Bipolar Check-in #82

I am OK. My only "struggles" of today are pain in shoulders and upper arms after the Gym yesterday!

But that will pass!

I feel pretty good today. The weather is a lot better then it was yesterday, and I'm not wearing heavy jeans so I just feel more light in general. I slept pretty good. I'm on a 7:30-5:30 schedule lately with a couple hours of being up.

I'm trying to watch how much soda I drink today and just watch other stuff in general. I don't have any plans for today. I'd check out Platos Closet if I felt like it. The other day a guy had his arms and basket full of Nike dunks. A reseller I'm guessing. Its always discouraging when you go into a resale store and theres resellers. Thats why theres pretty much nothing but sports team hoodies and not in good condtion polo T shirts at the Savers I go to. Thrifting has become so trendy.

I'm a Hollister rewards member so I just got a $10 pair of jeans with free shipping because of discounts, rewards, and the honors member thing.

@Nammu
That's awesome that you can give blood. I definitely cannot. I get queasy & faint even when they take blood vials for routine yearly tests at the PCP. In fact, I've even fainted when they have taken blood. It is a bit of an ordeal for me!

@Rosi700
Congrats on going to the gym yesterday. That is wonderful!

@Blue_Bird
I'm sorry you're having problems with dissociation. That happens to me too, and I hate it. It is especially bad when you're in the middle of things like cooking, driving, etc. where you really need to be present in the moment and cannot ground yourself at all.

I had a better night of sleep last night than the night before though I think I was dehydrated b/c I kept waking up to drink water and even had to refill my bedside water glass which is rare for me.

I'm less anxious today b/c my mechanic called yesterday and said he thinks he can get my car to pass emissions for the yearly state inspection, though if he can't I don't know what I'll do. I am bringing the car in Monday hopefully since H usually works from home on Mondays and can give me a ride home from the mechanic.

Thanks @BeyondtheRainbow , I managed to get to sleep last night by doing that. Plus my weighted blanket helped

Thank you @Rossi700 and I hope your shoulders and arms feel better, great job going to the gym!

@LadyShadow I hope your dad heals soon, and you've been through a lot your an inspiration!

@Nammu @Moose72 @HALLIEBETH87 hope you all got some good sleep last night!

@Mountaindewed: Platos Closet has really good stuff, I've been there once before. Hope you feel better!

@JaneOnceMore I hope your dog gets better! I'm sorry you've been feeling bored lately, I struggle with that a lot too

@June08 great job with the grounding exercise! They're really helpful for those types of feelings

@Blueberrybook glad you slept well and that awesome that you're feeling less anxious

Good morning threadies

I slept sooo good last night. I took one of my extras. I was out like a light without any extra tossing around and I slept all night. Bizarre dreams, something about needing to write a report. Take ing a break in a yellow toy pedal car. But woke up before figuring out what it was all about.

The day ahead, no plans. For today or tomorrow. Beautiful fall like weather but no place to go.

Hello friends. I slept good. I forced myself to go to sleep early last night cause sometimes that's the only way to deal with panic and dissociation for me. Just shut down and reset my brain by sleeping. Had a lot of dreams. Woke up with a headache but took some ibuprofen and it went away.

Feel pretty decent today so far. Not much going on this weekend. Taking it easy. Will practice violin because I have a lesson coming up on Monday afternoon.

Gonna read a lot today. Not sure what else. Probably watch some shows/movie and play a game. I colored in my mindfulness coloring book today which was nice. I like coloring. I started doing it when I was a teenager inpatient in psych units. That was mostly what there was to do. I didn't get the point of it back then but I did it a lot and I realized later how relaxing and mindful it was to color. So now I color a lot and have a bunch of adult coloring books. I like coloring while listening a podcast, audiobook, music or YouTube video in the background on my headphones. Nice relaxing activity.

Right now on violin I'm learning the theme song to the show Game of Thrones.

That’s so cool, learning the game of thrones theme song! Oh, how cool is that! I color on my phone. It’s so relaxing.

Have a good day

Slept till 4 off and on- pm! Stupid thing to do. Hopefully the Vraylar helps me sleep later.

My right hand has been shaking. Damn it!

Slept about 4 hours last night, then laid in bed for a long time. I am still losing weight despite eating everything in sight. I looked up hyperthyroidism after someone mentioned it and Jesus, I have almost every symptom, like skin feeling hot, heart beating so fast it feels like it’s gonna jump out of my chest, skin getting hot despite no fever, anxiety anxiety. I have an appt with a new PCP this Friday for a physical so I will know if thyroid level is high then. I just wish I could really calm down… My psychiatrist put me on Lithium 300 bid which he said is a sub therapeutic dose, also on Klonopin .5 bid. Wish this would stop. Have not been calm in so long I that it seems like a fantasy. It good to be able to write about this.

