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Old Dec 31, 2024, 09:11 PM
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I've noticed that, since I started having trouble with my meds a little over a week ago, I get a huge burst of euphoric energy/restlessness (and sometimes other symptoms) an hour or two before it is time to take my risperidone. But, after the risperidone has a bit to get into my system, my energy levels drop again. I will take it tonight like I always do, but tonight's version of euphoric energy has me tempted to not take my meds to see what the heck happens because it feels like it would be a grand old time.

Last night, I went back down to 3 mg of risperidone to see if I would stay stable. I didn't notice much of a difference, but did have a little bit of paranoia on my walk. Since I didn't notice much of a difference, I'm going to take 3 mg again tonight. Unless I can't fall asleep for forever; if that happens, I'll take 4 mg.

Today, I went for a walk, had lunch with a friend, and got some cleaning done. No New Year's Eve plans for me-just hanging out until I decide to go to bed. I only have an episode and a half of a show I've been watching, so I know I'll finish that and then will need to pick a new show to watch. Any suggestions? I have prime and netflix.
Supernatural is a good show. It’s on Netflix. It has 15 seasons plus like 20 something episodes per season.

Squid games is really good too, also on Netflix

I liked The Lord of the Rings: Rings of Power on prime
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Old Dec 31, 2024, 11:04 PM
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"Why don't you call the emergency line more often, Sammy?"

"well, I don't get a call back like the message says I would about 2/3 of the time, and of the remaining 1/3, it's 50/50 on whether I hang up on that phone feeling worse, and sometimes that worse isn't just "worse," sometimes it's "think of the worst torture you can come up with and do that to me" worse.

AND YOU KNOW WHAT? IF EVERYONE ELSE GETS TO BE LOUD AS **** SO WILL I
IM GOING TO PUT ON THE MOST ANNOYING ****ING MUSIC AND PLAY ALONG TO IT.... IN THE WRONG KEY! TURNING ON ALL THE LIGHTS. WILL THERE BE MORE HOLES IN THE WALLS BY MORNING? MAYBE LESS CARPET?

MAYBE I'LL BE IN FMMKKKING PENNSYLVANNIA!!!!!! BECAUSE I KNOW THOSE FKERS ARE AFTER ME!

I don't want to do anything. I am the universe itself, and that is too fking much.. No wonder whatever other fking pilsl left and alcohol didn't kill me because I AM ALCOHOL AND PILLS AND BATH SALTS AND KETAMINE!
Explains sooooooooo fking much.

I don't want to take the new meds. I can't. I can't. I get lost in maze-like buildings easily. I don't want them to leave me. Maybe it'll feel better when it gets closer to 0K
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Old Dec 31, 2024, 11:17 PM
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Had a good time at the New Year’s party. Of course with it being an official party of the building there was no alcohol and no fireworks. But we had a fun time anyway. First playing dirty bingo then playing uno. Plenty of snacks you’d think we were going to party all night instead of to 9:30. I’m so glad someone brought uno. It’s so much fun when you get a lot of people playing.

I’m really glad I live where I do.
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Old Dec 31, 2024, 11:18 PM
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Old Jan 01, 2025, 12:24 AM
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Happy New Year!

We're having cabbage rolls tonight. Our family superstition is that you are to eat pork and sauerkraut on New Year's but I can't eat sauerkraut because of my MAOI so we skip that and substitute cabbage. It seems to work well enough.

It sure makes me miss sauerkraut though.....I tried to get a reuben sandwich and scrape off all but a tiny bit of it and I got an immediate headache and flushing which means I broke the MAOI rules and got caught. I was ok but never again.
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Old Jan 01, 2025, 01:30 AM
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This night has been really horrible and it`not even midnight yet. People are setting off their stupid fireworks and it`s frightening my dogs. This whole year has been bad and difficult. My Mother has Parkinson`s disease and it is getting worse. She fell in the bathroom earlier this month and fractured her sternum. She spend a few days in the hospital in December due to a bad infection. This year has really sucked. I`m really praying that 2025 will be better.
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Old Jan 01, 2025, 02:54 AM
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Possible trigger:
throw my headphones on and signed on here. Hope everyone has a happy new year.
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Old Jan 01, 2025, 07:08 AM
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Happy New Year!

We're having cabbage rolls tonight. Our family superstition is that you are to eat pork and sauerkraut on New Year's but I can't eat sauerkraut because of my MAOI so we skip that and substitute cabbage. It seems to work well enough.

