Bipolar Check-in #74

I was actually told by a friend the best thing to do is get what you can and refinance when you graduate for a lower interest rate when possible. It’s high bc I have a car loan I’m
Sure. And I don’t have a co-signer. But for now it looks like I can go for my masters. I’ll Just bne laying over $300 a month in loans after graduating

All the best with your Masters

I’m doing… not great. Really worried about a depressive episode as I’ve been in bed for a couple of days, sleeping too much and I feel hyper anxious.
I’ve not been looking after myself properly for the last week, showering is a struggle. Even finding motivation to get up and pee is super hard.
I’ve been well for over a year and I don’t want to go downhill. Urgh this is not good.

My poor brother has a collapsed lung from either his pneumonia or broken ribs (cancer in them). Liquid is accumulating in his chest. Tomorrow they will siphon it out in hopes that his lung gets back to "normal". It's just torture for him and my sister...and me. My sister and I are wishing for mercy for him.

Today we were getting more from storage to bring into the house. The storage place is full of dust and molds. I had a coughing fit from it, then my chest felt funny for hours. I'll take a break from going to that place for a day or two. I think I'm super sensitive to molds. Probably even an allergy.

Good and bad news for the past few days.

The good? Most of the pain and stiffness related to my incision and the surgery proper is gone! I can move around my home, walk around outside and, most importantly, get up and down with minimal effort. Still some work to be done, but everything happening there looks promising!

I was even able to corral the worst of the nausea and hiccup symptoms this morning! I, with much effort, was able to get a dissolvable Zofran to dissolve properly and do its job after which I was able to make the spoonful of sugar home remedy work for my hiccups. No vomiting and no uncontrollable hiccups in between or during the vomiting? Win-win. I was even able to eat something solid today too!

The underlying issue, the problems with the tongue and it's nerve(s), is starting to become the subject of a "pass the buck" game with the providers. My surgeon's office repeatedly tried to say this was not their problem, foisting me off to my primary care provider. A problem with their "not my problem" logic: the numb tongue was one of the first things I noticed when I woke up from the procedure. Whatever caused it, happened in the OR.

As of right now, I have 1/2-3/4 of a tongue that's numb and perpetually dry with no taste from it. When I get over that particular hurdle, there's a part of my throat that I have to put in a bit more effort to swallow food or drink. The hospital seems to be acting like I'm going to sue them by the tone and tenor of my interactions the past few days. At this point, I'm not interested in liability. I'm interested in a fix and their unwillingness to look into it is concerning.

Okay - this is just something fun so I hope okay to post here. I am thinking of buying myself this mini backpack for doing all the painting (it is not expensive). I think it is so cute. What do you guys think? There are other colors but I like this gray-green.

So sorry. I'm suffering from depression right now too and some exhaustion.


One thing that helps me is watching short videos on Youtube on the subject of depression and anxiety. I watch Therapy in a Nutshell, Dr. Tracey Marks and the Crappy Childhood fairy.

Have you tried meditation? That helps me too. It really helps to quiet my mental process even for a few minutes. Reading fiction also helps - reading has some of the same benefits as meditation.

Okay - this is just something fun so I hope okay to post here. I am thinking of buying myself this mini backpack for doing all the painting (it is not expensive). I think it is so cute. What do you guys think? There are other colors but I like this gray-green.

I worry too about boots.

As for me I’m struggling with a dip. Food has become a chore and tasteless. There’s a constant ball of stress churning in my mid section. Next time I see the pdoc I’m thinking of asking for an increase of ambien because I keep waking earlier and earlier.

All there is in the refrigerator is two cartons of yogurt and old cottage cheese and my cheese that I eat with my bedtime meds. But the thought of going grocery shopping is too much. I need to keep an eye on this and not let it spiral out of control. I should have gone to play cards today but it was too much to deal with small talk. I’m really nervous about the future. I’m having no luck with finding a place and it could be months before I find out anything from sec 8.

Hello, I’m new to the group. Mark, bipolar I with psychotic features. ADHD

Hello, I’m new to the group. Mark, bipolar I with psychotic features. ADHD

I worry too about boots.

As for me I’m struggling with a dip. Food has become a chore and tasteless. There’s a constant ball of stress churning in my mid section. Next time I see the pdoc I’m thinking of asking for an increase of ambien because I keep waking earlier and earlier.

All there is in the refrigerator is two cartons of yogurt and old cottage cheese and my cheese that I eat with my bedtime meds. But the thought of going grocery shopping is too much. I need to keep an eye on this and not let it spiral out of control. I should have gone to play cards today but it was too much to deal with small talk. I’m really nervous about the future. I’m having no luck with finding a place and it could be months before I find out anything from sec 8.

Hello, I’m new to the group. Mark, bipolar I with psychotic features. ADHD