Very relaxing day - just took it all in really. Laid down for two hours on my couch and just talked to God, it was so comforting. Needed a reminder that I really need rest, it is so important. In the spirit of upcoming Halloween, I've been in a spooky movie mood, so I watched "The Exorcism of Emily Rose" (which is so good and one of my favorites), and now Killer Klowns from Outer Space, which is just absolutely ridiculous, lol.

Spent some amazing time with my boyfriend tonight, and now I am just relaxing before bed. So amazing to see everyone posting and doing well - hugs to those of you that may be struggling - looks like we've all been pretty much getting some good sleep!

Wasn't there a scene from Killer Klowns From Outer Space where they went into some drug store and started making a mess for some reason? Idk why but I remember that.

I'm kinda stressed right now. Its just anxiety and high blood pressure and the kids have been here and have been screeching and asking for stuff all night. I took another sitz bath today since I had issues again last night. And I'm trying to take care of the blood pressure issue right now with pepcid. I have some chest pains and anxiety but what else indicates heart issues. Like do you just show up to the ER and say I think I'm having a heart attack? They will look at you like you are Boo Boo The Fool. Idk. I'll try just sleeping it off.

I do feel a lot better when I'm not lying on my left side. Not sure thats good regarding the whole heart issues. The pepcid didnt help.

There was some big news story about a massive shooting on a highway in Kentucky but then they switched to the Bill Mahr Show and I'm like "ok" guess its not a big deal.

Idk why they are all like "breaking news, mass casuaulty incident numerous victims." and then its like 5 people who are in stable condition.

This girl on Reddit was *****ing that the hospital didn't admit her with a 145/107 blood pressure.
***** my blood pressure was 158/100 at the doctors and they didn't say anything. Calm down.

Yeah. I'm still nauseated and cranky from it.

My
Heart is pounding and I’m feeling like I’m
Zooming again.
Today I went
To a baby shower, check ed on granny, sold
Some
Stuff and bought some
Stuff at clothes mentor. Got my cars oil changed. Dropped my ring to be resized. Went to
Tjmaxx.
Washed some clothes.
And
Made a pot
Of
Chili!!!! And
I’m
Doing homework

This is a funny story but theres some sui stuff in it so its in a trigger icon

I’m okay. Nice to be Sunday even though that means tomorrow is Monday. I’m so not ready for it. Ughhhhhhh.

Up and can’t sleep. I slept too much yesterday. And Vraylar can give you insomnia.

I am good! A blessed Morning!

Wide awake!

I spent $83 at clothes mentor yesterday. Got several cute things including a Colombia fleece that still had tags on it for $25!

Good morning! Thank you for the warm welcome back!

I woke up around 5 am and went out to gas up the truck and car. That slight chill in the air felt so good that I grabbed an iced chai latte and sat in the park watching the stream. How lovely and invigorating. After, I went to the store for golden delicious apples and fresh flowers.

I took mom and me to get our new Covid boosters yesterday. Everything went well. Her dementia is becoming very pronounced now. Nothing I can’t handle. I’ve put a stop to her cooking and driving now for the safety of all. She’s not just my mom. She is also my friend.

I cleaned out my 3 huge storage units to save that money for traveling the world. So excited! Up first is Bora Bora and then a cruise to Alaska. If I won the lottery, I wouldn’t have a set address. I’d hop from country to country. Sigh…what a dream. I had some really beautiful furniture and antiques in there. I made sure it went to DV victims starting over and single moms who needed to catch a break.

I hope everyone has a restful, peaceful Sunday.

I slept from about 11:30-6:30 straight through. Ever since I got these new pillows and started listening to Peter, Paul and Mary I've been sleeping pretty decently. I was pretty nauseated this morning until I took my last 2 nausea Tums. I feel good now. My anxiety has been fine. I think I need to lay off the beef jerky though with all that sodium.

I think Kohls has Columbia fleeces on sale regularly for $25. I know I've gotten a few before in a variety of colors.

I’m hoping that Robert will wake up soon. Knowing him he was up till 7 am playing video games then isn’t going to get up till 3. It’s only noon now. My phone didn’t charge last night because the extension cord it was on came out of the wall. I’m so hungry!

My thoughts are with those of you struggling and I'm happy to read about those of you doing well.

I slept well last night and have been productive today. I exercised, showered & had breakfast, put away groceries from a grocery delivery, dusted, vacuumed, and washed the sheets.. I read 50 pages in my new book from the library, washed & folded 2 loads of laundry, took care of the cats, and put away dishes. It's quite a bit more than I usually do but not so much that I'm concerned about hypomania. I'm ready to have a relaxing rest of the day