Bipolar Check-in #85

MuddyBoots · Jan 16, 2025, 01:56 PM

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Originally Posted by Moose72

They are referring me to a gastroenterologist surgeon. They want to discuss surgically removing my internal hemorrhoids. I can’t get it done when my mom’s gone to Disney World for a month because my mom doesn’t want N2 picking me up. I can just get an insurance paid for uber if I have to.. A nurse is supposed to call me about it.

Isn't there a law or policy or something that if you have surgery you can't be left on your own (to their knowledge) for the rest of the day in case something happens? I feel like every time I go under I get the "have someone watch you" spiel.

Blue_Bird · Jan 16, 2025, 01:57 PM

He finally came out from his hiding spot

Moose72 · Jan 16, 2025, 02:05 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

Moose, get it in writing! They wouldnt let me get an uber home after my eye surgery. I had to last minute find a "senior helpers" company. I am putting off my cataract surgery because of the "overnight home companion" b.s. Geez if god had meant for me to have a constant companion i woulda been born a... what?! A whale with one of those parasite fishies on 'em? Idk!

They texted me the ride details.

Moose72 · 02:24 PM

Tomorrow I have an appointment at the general surgery clinic at the hospital. It’s just 45 minutes of talking about my condition and recent ER visits and hospitalization last November and possible surgery to remove the internal hemorrhoids that keep bleeding.

MuddyBoots · Jan 16, 2025, 02:16 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

He finally came out from his hiding spot

What a handsome boy!!!!!!

Moose72 · Jan 16, 2025, 02:25 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

He finally came out from his hiding spot

What a nice kitty!

HALLIEBETH87 · Jan 16, 2025, 02:30 PM

i hate vertigo and have had it for days now since i had a cold about 1.5 weeks ago. the meclizine makes me soooo tired

Blueberrybook · Jan 16, 2025, 02:32 PM

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Originally Posted by June08

@Crazy Hitch it's honestly just luck of the draw. One of the perks of a private school is you don't have the type of behavior issues that happen at public schools. I hope going back goes well for you-you've got this!

Welp, I'm depressed again and was struggling with SI today. I managed to keep enough momentum going to go to the pharmacy, go for a walk, cook dinner, and get the dishes done, but I spent most of my evening completely checked out scrolling on my phone trying to avoid the emotional pain.

I might have to go back on what I said about not taking the meds my pdoc prescribed for my twitching face muscles because I think this is at least part of what triggered depression symptoms. It could be that I haven't taken seroquel for a couple of days too. I think the twitching might have triggered something because every time my nose twitched today was a reminder that I'm a walking pharmacy and that I have a mental illness that's a pain to treat. I was honestly expecting the twitching to go away as soon as I stopped the seroquel. This might be a silly question, but can these muscle twitches be permanent? Seroquel had me feeling amazing, but I hate the thought of taking it to much and the twitches getting worse and/or just never going away. I

won't try the new med until this weekend though, in case it gives me side effects. So, we'll see if/how much my face keeps twitching these next few days.

I have some twitches with Seroquel too. Mine are mainly around my lips/corners of my mouth and my tongue (tongue moves constantly in my mouth), a few eye twitches; it's minor enough that I don't think people really notice unless they know to look for it (such as my pdoc). They can become permanent, but every time I've been off Seroquel, my EP movements have gone away completely. Then they come back when I restart it. I have been on Seroquel the best part of 20+ years, my longest stint off it while I was pregnant. But for me, nothing works as well as controlling the mania and for sleep as Seroquel.

Blueberrybook · 04:13 PM

@Blue_Bird - Papi is SO cute! Cats are such wonderful pets. The picture of him hiding is really cute!

Mountaindewed · Jan 16, 2025, 03:47 PM

I took a mucinex for my cough/ post nasal drip that returned. And I feel super drowsy and kinda high right now. My mom went to Platos Closet and found a pair of Nike sweatpants for $14 and a pair of Puma sweatpants for $16 for me. Those are about $45-70 new and they fit perfectly.

unaluna · Jan 16, 2025, 04:23 PM

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Originally Posted by Moose72

Tomorrow I have an appointment at the general surgery clinic at the hospital. It’s just 45 minutes of talking about my condition and recent ER visits and hospitalization last November and possible surgery to remove the internal hemorrhoids that keep bleeding.

