Bipolar Check-in #79

wildflowerchild25 · Apr 05, 2024 at 08:16 PM

@raspberrytorte

Totally feel you on the vaping. I’m always clearing my throat, I KNOW it’s the vaping. But damn it’s so hard.

Moose72 · Apr 05, 2024 at 08:56 PM

Just found this!

Anticholinergics such as Cogentin help rebalance irregular activity of acetylcholine neurotransmitters, which are crucial to brain and muscle function. 3 This can improve muscle control while decreasing rigidity and tremors.

raspberrytorte · Apr 05, 2024 at 10:28 PM

@Moose72

Maybe she has been. I dunno.

I hope the cogentin helps your shaky hands.

@wildflowerchild25

I have a box of the nicotine gum already. I'm just sick of getting out of breath! That's why I need to quit. My lungs are saying NO MORE. But yeah. It is hard.

Victoria'smom · Apr 05, 2024 at 10:34 PM

@raspberrytorte good luck on quitting.

BeyondtheRainbow · Apr 05, 2024 at 11:12 PM

I got my hair cut today. I dread it and put it off way too long. I think I had about 6 inches cut off. It's hard to tell because my hair is really curly so if you cut it it gets shorter than it's cut. I really like it although it's a little short to pull back so I'll have to actually do my hair for a while. Which is probably a good thing.

I had a wash and conditioner, cut and style and she only charged $20. I've been there before and have been charged more for less. I just gave her a big tip because that's ridiculously cheap. Maybe she thought money was why I had put the cut off so long? I don't know. But I'll be careful not go so long without a hair cut again. I was so embarrassed by it so I put it off and it got worse and I put it off more and it turned into a vicious cycle.

@HALLIEBETH87 I'm so sorry about your papaw while also so happy you got into the MS program.

LadyShadow · Apr 05, 2024 at 11:41 PM

I was on Cogentin @Moose72 for almost 10 years when I used to take Haldol, because it made me very shaky and stiff. It works very well.

Good luck @raspberrytorte and @wildflowerchild25 with quitting nicotine and vaping, it's a really tough thing, it just takes practice and redirecting the addiction somewhere else. That's how I do it.

I bet your hair looks beautiful @BeyondtheRainbow !! I was so happy that I got my haircut when I did.

Feeling like I backtracked because I spoke to my husband today after doing so well with no contact for so long. I had a meltdown at work today, and there was no one in the world who could have made me feel better but him. Trying not to beat myself up about it.

Moose72 · 05:46 AM

I have been up since. 2 a.m. Went to sleep at 11:30. I’m tempted to just get up and get a shower soon. It’s almost 6 am.

Edit: got a shower and got dressed.

raspberrytorte · Apr 06, 2024 at 08:53 AM

@BeyondtheRainbow

That's great you got your hair cut! I've been putting off getting mine cut for about three years now. Lol. It's really long. I just want it trimmed though. I like having long hair, even if it's a pain in the *** and annoying.

@LadyShadow

What's your replacement addiction? (If I may ask.)

Moose72 · Apr 06, 2024 at 11:24 AM

I just saw my coffee buddy. He didn’t stay long. I’m now waiting for another friend to contact me. We discussed last night that she would call me when she got up but so far no call. I hate loose ends and she”lol probably tell me that she forgot about me. We shall see. I’ve been up since 2 am and I know I’m going to crash at some point later today. I just don’t like when you have plans and the other person just leaves you hanging.

LadyShadow · Apr 06, 2024 at 11:45 AM

Hey @raspberrytorte - I don't have a replacement addiction, I just redirect it. I get a real high from exercise and have been keeping logs of my progress. Like I have a private YouTube channel where I post private videos, keeping a video log of my progress and how much I have accomplished that day. You want to try and reward yourself too for doing a good job, that helps you stay accountable. Writing helps too - I also go to a lot of meetings, whether its codependency ones to deal with the stuff about my husband, or AA ones. The real progress is that I am always in motion, and I can never stay still long enough to want to "pick" up anything, if that makes any sense.

As for my bipolar, today is a good day. I got up, made my bed, cleaned up my house and now I am doing my laundry and watching Ghostbusters. I still have contact with my husband, even though I changed my number - been talking to him through an app. I guess he is my replacement addiction, because I couldn't stop talking to him even with all the steps I took.

Victoria'smom · Apr 06, 2024 at 01:38 PM

I would like to spend $200 on a new wardrobe for Victoria as she's not changing because she's not comfortable in her clothes. I also need to pay insurance and parking tickets. I feel like such a failure not being able to dress my child. I know she's 21 but that doesn't stop the feeling.

Mountaindewed · 03:01 PM

I'm doing good today. I haven't had any stomach issues. I haven't had any soda either. I wonder if that could have been an issue. I slept good last night for once. My sister and the kids were over and my 10 year old nephew asked if I had any clothes I didn't want. I know I have some hoodies and some hats and a bunch of t shirts and a couple pairs of shoes. If he thinks hes getting my Marty McFly Nikes or my panda dunk Nikes, hes not. I know he has been eyeing those. But I'll have to go through everything. Overall I feel decent today. Although I am still kinda down in the dumps for some reason. Maybe doing laundry and taking a shower will help

I keep having these weird spacing out moments where I remember something bad that happened in my life. Then I just have to shake myself out of it. I don't know what the cause of it is. They have been happening frequently.

