Bipolar Check-In #92

Hugs to everyone struggling

I slept great last night. Going to the pharmacy today to pick up some of my meds. Have to pick up the rest next week cause they’re out of stock of Thorazine and have to order more. And one of my Lamictal prescriptions (the new higher dose tablets) isn’t able to be filled till wednesday for some reason. With the schedule of when my meds run out and when they’re able to be filled I have to go to the pharmacy 3 times between now and Thursday. Then again on the 26th. That’ll be my 5th pharmacy trip this month. Thankfully I have enough meds to get me through. I started the increase last night. So I’m at 250 mg right now and will increase to 300 next Friday. I really wish they’d just line up my prescriptions to be picked up all on one day.

Anyway, this weekend I’m just gonna be cleaning and drawing. Monday I have an appointment with my therapist and also the week long watercolor class I’m taking starts on Monday. 2 hours a day Monday through Friday. That should be fun.

Starting my weight loss journey. Lost 5 lbs so far. Hoping to lose another 15 lbs by the mid/end of September.

Hope you all have a great weekend!

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Let’s…
Sit and drink…pennyroyallllll teaaaaaaaaa!!!

My bp this morning was 78/56 I believe that is quite low

Omg my mom just called the non emergency number because our neighbor came over and threatened my mom. She said "you better pray to god for what you've done." And my mom said "what did I do?" And my neighbor said "you know what you've done. And I'm going to get you". So now my mom is talking to an officer.

I guess she has also been known to walk around the neighborhood with a large knife and her middle finger up and she owns a gun.

We went to Walgreens and tbe cop called and said her house was on fire. Ours is fine. But theres police cars, cops, fire fighter, and neighbors all over the street. My neighbor is being questioned now

The cop doeent think she set it on fire herself

Well they took her away in a cop car.

Ugh what an oredeal. But at least shes gone

N3 took the red eye home so he’ll be asleep most of the day. My friend who was coming from Ohio rescheduled to Tuesday, saying he’s grumpy today. Hmmm….

I value you my self-worth on how I view myself @unaluna - I don't think any good of myself. My parents are amazing, they love me so much and help me a lot - but honestly when I was a kid, I got absolutely no love or affection - I have been devoid of love my entire life, and I don't think anyone will ever want me because of how disgusting and hideous I am. It's something I deal with and fight with all the time.

Anyway, this weekend was incredible - had such a good time with my bestie I met on Bumble two months ago. She stayed over and we went to an Edgar Allen Poe Speakeasy show in town. They served four drinks with each of the stories performed, and I was really worried it would bother me - (we both had non-alcoholic drinks), but it was so much fun. They performed the Tell Tale Heart, The Raven, The Masque of the Red Death, and the Black Cat. All the performances were so full of life and dynamic. We had so much fun. Then today we went to Raleigh together to my monthly coffee talk with my Sci-fi group, which my friend enjoyed a lot. She signed up with my group today. I got to see her apartment too - and honestly, I am so grateful that I live far away outside of the city, because my apartment is 5 times hers size.

I hope you guys are having a good weekend - its good to be back home and relaxing, I am honestly exhausted. Here is some pics from last night:

Now my friend canceled our weekend plans! We did reschedule for Tuesday/Wednesday. And my MWS friend hasn’t talked with me since Wednesday. Mania sucks!!!