I had a terrific butt dr at st joes. My t referred me. No problems since.. good luck tomorrow!

MuddyBoots · Jan 16, 2025, 04:30 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

I had a terrific butt dr at st joes. My t referred me. No problems since.. good luck tomorrow!

I'd think butt doctors want to do a good job so they don't have too many repeat customers

Victoria'smom · Jan 16, 2025, 04:39 PM

T says I'm hypomanic, grr.

unaluna · Jan 16, 2025, 05:00 PM

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Originally Posted by MuddyBoots

I'd think butt doctors want to do a good job so they don't have too many repeat customers

This guy was an artiste! Plus he got my jokes. He had to stop to explain them to his little nurse girl. She was getting all ticked that we were laughing and it was all flying over her head. I said something about posting my butt and she who was supposably weaned on an iphone did not have any clue that it was an interwebs reference. I was a little hyper but geez i think it was excusable!

Moose72 · Jan 16, 2025, 07:43 PM

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Originally Posted by MuddyBoots

Isn't there a law or policy or something that if you have surgery you can't be left on your own (to their knowledge) for the rest of the day in case something happens? I feel like every time I go under I get the "have someone watch you" spiel.

N2 will take me and pick me up. I guess she can stay with me or I can go to her house.

Nammu · Jan 16, 2025, 08:12 PM

Oof, I’m full though it really wasn’t that much. Five of us went out for the $10 steak dinner. Usually I only eat a big lunch then have light something for supper. Today I did it backwards and had the big meal now. I hope I can sleep tonight. Had a good sized steak, corn and half a potato. I opted for water but had trouble with the soda machine. It’s supposed to be if you push down the black tab you get water, but somehow I got Mountain Dew instead. It’s been decades since I had that. Betty insisted on paying me for driving so it only cost me $8.79 for a night out! In 2025 that’s awesome!

BeyondtheRainbow · Jan 16, 2025, 08:18 PM

Abbycat is so much better today! She is starting to want to cuddle and is seeking out pets. She finally used the litter box so the miralax is starting to help. And her abscess looks much better. She's not had the most restful of days since we had to do a thorough house-cleaning since I have to have an electrician come after my circuit breaker for my bedroom blew and won't reset. But she's seemed ok with that. She ate a bunch and went to sleep about an hour ago; I think she felt a lot better after her litter box activity. Poor girl but I'm so glad she's improving.

unaluna · Jan 16, 2025, 09:22 PM

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Originally Posted by MuddyBoots

Isn't there a law or policy or something that if you have surgery you can't be left on your own (to their knowledge) for the rest of the day in case something happens? I feel like every time I go under I get the "have someone watch you" spiel.

Honestly, i felt like Sybil arguing with ALLLLL the anesthetists in the hour before my URGENT retinal surgery. It was NOT ME talking. I was like, are you telling me single older women cant have surgery, you have to get married first???

I dont really want a stranger or anybody in my studio apartment while i am sleeping! I will look into a hotel suite when i cant stand my cataract anymore (caused by the retinal surgery - the other eye is still okay knock on wood). But then i wonder if i am going to have one thick lens and one thin one? Maybe i'll get a monocle.

June08 · Jan 16, 2025, 10:28 PM

Thanks for the insights @Blueberrybook! Sorry you have to deal with some twitching too.

Today I learned my chiropractor has to abruptly stop practicing for health reasons. I feel so bad for him, and am also very sad because he did so much to try and help figure out my mystery health stuff when I was sick and was constantly in my corner as I have been figuring out how to manage my POTs symptoms. I'll miss that and I hope his health issues aren't to serious.

My mood was so so today. School was pretty good because we did a hands on activity in one of my subjects and that's always fun. We will be testing out what they built tomorrow. My mood really dipped at home though.

