Bipolar check in #73

Thanks Beth

I hope you're doing better today

Today is the 3rd year anniversary that I began my medical transition. 3 years later, countless injections, 3 surgeries, and days of going through happiness and hell I feel so thankful to fully be me.

Today is also the 8 year anniversary of me being out of the pysch hospital. Although 2020 was not easy and I had many many close calls and one assement and then had to do IOP late December-early January 2021. My hystrectomy in late 2021 saved my mental health and my life

Today I don't have any plans. My sister is dropping the kids off in a bit for a few hours. I feel tired and foggy from some cough syrup I took last night for some minor cold like stuff.

What a fun & educational article @Blue_Bird. Thank you for that! There's an all-day/night street festival here today, just 3 blocks from my apartment. I'm going to walk over for a least a little while, just people watch. Enjoy your lovely meal today

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed Today is the 3rd year anniversary that I began my medical transition. 3 years later, countless injections, 3 surgeries, and days of going through happiness and hell I feel so thankful to fully be me. Today is also the 8 year anniversary of me being out of the pysch hospital. Although 2020 was not easy and I had many many close calls and one assement and then had to do IOP late December-early January 2021. My hystrectomy in late 2021 saved my mental health and my life ...

Congratulations on the immense amount of self-awareness and COURAGE you have, Md! You're a pioneer in so many, many ways.

The first hours of this day was fine, but I felt tired and rested a bit (not asleep). After that I had trouble to go on with my day.

I don't know what I said to myself that made it so difficult to go on. May be it was a lot about not being good enough.

I have to think about this, because it is not the first time I have experienced this.

How can one go on with one's day when the day does not follow the pattern it should have followed (today it was some time at the sofa that wasn't in the plan). Any suggestions?

(I'll order some food).

Am glad you are moving on with your life!

Be kind to yourself, Beth! But I understand your reaction. I have it the same way, not with meds, but with other "things". I am tolerant toward others, but not always with myself.

I am sorry on your behalf!

CONGRATULATION!

I could literally scream I’m so happy

I was just notified that I got the volunteer position at PetSmart working with taking care of the cats there. Their litter, food , blankets, etc. I will work there on every Tuesday from 10am to 12pm.

I was just randomly checking my email and saw an email from the person that said they were looking through applications and wanted to know if I’d like the position

I wasn’t sure if I’d hear from them after I put my application in a couple weeks ago.

So I’ll be doing that position and then occasionally helping out at a different place near here to kitchen prep/serve meals to the community

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Congrats that’s awesome!

I’m happy for you

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Congratulations 🎈 that’s a perfect volunteer position for you. You know cats! Oh how wonderful! I’m happy for you.

That seems to me a lovely anniversary to recognize. I'm glad you feel fully you now. It's so important in life to be true to oneself in the most important ways. It's too bad there are people in this world that are ignorantly unaware of this significance.

You're a good guy, Mountaindewed!

That sounds like such a rewarding thing to offer the little kitties. They will surely thank you so much for it.

Just today I was looking at websites here in Czech Republic for cat adoptions. Most of the places are ones that take in stray cats or kitties whose human parent was no longer able to care for them (or passed on). The Czech people at those places weren't that great at marketing them, though. I was shocked by how they referred to some as "brats" and other negative names. It is the case that many are being nursed for horrible maladies from being strays, and even PTSD. I imagine the cats at PetSmart are hopefully healthy. It is a hard decision for me in terms of wanting to help an animal in distress, or maybe being incapable of handling such a responsibility.

I picked up thr zyprexa. I’m
Gonna take it when I get home

I'm so itchy everywhere I can't stop scratching! I don't know if I'm allergic to something I was packing yesterday. I'm allergic to dust it makes my eyes red and itchy but my eyes are fine. It's my skin that's so itchy.

I need to take my 4 year old son to my GP for a referral to either a paediatrician or a child psychologist - not sure which one. I'd definitely say in my unprofessional opinion he has ADHD, even at this young age. We also have problems with him eating ... I can name only 4 foods he eats. He absolutely refuses to eat anything else. And, we're seriously struggling to toilet train him at home. 5 days a week he's in underpants. He will poo and wee in the toilets at daycare but my toilet at home has monsters. I've tried every shape potty you can think of including porta-loos that are smaller (his toilets at daycare are quite low to the ground).

I won't medicate him either way it's just to get some strategies for his teachers next year. I know it's a young age but I know he is SO different from my older 2 kids who were this age that there's "something" there that's not within the realm of other 4 year olds. Don't know what it is...

Just to let you know, my guy had ptsd when I brought him home from the shelter. He stuck to me like a burr, gobbled his food and threw it up and had horrible anxiety. But I fed him a teaspoon of food waited a few minutes fed him another teaspoon. After a while he stopped gobbling and started grazing. He calmed down a lot after about 6 months. He still will have nothing to do with doors that lead outside. But otherwise is a calm confident fellow. I hope this helps you think you can adopt a rescue. He no longer follows me on my heel but he does prefer to be in the same room. I’ve had him for over 13 years and he was around 6 when I got him. So an older cat who was traumatized. He turned out to be a great companion. Very trainable. I train all my cats to stay off kitchen counters and everything in the kitchen is off limits for safety reasons. So I hope you don’t get scared away.

Mothers know. My daughter’s first has problems and she knew. Even without other kids. He has some rare unpronounceable unspellable form that’s on the spectrum but only affects him physically. It’s good you are looking at early intervention. Good luck.

I am so sorry about all the health problems @~Christina. You haven't had a break all winter.

@Rosi700, are you perhaps too hard on yourself? It sounds to me that you will accept nothing less than perfection in your pursuit toward self-growth. Perhaps that in itself is something you might consider working on.

@Blue_Bird, I am sooo happy for you! Lucky you and lucky kitties! How did you find out how to apply to be a volunteer with the cats?

Yeah it should be a really therapeutic job

Actually my therapist mentioned it offhand, she heard of the program that works with the local Petsmart and she recommended it to me at our session last month, so right after that I applied, she thought it might be a good fit for me since she knew I was looking for volunteer work and she knows I love cats and have 2 cats. She gets to see my cats sometimes during our video sessions. Ocassionally Mustachio or Maybelle will make an appearance on the screen/camera

I just got back from the vets. Sir is blind. I thought his vision was impaired but she said he’s blind. That explains why he no longer looks at the rabbits and squirrels outside. I called him the other day, singing out rabbit. He came and walked up to the window and even though there was a rabbit sitting right there he turned and walked away. She said he may have a tumor, to watch for seizures and indications of pain. She gave me pain meds but he’s shown no signs of pain. Because of his years they don’t recommend any more invasive treatments or X-rays. Poor guy. He’s doing sooo very well for being blind. She said he probably sees shadows. He looks and is otherwise very healthy for his age. He doesn’t look old. His coat is in great shape.

I’m glad Sir is mostly healthy, I will keep him and you in my prayers though and hope he doesn’t have a tumor. he sounds like such a cool wise cat

You’re lucky to have eachother

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Aww poor kitties

My cat Maybelle was very skiddish when I first got her. It wasn’t from PTSD but from uprooting her life of living with my sister her whole 13 years to living with me. Senior cats have a hard time adjusting to change. She’s been with me a year now and she adjusted really well. Some cats take some patience but they usually come around once they know they’re safe

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Damn zyprexa kicks my aaa. That 5mg knocks me out