Oh, me too! Saukerkraut and pork sausage New Year's Day! Also pinto beans. I don't know where that superstition comes from? I absolutely LOVE sauerKraut and hardly ever have it except New year's day and occasionally on hot dogs. Even my daughter, a supremely picky eater, loves sauerkraut, but on the other hand, while she is very picky, she loves foods you wouldn't think she's like, such as raw red onion. I have a Czech and German ancestry. What about you @BeyondtheRainbow? What is your ancestry if you know it (H doesn't even know his ancestry beyond his family immigrated from the Midwest to California.)? Don't know if I'll eat any of these today though. We are going to dinner at some friends' house tonight.
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Old Jan 01, 2025, 07:12 AM
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This night has been really horrible and it`not even midnight yet. People are setting off their stupid fireworks and it`s frightening my dogs. This whole year has been bad and difficult. My Mother has Parkinson`s disease and it is getting worse. She fell in the bathroom earlier this month and fractured her sternum. She spend a few days in the hospital in December due to a bad infection. This year has really sucked. I`m really praying that 2025 will be better.
I am so sorry about your mother. My paternal grandmother eventually died of complications from Parkinson's. She fractured her hip, had to go into assisted living and from there to a nursing home, then hospice. It was pretty devastating. I definitely understand your pain.
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Old Jan 01, 2025, 07:28 AM
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I slept around 8 hr but had pretty disturbing dreams last night. I don’t know why but I am suddenly having a lot of distressing disturbing dreams. Almost every night now. It makes me want to take tizanidine nightly (a muscle relaxer to take only prn). I tend not to remember any dreams when I take it. Nightmares are the worst.
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Old Jan 01, 2025, 08:38 AM
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OMG, I am so hypersexual today, and still on my stupid period. Neither H nor I like intimacy when I'm on my period. Sometimes it really sucks being a woman
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Old Jan 01, 2025, 10:46 AM
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Good morning, happy new year!

I slept okay, about 7 1/2 hours. I have a therapy appointment tomorrow morning and then I have a volunteer shift with the rescue cats tomorrow night. Should be a good day.

Not much going on today. Just reading mostly. I took yesterday and today off from practicing violin due to the holiday and am getting back to it tomorrow.

Did some laundry this morning. Here’s a pic of my cat laying in the laundry fresh from the dryer lol

I’m tired. Might take a nap
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Old Jan 01, 2025, 11:11 AM
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Ooh i bet she loves that heat! Smart kitty!
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Old Jan 01, 2025, 11:34 AM
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@Blue_bird Your kitty is so cute!
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Old Jan 01, 2025, 11:54 AM
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I've had a pretty good day so far. I did pilates, showered, had breakfast, read with the SAD lamp, refilled meds, sketched 4 drawings (posted in the creative corner forum).

This evening we're going over to a friends' house for dinner. I'm a bit anxious about that. It is more H's and my daughter's friends than my own. I only really know the family casually.
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I went to Dunkin this morning alone. Came home and played with the cat and cleaned out her box. Decided I need clean laundry after I got a shower and put on my last set of clean clothes. Waiting for the dryer to finish. Then Robert and I are going out. Caleb refuses to answer my calls. He’s off work today so I remembered he was going to drive an hour for breakfast at Hardee’s which he loves but now it’s way past morning and he’s not calling back. So I’m in the dark. Maybe he will call later.
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I made it to midnight. After a couple short naps. Then I put in my headphones to tune out the fireworks and I fell asleep until 7. I worked out and watched the news. I'm kinda tired now. My anxiety is fine. I'm not stressing about the dentist. And my moods are fine. My stomach is good too. I'm just feeling that voidy type feeling.
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Old Jan 01, 2025, 12:33 PM
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Oh, I had an awful night. Couldn’t get to sleep. Tried getting up and watching a stupid show— something with puppets and spies. Was after 5 am when I finally drifted off and 9am when I woke up. Vivid dreams of some up scale department store, I had a grief with them then decided to work there, they were trying to give me the brush off but I persevered. Got a call from a friend she wants to do dinner. I’m so beat.
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Old Jan 01, 2025, 12:51 PM
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Thank you! Thank you! Thank you all for being here in 2025!

I want to give each of you the biggest hug from the fattest friendly non-murderous bear EVER! Unless hugs aren't your thing, then just know you're the greatest and there is not a single other person on this board I believe is unappreciated.
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Old Jan 01, 2025, 01:56 PM
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Wondering if anyone has heard from @LadyShadow lately?
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Old Jan 01, 2025, 01:59 PM
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Nope. When she popped on for that short time she sounded most unwell. I’m hoping she’s in the hospital and getting care. I think about her too.
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Old Jan 01, 2025, 02:13 PM
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I haven't heard anything either. I will admit it though that when she didn't pop on for a few days after I checked the facebook page she posted, and she's not active there either. Best and most likely case is she went back to the hospital.
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Old Jan 01, 2025, 02:19 PM
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She hasn't logged onto the site since the day she sounded so unwell so I would guess she's back in the hospital. I hope she's doing better.
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I ended up taking a nice nap, I woke up to my cat laying on me purring which was nice

I practiced violin. I wasn’t planning on practicing today but it felt too weird not practicing so I practiced.
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