Possible trigger:

I let the depression win and only had a bag of chips from the gas station for dinner so that's not great. I'll have some string cheese before bed too.

When it comes to managing my bipolar disorder, my mood being off for about a month now has me feeling very lost.

Mountaindewed · Jan 16, 2025, 11:27 PM

Someone for sure just got shot now. I heard a gunshot and then a cop car less than 2 minutes later.

The mucinex knocked me out pretty good for a few hours. I ate a few animal crackers. I feel ok.

Blueberrybook · Jan 17, 2025, 12:59 PM

I am having a good morning. I slept well last night though I had to take a dose of valerian to help me sleep; it worked like a charm

That is a very stinky herb, but whatever works. I did pilates, showered, had breakfast and read with the SAD lamp. I made a trip to the pharmacy to pick up prescriptions, but luckily just did the drive thru. Then, I had a very fun time drawing today and did 4 pictures (all in the Creative Corner Forum). I even managed to draw a decent facsimile of a skull! I never thought I could draw anything close to that. It's not perfect, but not bad for a first try at it.

After lunch, my daughter & I are going to the library so she can do her volunteer shift. I have some books on hold to check out. Only scary thing is my daughter is driving today, and she's still getting the hang of it. So far, my anxiety isn't too bad and I hope it stays that way on the drive.

I'm pretty happy these days and not hypomanic (at least I don't think so). HUGS to all having a hard time and those of you who are sick. I hope everyone has a great day!

MuddyBoots · Jan 17, 2025, 01:23 PM

I'm starting to think more of my emotional dysregulation is from ADHD than I expected. Every day I start feeling really reactive before my second dose of methylphenidate and then after I take it and it kicks in I can cope with things again. I want to switch to Concerta so I don't have to remember the second dose. I was on it for a couple weeks, but the pharmacy had a screw up and it was just easier for my doc to prescribe instant release ritalin instead and it works just as well so we just stuck with it.

My stomach is really angry at me. How do I overdose on like 8 meds at once and barely feel any different physically but feel like my abdomen is exploding for no reason (maybe a cycle thing. I don't know, tracker app is telling me I'm on day 121. Can UTI pain feel kinda cramp like? I've only had one before and didn't have symptoms, and at my doc's appointment yesterday she didn't bring up weird results from the ER or ask and I was too focused on not blurting out incriminating behaviors)

Oh, I got my skis out and tuned & waxed them today! One's top sheet doesn't look good at all (I probably skied right into a rock lol They're called the Rockies, but I'd bet Granite Staters get 10x core shots than the average skier out west). But I filed out the dent in the edges, but yeah, top sheet is just missing a chunk.

Mountaindewed · 06:31 PM

I'm not feeling the greatest today. Just a cough and fatigue shyt. I had this like wheezing cough this morning and I took a couple Mucinex and I finally after a lot of hacking coughed up a couple huge balls of phelgm.

Then I just now woke up from a 1.5 hour deep nap.

Its not anything to worry about, its just a stay at home day so I don't infect anyone else. Or freak out anyone.

Now I'm hacking again. I had a cough drop. My mom says I sound sick but I think its just a cough.

Also I redid my entire diet all at once. When I tried keto in 2019 I got keto flu. That may be related too.

I'm feeling better. My throat is clear and my cough is gone. I just had to let it pass and drink a boatload of water.

Moose72 · Jan 17, 2025, 06:18 PM

Butt dr said since I’m on blood thinners there’s nothing we can do about the three big hemorrhoids she saw during the examination today. She suggested Metamucil. That both straining and diarrhea cause hemorrhoids. I just took my first glass. I hope it helps.

LadyShadow · Jan 17, 2025, 10:07 PM

I am really struggling lately. The Invega shot they gave me in the hospital is really messing with me, and I feel they forced me into it in order for me to leave. Going to look into going back on the risperidone pills as well as the Lithium going forward.

Going to try to get through this month until I feel better. Stil having flashbacks of my boyfriend and feeling desperate, but I have to really work on that.

My world feels so blue right now. : (

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