Bipolar check-in #71

Yesterday, I had a work related issue that took five and a half hours of my time and I still couldn't solve it! My customers are making the hour long trek to my other store to continue the process. I expended so much mental energy on this task, I dreamed I was still doing it! At any rate, I did a little research when I woke up, so I have a few avenues to explore for solutions.

Had to chat with my boss because of the absurdly long length of time (most of my shift and all of my breaks) it took to get them nowhere. She was sympathetic, but said don't make a habit of it. Fair enough.

I really hope I can get them situated!

I was getting coffee and I didn't hear it but the guy working the window said "uh oh someone got shot." Then I saw a bunch of flashing lights and an ambulance. Also some dude walked right up to our car and knocked on the drive thru window to ask if the inside was open. I thought he was a door dash driver or something. All of this would have freaked me out 3 years ago but now I'm just like "whatever. As long as it doesn't involve me" I have never heard of any hate crimes in the area. Just gang related stuff mainly. Not safe the way it was in my old state thats for sure. But its not that bad here.

Today I don't have any plans. I keep meaning to buy eggnog though. I slept in 2 shifts last night but I slept at least. My anxiety is mild to moderate and my moods and depression are fine.

I ate a Lunchable and an Oikos yogurt and a vegan coconut yogurt while I was up at 1:30 and I felt like this weird glutton for some reason despite that not being a lot of food I don't think. And considering I barely ate anything for dinner. Idk. It was just an odd feeling I had this morning. I haven't eaten since, I've just had coffee.

Mum is in a regular covid room at the hospital. They are concerned for her heart. She’s on oxygen but not a ventilator. She’s getting an 3 day IV covid protocol . I just feel bad no one can be with her. We are all under quarantine. I found some flowers to send so she knows we’re thinking of her. But all in all she did well over night.

Thinking of you and your family, Nammu.

Holy shyt, Md. I would've been freaking out.

Aurelius I've had those dreams where work follows you home. Not fun.

Christina I hope you can do whatever is best for Maddie. Hope your depression eases soon.

Mm hang in there. Sending much love

Beth- Hope the infection clears up soon. Sorry your T was being the way she was. She should've been more thoughtful. Is Keflex the one that makes your pee orange?

Hallie- I'm thinking of you and your mawmaw. Hope she recovers and quickly

Hugs and loves to anyone I've missed

They’re still worried about mawmaw but said she’s doing a bit better today.!!!!! Both of them will need to go to rehab but that’s a good thing bc neither are capable of living alone as she I blind and he is just confused a lot and falls all the time

I don't know how old the dog is but have you tried kennel training. We have used that method for all our dog.
Basically you put them in the kennel then take them out to feed and then potty and some play time then right back into the kennel they go. Length of time varies I would start with a week with your pup.

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Just got word that mum also has pneumonia, so it will probably be a few days. But they tell me she is doing good.

Same with my mawmaw. She was struggling to breathe

I’m glad they’re both in hospitals where they can be monitored. How old is your Meemaw?

Well I worked an official job today. I drove for doordash for a little today. Thought I was going to have problems with my anxiety but it was ok.

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed . I guess its just like that saying "no pain no gain" or some **** like that.

NO!!! When I was a teen I was became involved in ballet and modern dance. My dance teachers (dance teachers are infamous for overworking their students and encouraging them to starve themselves. At age 32 I was 5'6" & weighed 102lbs) worked us to death and all we heard was NO PAIN NO GAIN. Over and over. So I carried that with me throughout my 20's and 30's and into my early 40's dancing, cycling, running, weightlifting. Then I tore my shoulder rotator cuff. That messed everything up. Definitely no more weightlifting, which I loved.

I got lucky and had an excellent PT and I told her, Well, you know how it is - no pain, no gain. She was Absolutely not! Never! The moment you feel pain your body is telling you to stop! So. Immediately stop and lessen your activity or you risk injury. Got it?

That kind-of changed my life about a lot of things.

