never actually took down my Christmas tree from last year as I lost my job not long after the Holiday season, was depressed and eventually attrition took over. Had to pull out some cobwebs, but at least I don't have to assemble it this year! Ha ha!

Well I got an appt
With the pdoc my t is really wanting me to see. Eyeroll. I swear I’m fine but he insists my situation is complicated and he wants me to see a pdoc

I was kind of heavy on the melatonin last night. And I didn't eat a lot yesterday. I had yogurt and an apple for dinner. I fell asleep around 5 and then I woke up at 9 but I was able to get back to sleep shortly after until 2 something. I ate a Lunchable and a piece of fruit and then worked out for 24 minutes at 3:30. I couldn't push myself to do the whole 30 minutes. I missed Wenesdays workout so I may have been off. I did 100 crunches with my ab roller, 32 reps with my hand weights, 30 squats with my kettlebell, 30 side bends with each arm with my kettlebell and then another 55 crunches with the ab roller. I've eaten today and I've only had Coke and water to drink. Not any Mountain Dew or coffee. But idk. I feel just kinda lightheaded and washed up which is a normal feeling for me these days. I've gotten some motivation though and I got under my bed swept which was a huge mess. I also am finally starting on my laundry and I have sworn to myself I will put it all away this time.

We had 7 inches of the white stuff. Completely snowed in. Fortunately I took the garbage out last night so they were able to get that. But then the container sat on top of the snow at the end of the driveway. No plow guy? Finally our nice neighbor came over with his snowblower and cleared off the driveway. Feels good to have a way out if we need it.

Really thinking my Latuda is kicking in again. Feeling pretty good today so far.

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Jealous of the snow, Nammu. We haven't gotten anything substantial here yet, although the skies did just piss all over us a few days ago. Even the ice melts during the day. And to think just a few years back kids were trying to figure out combining halloween costumes and snow pants!

That's great otroo! Keep it up