Bipolar check in #73

Thank you for saying that! We are all different and what works for one does not have to work for another. With CBT much depends on if the therapist is able to form bounds with their patients. One has to feel that the therapist is really interested in helping and not occupied with the tools only. When one has got the impression that the therapist wants one to succeed, it is much more easy, after the therapy, to keep the good "curious mind" open about how to solve this or that . The solutions comes along the road as one walks.

I think I can make use of these tools much better later, but for now I have to take it easy because of an enormous tiredness, one step at the time.

I hope you are able to not self harm and that you will get the ECT you want at the place you want it to be done.

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25 ... I’m going to call the dept over and over again until someone picks up. ...

Good. I believe you're doing the best thing to take care of yourself. I'm pulling for you, wfc.

wildflower we all love you

My blood pressure is 102 over 77 my pulse is 83. and I am so lethargic. My mom doesn't seem too concerned. She says its low but we'll take it again in an hour. My anxiety is fine. So idk.

Thanks friends! College is rough. I can’t
Believe I’ll be. A college graduate. Me and my sister are
First generation college grads

Hallie your the clevererest Hallie on the whole of the internets

H just sat down and ran the numbers and told me I can not be a service dog trainer. I wanted to do 1 puppy at a time over 2 years at a time. I hate that I'm supportive but if it's me it's a no. Because we won't get a return. They say art is cheaper. It's not like I get a return from that. I've spent more on that hobby then this but because this costs I can't. It's stupid. I need a way to save money so I can do what I want.

Someone has to be the first in a family. I was the first in mine. It was difficult, but possible! I have underlined "was" because that is the thruth. "Difficult, but not impossible".

I am telling you this so that when you come to "a place" in your study, where you feel it is too dificult, then you shall remember that it is extra difficult to be one of the first in a family, and so, instead of giving up, you drag yourself through the difficult parts.

YOU CAN DO IT!

Am sending good wishes and the best of luck your way! Enjoy!

Wish you well with that!

Uff da the waiting list for the senior apartments is years long. So I just applied to sec 8. I need to find my SS card it’s been 7 years since I last needed it. They now say not to carry it but keep it in a safe place. A safe place for me is always forgotten.

After h woke up from a nap he apologized and we were able to make plans for the future. I think he realizes I need something and he discouraged going back to university for me. I have online art classes but that's not interactive enough for me. I'm without meds, without hope and grasping at straws. My parents still have my sdit and keep claiming she's not ready yet. I've gotten to the point I don't want her because she won't be attached to me. Her personality is what they want in a dog not me. I guess we'll see what next year brings. I hate being so ungrateful. But they were only soupose to have her until she was 16 weeks not 2 years old. I don't want to say anything to hurt their feelings. So I can't even say nevermind. There's no winning in this situation. I'm just going to have to try with this dog I don't trust. I encouraged h to study to eventually go back to school. I encourage Miguel to go after things. Yet anything I want is "too much", doesn't make a profit, or I can't handle it. Yet it was all we can do x when we move.

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Originally Posted by Nammu Uff da the waiting list for the senior apartments is years long. So I just applied to sec 8. I need to find my SS card it’s been 7 years since I last needed it. They now say not to carry it but keep it in a safe place. A safe place for me is always forgotten.

My goodness, I had no idea the waiting list would be so long. That's no good. Well, I'm glad you applied to section 8.


Yikes, I have carried the same ss card in my wallet for 38 years. The edges are all worn away and the card paper is yellow and thin. I guess I need to replace it

My husband and I will drive 2 1/2 hours to Chemnitz, Germany today (just a little over the border) to pickup a new sink at an IKEA. At no IKEA in CZ was that sink available except in Ostrava, which is twice as far as the German city and it is only a floor model that can't be shipped. There's not a lot else to see in Chemnitz. It's only really famous for its industrial museum and Karl Marx monument. Dresden, a much nicer city and the same distance, didn't have that sink either. German IKEAs don't ship to CZ. Shipping to either of his siblings in Munich is not an option, plus Munich is much further away.

I'm really beat! Not sure how I got through my Czech class last night. I'm pushing and pushing. Keep writing that I need a break, but not getting one.

I hope you get the sink in Germany and perhaps enjoy the trip a little. To see an industrial museum can be fun if you have enough energy. It tells about the generations before us (if there are houses/rooms where people lived in as well). I understand that your energy is low. I only mentioned it just in case ...

When the sink is bought and brought to your house, I hope there will be a pause for a time, so you can be able to have the rest you need before you move on to have to do the "things" you really have to do in your daily life.

Thanks, Rosi700! Hubby mentioned an interest in the museum, but I just didn't have it in me. Maybe someday. IKEA in Germany tends to have cheaper prices than the ones in CZ. It's interesting how some things are cheaper in CZ (gas, restaurants, general cost of living), while others are cheaper in Germany (consumer goods). Right now we literally just reentered Czech Republic.

We got what we wanted, and more, from IKEA.

I went to aqua fitness this morning. I’m always so glad when I go. There’s a nice comradeship, not friends, but more than acquaintances. Of course we’re all in the same age cohort, so that gives another nudge.

As soon as my hair dries I have to go get a new SS card. Can’t find the “safe” place I put it.
But I want to get the papers turned in asap.

It’s getting more real, day by day as I don’t see her.

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Originally Posted by Nammu I went to aqua fitness this morning. I’m always so glad when I go. There’s a nice comradeship, not friends, but more than acquaintances. Of course we’re all in the same age cohort, so that gives another nudge. As soon as my hair dries I have to go get a new SS card. Can’t find the “safe” place I put it. But I want to get the papers turned in asap. It’s getting more real, day by day as I don’t see her.

Good for you for going to aqua fitness.

Got quite a bit on today. Need to get to the grocery store, my son has swimming lessons and then a birthday party. Then I want to try pack some boxes this afternoon. Going to cook a big mac and cheese for dinner tonight.

I'm glad you're still getting to the aqua fitness classes. I always remember how much you've liked them this/these past year(s). Hope you get the new SS card. Don't be surprised if you find the old one as soon as you get a new one. It often works that way.

Your mom will always be with you in spirit. I am sorry that she's not with you face to face.

I am glad that you have access to to an aqua fitness in this time. You really need that now when your mother has passed away.

I have lacked motivation this day, but have been able to clean a bedroom in small portions at the time. So it is going forward, but very slowly.

I've been very sleepy. Not depressed, just so sleepy. I finally laid down and fell asleep for 45 minutes. I haven't been sick since August, but feel like my body is fighting something off. I'd sleep all afternoon if I could, but too much to do. Work with the book business.

I have the first appointment with the new pdoc in one week. It has to be by telehealth, which I so dislike. Oh, well. Hella better than therapy by telehealth. I hope this one is an improvement over S. (med dude). I have my meds in a really good place, so I hope the new one doesn't change anything. The only change I'd make is increasing Zyprexa to 7.5mg.

Wife files for divorce two weeks before 5 year anniversary. 5 year anniversary comes around, gift from 6 months ago goes to her and her father to use (Hamilton tickets), and I end up at Red Robin alone, and then have a panic attack in a movie theater. Good times, my friends.