Haha, no @MuddyBoots, Keflex isn't the orange pee one. I think that antibi is one that treats TB. I'll probably be testing positive for TB any day now, though. I'll keep you posted.

The kennel training method! @otroo and @~Christina, do you know, my sister adored Labradors and over some decades had a succession of gorgeous ones. Most were black, but there was one darling blonde Lab, Cerveza, she was my girl. They were always beautifully trained, and the method she used was the kennel method. She swore by it.

Funny you posted this. I was just going to post that one of my most repeated lines when I was working was "Pain is your body's way of saying NO!"

Same thing, different therapist

The town in which I live hasn't had a holiday parade for 2 years due to covid. This year the town was supposed to hold a huge parade not in the morning, but to go all out at 4 p.m., a big light show with the floats decorated, colorful lights, the whole 9 yards. Tons of money dumped into the festivities, support small business people!- you name it.

I've been proud of it all. Go town! I decided I wasn't going to attend, although I live close enough to Main Street that I can stand in a certain place and see a bit of what's happening there. Still, I've felt proud of the town doing something so special and I was excited for the people, especially kids, who would enjoy the parade.

So this morning I awoke, got online, and the morning news: Holiday Parade Cancelled Due to Rain.

I thought it was a joke. Oh, you silly town council! But, no. Fabulous electric festival parade cancelled due to rain. Due to RAIN!

Okay. It rained and was gusty overnight. The rain is winding down, by tonight "showers" are predicted The wind has stopped - hours ago. I'm actually embarrassed to say this, but- right now the sky is bright and sunny, at this moment, anyway.

I can imagine it: 4 p.m. rolls around. The rain is long gone, wind is a memory. The sun is out as dusk falls. No parade. Children all over town hysterically sobbing because...no parade. Frustrated parents, because...no parade.
Hi! It's the holiday season and it's winter! There may be a bit of showers - umbrellas, anyone?
Welcome to the genuinely laughable side of California This is why my dad's family who, when they came out here from NYC to visit, laughed at us. "A little rain," they'd say, "and everyone panics."

I called David, expecting him to say WHAT?! They CANCELLED it?! No. David, all family from California, going back 1,000 years, apparently fear-ers of rain, calmly stated, "Oh, yes, I think they did the right thing." Breathe. Just breathe.

In over 100 years do you know how many times the NYC Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade was cancelled? ONCE. Do you know why? It was cancelled at the start of WWII because the rubber for the balloons was needed for the war effort.

Athletes have learned better ways of training, and it's about time! Thank you @BeyondtheRainbow

You ever get like on edge kind of like the beginning of mania or anxiety? Maybe I am hypo manic what do you all do if you get this way?

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Originally Posted by otroo You ever get like on edge kind of like the beginning of mania or anxiety? Maybe I am hypo manic what do you all do if you get this way? Sent from my SM-S901U using Tapatalk

I say, Thank you, God, because I'm finally not depressed. That's as long as it's a nice hypomania.

Mania is a different story. That needs immediate treatment.

Anxiety? I get in to see my prescriber to adjust meds as soon as I possibly can.

For those of you who saw and wondered or for those who PM'ed and have asked WTHeck - I apologize for the confusion. I have slipped and accidentally used my first name on the forum before. To clarify: My IRL name is (first name) Laurie (middle name) Beth. I go by "Laurie," although some friends like to call me Laurie Beth, which is fine. I was named after the characters in Little Women.

When I signed on to the forum I was going to use Laurie; surprisingly it had already been used in several ways. I really like my middle name, so went with that. XOXO

Nammu and Halliebeth I'm sorry that your moms are in the hospital with covid! I hope they are well taken care of and heal quickly!

So I'm sitting here soupose to be wrapping all I can think about is the mess. How I'm a mess. That yet again I'm getting sick. I'm soupose to start my meds Monday and all I want to do is and cry. Why cry no idea. I think I'm going to take thorizen and go to bed early. I'm not going to wrap.

Update: h came and took the sharp objects out of the room gave me thorizen and reminded me he's not divorcing me.