Aurelius710 · Apr 06, 2024 at 04:44 PM

Well, my mom went home from the hospital yesterday! 🎉 A full week after she was effectively good to go.

Why did it take so long? The doctors wanted her to do some rehab. Fine, dandy. The rehab location and her insurance refused to talk to each other to settle logistics, but both made sure to let us know they'd refuse to cover any costs if she left the hospital without their approval.

After four days, both me and my dad were in agreement (There's a "When pigs fly." moment.) and advised:
"@#$& 'em! You already know the PT exercises and you're leaving the hospital PT people in the dust. Go home and call someone then if you need to."

She didn't need much convincing.

Glad she's home!

Moose72 · Apr 06, 2024 at 05:17 PM

Listening to a favorite CD and wishing my non boyfriend boyfriend would call me back. Only thing I can think of is that he’s out riding his motorcycle in the nice weather.

Mountaindewed · 06:08 PM

Possible trigger:

I ****ing hate gender dysphroia. Its making me want to die right now. Yet the nurse in the ER thought I had a penis so I must be passing

I just want to yell into the wind but have it make no sound. Everything is bothering me and I've picked up everything in my room and I've organized stuff on my shelves. I want to do laundry but my mom has been doing it all day. I'm like dissociating and semi manic and having flashbacks

Possible trigger:

I've just had it

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Possible trigger:

does wellbutrin make you suicidal?

LadyShadow · Apr 06, 2024 at 06:55 PM

Feeling pretty good right now. Finally had a shower, and I don't know why I put it off when it makes me feel so good afterwards. I think the act of getting in there and doing everything is what freaks me out. It feels like such a hassle sometimes. But I am getting ready for a night of bad tv with Svengoolie that's starting in a couple of minutes.

All in all, it felt good to clean up the house, do laundry, and basically do nothing today. I need more days like today I think.

raspberrytorte · Apr 06, 2024 at 07:07 PM

@Mountaindewed

I think any antidepressant can make you suicidal. I think antidepressants are evil! I wish I wasn't on one, but last time we tried taking me off it I OD'd, and the same thing happened when I was taken off a different antidepressant. So I'm kind of stuck.

Personally, for me, wellbutrin didn't make me suicidal. It just made me intolerably anxious 😟. To the point where I stopped eating and lost a ton of weight. I begged to be put back on Cymbalta!

I would say talk to your pdoc, but he's kind of an asshat. Maybe wellbutrin isn't working out for you?

June08 · Apr 06, 2024 at 10:51 PM

Dare I say it-(knock on wood) I'm actually happy and stable. Still tough emotions to process, and the stress of physical health issues, yet here I am stable and happy. I haven't felt this good in years-I'm trying not to let the anxiety/fear of if/when this will all be gone get to me. I'm trying really hard to manage my emotions/keep excitement and productivity in check to help prevent symptoms kicking in.

I've also been thinking a lot about a question my pdoc asks me from time to time: "What are you looking forward to?" It always stops me in my tracks because I never have an answer for him. I want to change this though. The first thing I want to do is not let health anxiety stop me from applying to volunteer at a small dog rescue shelter near me. It's a pretty intense application-including asking for references and a little bit about your health. It's worth a shot though!

Moose72 · Apr 07, 2024 at 09:24 AM

We rescheduled for today, C and I did but she texted me saying she woke up with a nasty headache! She seems like quite a flake when she does stuff like this.

raspberrytorte · Apr 07, 2024 at 12:55 PM

I'm officially stopping the phentermine. It hasn't decreased my appetite. It hasn't given me more energy. I think it's making me depressed actually. I think the only way I'm going to lose weight is if I stop seroquel, which isn't happening. Even my pdoc didn't bring up doing that. I really DON'T want to stop seroquel. I don't want to go on an AP rollercoaster. My mental health is fragile enough as is.

So FUKK YOU phentermine!!! Useless med!

I've been taking too much gabapentin as of late to get high, just because I can now because I have so much extra, which I know is bad. I just want to sleep. I have to work on formatting for my ebook version of one of my books though because I'm running an ad campaign for it on the 17th. I've been reading a lot as of late. Read two books yesterday. Both fellow indie authors. Left reviews for both. I figure in my creative drought period I might as well read a ton. Good escape anyway.

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raspberrytorte Insert Smiley Face Member Since Mar 2015 Location: USA Posts: 5,775 9 5,529 hugs given	Apr 05, 2024 at 10:28 PM #563 @Moose72 Maybe she has been. I dunno. I hope the cogentin helps your shaky hands. @wildflowerchild25 I have a box of the nicotine gum already. I'm just sick of getting out of breath! That's why I need to quit. My lungs are saying NO MORE. But yeah. It is hard. __________________ The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days.

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