Bipolar Check-in #89

I was prescribed benzotripine in the past, just assumed it was a muscle relaxer because I'm about 90% sure the rheumatologist prescribed it, but I saw it can be used to treat muscle spasms too and some years back I had bad spasming muscles in my neck. That's probably why I was prescribed it.

Yeah I am dealing with the same thing! Its like I got a new phone. I still am having trouble finding the flashlight and the notification thing is annoying.

It is cool being able to control spotify without going to the app. Well being able to skip songs.

Okay, flashlight i had put a widget on my home screen. I checked and its still there.

What i dont like is, its messed up the power button. I always restarted after i optimized or cleared memory whenever my videos slowed down, now it doesnt restart? Its my magic thing i do to ward off viruses and creeps!

Apparently bronchitis can cause swollen ankles.

Getting ready for bed. Focus has been pretty good today. Managed to read quite a bit. It’s only going on 9pm now. Hoping to fall asleep by midnight. Im probably gonna watch some shows and read more before I actually sleep. I’m trying to stay up a little later so I can sleep later. I’m tired of starting my days at 5am, it makes the days feel long and endless.

Anxiety isn’t bad tonight. It was for a little while earlier but it went away.

I’ve been eating a lot less lately, as in not binge eating. Which is a nice change. I’m not sure what changed to be honest. I thought being really busy for a few days was stopping it for awhile but I wasn’t busy at all today and I still had no urges to go snack/ excessively or overeat.

What a day! Went to the Marvel Coffee Talk with my sci-fi group in Raleigh and had such a great conversation. We talked about Marvel, DC and branched off into Star Trek. A lot of new ideas about the new fantastic four movie and Doomsday that is set to come out soon. Also talked a lot about Thunderbolts that I saw Thursday, and Captain America Brave New World. I was the only girl there which was a little strange, but the guys were all nice. Some were cute too, lol.

Then my sponsor met me there after the Talk. We worked on my 9th step. I have some pretty tough amends to make, but I think I can do it. Came home and spoke to my ex for three hours, wow. Our phone conversations are getting deeper and more involved. I think we are doing much better. I also ordered my Galaxy Con tickets for July. It should be fun! Now settling in and watching Svengoolie with my best friend.

Oh @Blueberrybook thanks for your prayers about the job. The guy texted me today that they didn't make a decision. He will know more on Monday. So more biting fingernails till then!

What a great day though! Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Today went a lot better than I thought it was going to. I didn't even get out of bed until 10 am (it was much needed sleep.) There has also been a few WNBA games on so I've been watching that on and off. I had to run some errands so only saw part of the first two games I saw. I'm currently watching a third game. I haven't decided if I'll stay up till then end of it since it will get over later than I normally stay up.

I've been thinking about ways to fill my time over summer vacation. I'm not artistically talented, but I can handle some coloring so I bought a few coloring books and some colored pencils. I also want to find a book with different writing prompts. I did see one book like this at the store, but I wasn't a huge fan of the prompts I saw. Maybe, tomorrow I'll go to a book store and see if I can find something.

Today, I also applied for an on demand job at Target. I applied to Target once before and didn't get the job. We'll see if this application goes any better.

Yeah but then the COPD is the bigger problem. Its not like "the symptoms of bronchitis are coughing and swollen ankles". I didnt want to just leave this out there as "well my ankles arent swollen so it cant be bronchitis" - Not true!