Bipolar Check-in #87

My apple pancake was more like an apple pie thing. I didn't really like it. I felt a bit off and I was all like I need to see my pdoc then I took my blood pressure and it was 162/97. So I'm just drinking water and lying down some more.

Lately I've just been sleeping all day but feeling ok otherwise since switching brands and kinds of water. Which is kinda weird but true.

I plan on doing something tommorow. Not sure what

I showed my mom the symptoms of histronic personaiity disorder and she said some things fit but the one thing she says I do not do is seek attention. She is with me at all my appointments and knows I don't have any social media so she pretty much sees everything. My therapist has also said I'm not an attention seeker.

Slow day today. Taught one class. The class I see after lunch has a food fight. I swear I will be pissed off if a student throws food at me. It will not be very welcome (washed hair and I'm at school until 4:30 today with a staff meeting). I think they're throwing pie and shaving cream at each other in the organised event. The meeting after school is for our Open Night that we have next week Monday until 7:30pm. That's another whole story. I have to pick up my son from after school care and bring him across to my school because my partner finishes work late. I haven't even asked permission. It is what it is. I have family commitments.

Hello everyone! I'm not caught up on posts. Haven't been on here in awhile. I've been distracted.

Getting Sleep Token tickets was EXTREMELY stressful because they sold out so fast, even with our pre-sale code, but luckily we got tickets!!!! So YEA on September 28th I'm seeing Sleep Token in Rosemont, IL, a mere three hour drive away! I'm so excited. AND my husband bought us tickets to see Bad Omens and Spiritbox at summerfest in Milwaukee on the fourth of July! Yippie! I've also been busy formatting and editing my books that are coming out at the end of the month. One comes out on the 26th and the other one comes out on the 31st. I feel nauseous. 🤢 Ugh.

And I have to put the April issue of the ezine together and get caught up on submissions because I'm WAY behind and... just fudge man!

But the Imminence show was amazing. ☺️

Our daughter starts spring break tomorrow so we're taking our usual three day spring break trip down to Madison. Should be fun. The weather doesn't look like it's going to be all that great, but that's okay. We'll have a good time anyway!

My last two appointments with my therapist I've been jokingly promising her that at my next appointment I'd have some sort of problem, but I've been really happy as of late! Things are going pretty well. My commitment was extended for another year (sigh) but oh well. Oh, and I'm weaning off loxapine. My psychiatrist is actually doing it slowly in case I start going psychotic or something. So far it's going well. I had an awful headache the first week, but that's gone away.

Good to see you @raspberrytorte! Glad you are doing well :-)

Today has been fine. At the grocery store yesterday, I found a limited edition Campbells grilled cheese and tomato soup that I tried today and it was delicious. I've been enjoying food more in these past couple of weeks, and have been wanting to mix up what I eat instead of eating the same few things. It's been really nice that eating doesn't feel so much like a chore.

I got another walk in today-the heat made it tougher than walks I've been on recently. My heart rate got a little high by the end. This week will get close to 100 degrees out so it may be a week or so before I can go on an outside walk again. Thankfully, I have a walking pad.

Mood has been fine-mainly anxiety that I am dealing with. Sometimes, when I'm doing well (both for POTs and bipolar disorder), I have to remind myself that each diagnosis is valid-doing well just means my treatment plans are working and this is something to be thankful for.

Good morning. I slept 8 hours and managed to make it to the food pantry so I’m in line now

I've been completely off Remeron for a week now after 'tapering' over 18 days.

The withdrawals are starting, I'm really irritable and I've got brain zapps. The brain zapps aren't so bad though, so far, I've experienced much worse.

The irritability is tough to deal with because I'm upset at pretty much everything and everyone.

I'm keeping it to myself though, so no outward effect at all. My environment at home isn't tolerant enough to be able to support me, so I go it alone.

I can rely on myself, and fortunately, my therapist.

Internet router died last night, so I'm using my phone hotspot which is not as good. H called the company, and he can go to the store and get a router or they can send one in 3 days. H will go to the store but can't make it until this evening since he has to go into work and cannot work from home today. I don't want to go myself because I can see myself getting something that won't work (apparently our router is 5 years old and no longer made) and being hassled to try a new plan which would just fluster me to no end.

I went for a long power walk this AM and had my shower. I need to wake up my daughter so she can get ready for homeroom. Then, I'll try my zucchini bread I baked yesterday for breakfast (haven't tried it yet) and read with the SAD lamp, hopefully draw.

I hope everyone has a great day!

