Bipolar Check-In #91

Why is stomach fat the last to disappear 🫠

The stomach fat is the hardest!! @Crazy Hitch - I had an amazing night. My guy is studying for a certification test but still managed to call me and spend time. Really grateful. Talking to my best friend from NY now, and about to go to bed. Legion of Mary went fantastic, got a brand-new journal to write down all my visitation notes. So thankful I am part of something so special. Hopefully the AC is fixed Sunday!

Hope everyone is having a great night - Tuesday accomplished on to Hump Day! @Nammu - Rings of Power was way too complicated for me lol.

At ER. Blood clot may have moved. Stabbing chest pain and shortness of breath. Waiting for a cat scan. My mother called. Said “there’s nothing wrong with you.” And said she’s going to sleep. I hate this and she is mean. My neighbor/friend might pick me up if it’s really late when I get released. I’m sad and scared. They’re also checking my heart.

@Moose72 Praying for you!

I've been a little irritable today-not sure why. Maybe, the heat? It started when I was at the grocery store, which was very busy, and hasn't really gone away.

Today was alright though. Went for a drive, grocery shopped, read a bit, and am currently watching America's Got Talent. I really need to clean and do some laundry tomorrow and/or Thursday. For some reason, an Amazon package was delivered to the office of my apartment complex, so I need to go pick that up tomorrow as well. Tomorrow will make 2 weeks until I need to report back to school.

Oh, I scheduled an IV appointment for this weekend too to see if that will help me manage the heat better.

Enjoy your last 2 weeks off June08. I go back on Monday. Ughhh I’m so not ready to go back!

At the ER. Finally had a ct scan to check for new blood clots in lungs. If so they are admitting me because it means the eliquis isn’t working. Would give me iv blood thinners. Otherwise I am getting sent home.

Edit: They sent me home. The blood clot is gone but there is a bit of scarring where it was so that’s maybe what was giving me pain. My sb buddy lives in the same complex as me and the hospital is literally down the street so he picked me up and dropped me home. Otherwise I would’ve had to wait hours for a ride through my insurance. Still supposed to stay on the blood thinner of course.

I’m glad you’re home Moose. Time for you to rest.

Yes! It’s after 1 am here!

I fell asleep right before AGT. I woke up around 11 to get something to eat.

I feel ok. Not that anxious. My mom and I did some budgeting and I had a big medical bill from my MRI and rent but I've spent a lot on groceries. So thats where I need to cut back.

I don't have any plans today except I really should get my bloodwork done. I was thinking of getting it yesterday afternoon but I knew the heat and dehydration would cause some levels to go up that are not really high. So I was waiting.

I've been having a lot of dreams about rhinos. The animal. The dream intreptation on google is pretty accurate.

Good morning, slept good. Woke up around 5am and enjoyed a peaceful morning reading, journaling and doing a little cleaning. Ate breakfast had a coffee and took my morning meds. Then started painting the background on a new painting I’m doing and made some dough to bake bread. It’s currently on its 2nd hour of rising then I can put it in the oven and then have fresh bread later

Feeling really good. Gonna read more today. And watch Bridgerton. And work on my painting some more. Probably get on the treadmill at some point as well then take a shower. Maybe do some laundry , I don’t have a lot to do but just want to stay ahead of it. Plan on playing some of one of my mobile games too.

Great day planned out and it’s already off to a great start!

I have it on my list to talk to my therapist about. I canceled my dietitian appointment this morning. I'm going to do this on my own. I know what I have to do, I just don't want to.

Making a follow up with my primary dr. Waiting for the nurse to call me back. Having coffee with N3 and gf some time today. They’re at their own appointment at the moment.

The blood work is finally done. I think the phlebotmist called me rude on my way out but I didn't do anything lol.

But at least its done after putting it off.

My mom said "you're so pale compared to me. You need to get out in the sun." I was in the heat for 2 days and sweating. Idk why I'm pale. I feel fine though.

Anyways now I'm at home just relaxing

Period came back ! Last was 2/23/25. Probably from getting the Mirena out.

My last period was around then. But I’m perimenopause. 47 years old here!

Wow! Too many posts to respond individually to! Moose, I'm glad you're home. @Blue_Bird - I'm loving the Halloween theme you have going on the paintings! @LadyShadow Glad you have been having better days lately

I only got around 7 hr. of sleep last night. I went for a jog this morning, and the heat & humidity really took it out of me. I had to go to the dentist to get my temporary crown removed and the permanent crown cemented. Thank goodness the dentist gave me a shot first because those teeth are so sensitive when the temp. crown is off and the dentist is tinkering with the fit of the permanent crown.

I read with the SAD lamp and had lunch once the numbness wore off my mouth. I've been painting a coffee cup off and on; it has a lot of waiting for paint to dry steps. I'm on the final step of adding some coffee beans around the coffee, but I have to wait for the first coat of paint to dry before painting the darker center line on the beans.

I hope everyone has a fantastic day!

Edited:
Here is my cup of coffee! The lines on the coffee beans show up better a bit closer, but if I took the pic closer, the shadow of the phone would fall into some of the painted area of the cup.

My cardiologist is on vacation till Monday but her nurse called me! She said it was a good thing I got checked out yesterday and yes scar tissue where the clot was can happen. She was very nice. And happy that I’m not as tired as I was at the beginning of the month.

I’m in perimenopause too. I’m 53. Last year my periods were like clock work and this year I go months in between - 5 months is the longest I’d gone until it started this morning resetting the menopause clock!

So going to my parents soon have brought up feelings of just how sick I was as a kid. Highlight to read

psychosis and hurting others

My perimenopause clock has been ticking since February. No sign of showing her ugly head. No hot flushes. Nothing.

Did some stuff I shouldn't have and slept for over 2 hours.
No clue why I do the things I do.

I don't have the results of my blood test but I feel ok.

I have so much to do to rearrange my apartment but I don’t feel like it. Having my Period. Tired from yesterday’s ordeal. Need something to eat but listening to a Disney podcast. Want to go to sleep but it’s only 5:30 pm.

I’m tired too and it’s only 7:30am haha. Been up since 5:00am is probably why! Can’t wait to get my hair done later on today.

Glad you're having such a good day @Blue_Bird !! I am glad for better days too @Blueberrybook ! I love your coffee painting!

Had therapy finally, after a whole month and it was great! I love that my therapist, and he doesn't give me a hard time about the once a month thing. I am really lucky to have him, he was really insightful about the fact that I am stuck with my horrible criminal record for the rest of my life, he gave me great advice on what to do.

I am going to watch the original Superman with my best friend in a little bit.

Texted with my other bestie earlier and made a Tiktok video and video for my video journal on YouTube.

Honestly, today has been a good day, I accomplished a lot, my moods are so crazy though. .Got a new light-up keyboard too, that's so cool!

I hope everyone has been having a good day!! (My period went missing this month too - maybe that's why I am so irritable and moody, and everything is upsetting me today!)