I got a lot of good stuff at the pantry. Lots of fresh produce, plus pantry items like canned food , and pasta, rice. Also got yogurts, white cheddar cheese block, a microwaveable chicken piccata meal, cake, a donut, a huge bag of frozen chicken nuggets, lots of various breads, peanut butter, jelly, a whole rotisserie chicken and some dry cat food for my cats. Oh also got two gift certificates to a local store to get a free large dozen of eggs and a free gallon of milk.

Oh what an excellent bunch of food! How did you ever manage to get it all home! Wow! Nice.

I have therapy today in like 4 hours from now. Not sure what we’re gonna be talking about. Probably trauma stuff though

The food pantry is actually across the street a couple buildings down so it’s really close which is convenient plus I have one of those carts let me see if I can find a pic here’s one that looks like mine

Plus I had some reusable grocery bags with me for anything that didn’t fit in the cart.

Oh, that’s nice. I saw a lot of people who took the bus use those down in Austin, Tx. I forgot about them. The bus could lean, if the driver used an air thing, so that the steps were level with the curb.

I call mine my old lady cart.

I did my reading with the SAD lamp today for quite awhile. I'm already over halfway through a book I started yesterday morning. I did a load of laundry, drew some, but maybe since I'm on my hotspot internet instead of normal, icloud is taking forever to upload my photos. Only drew 2 pics today: a mannequin and a frog. The frog turned out pretty well. If icloud ever updates my images, I will post them in the creative corner, maybe the frog here; I'm pretty happy with it.

OK, here is my frog:

Awww the frog is so good @Blueberrybook 😊

My mom dragged me out of the house to get ice cream. I finally budged and went. I feel ok today. Maybe because I went out. Idk.

Weirdly I still haven't had any GI issues since switching to vapor distilled water instead of walmart brand water.

I have a packed week but I wish tommorow and wednesday were switched with Thursday and Friday.

Not sure how today will go at work. I’ve got assembly Period 1 followed by a bit of a tricky class followed by an extremely tricky class. Might have to send some students out if they misbehave. I then have a Telehealth appointment to review my son’s Ritalin for his ADHD. They have not messaged me the link for the Telehealth appointment yet so I don’t know what’s up with that …..

Had a good therapy appointment. We discussed my eating disorder in depth and are gonna work on the intuitive eating workbook next session. I already have a copy of it because my previous therapist recommended it to me and I bought it. So she said this week she’s gonna buy a copy for herself so we can work through it in sessions together. So that’ll be good.

Thanks on the kudos for the frog! I wasn't sure I'd be able to draw that one!

I went to pick up a prescription for prn Zofran (gynecologist prescribes it for nausea with my cycles), and driving my car was like being trapped in a pollen box on wheels! I swear my allergies kicked up another notch from that, and the errand took all of 10 minutes! The antihistamine eye drops have been helping with the itchy eyes, but I get such fatigue with allergies...ugh!

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird Had a good therapy appointment. We discussed my eating disorder in depth and are gonna work on the intuitive eating workbook next session. I already have a copy of it because my previous therapist recommended it to me and I bought it. So she said this week she’s gonna buy a copy for herself so we can work through it in sessions together. So that’ll be good.

I have found a hard, hard time trying to find a T who will willingly deal with someone who has an ED (even in the past). You are very lucky to have found one to help you with intuitive eating. That is the philosophy I try to follow now...I can't always do it but I try my best with it.

Your haul from the food pantry sounds awesome! I have one here I use on occasion, and even though the hours are 10-2, if you want to get out of there before noon, you'd better be there by 8 AM and get your number and get registered. Though once I wised up to that, I just started bringing breakfast and a book and waiting out the time in my car. They are very generous there too, but I only use them when I need to (times we have had a lot of expenses).

Hurt my knee yesterday while walking downtown with N3. I bent it backwards and now it hurts when I walk. Tylenol and ice! It’s not swollen but I suppose that could change.

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Originally Posted by Moose72 Hurt my knee yesterday while walking downtown with N3. I bent it backwards and now it hurts when I walk. Tylenol and ice! It’s not swollen but I suppose that could change.

Hurt knees can be painful. I hope it starts feeling better, and you don't have to see a doctor. Tylenol and ice is what they would probably advise at the moment anyway.

Anyone hear from @MuddyBoots lately? I messaged her, and she didn't reply which isn't like her. I can only hope she is getting help; I know she was having a hard time. It's always worrisome when a member goes AWOL.

@Blueberrybook - Muddyboots hasn't been here for a few days now

I also messaged her and no reply.