Bipolar Check-In #92

Hugs to everyone struggling

I slept great last night. Going to the pharmacy today to pick up some of my meds. Have to pick up the rest next week cause they’re out of stock of Thorazine and have to order more. And one of my Lamictal prescriptions (the new higher dose tablets) isn’t able to be filled till wednesday for some reason. With the schedule of when my meds run out and when they’re able to be filled I have to go to the pharmacy 3 times between now and Thursday. Then again on the 26th. That’ll be my 5th pharmacy trip this month. Thankfully I have enough meds to get me through. I started the increase last night. So I’m at 250 mg right now and will increase to 300 next Friday. I really wish they’d just line up my prescriptions to be picked up all on one day.

Anyway, this weekend I’m just gonna be cleaning and drawing. Monday I have an appointment with my therapist and also the week long watercolor class I’m taking starts on Monday. 2 hours a day Monday through Friday. That should be fun.

Starting my weight loss journey. Lost 5 lbs so far. Hoping to lose another 15 lbs by the mid/end of September.

Hope you all have a great weekend!

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Let’s…
Sit and drink…pennyroyallllll teaaaaaaaaa!!!

My bp this morning was 78/56 I believe that is quite low

Omg my mom just called the non emergency number because our neighbor came over and threatened my mom. She said "you better pray to god for what you've done." And my mom said "what did I do?" And my neighbor said "you know what you've done. And I'm going to get you". So now my mom is talking to an officer.

I guess she has also been known to walk around the neighborhood with a large knife and her middle finger up and she owns a gun.

We went to Walgreens and tbe cop called and said her house was on fire. Ours is fine. But theres police cars, cops, fire fighter, and neighbors all over the street. My neighbor is being questioned now

The cop doeent think she set it on fire herself

Well they took her away in a cop car.

Ugh what an oredeal. But at least shes gone

N3 took the red eye home so he’ll be asleep most of the day. My friend who was coming from Ohio rescheduled to Tuesday, saying he’s grumpy today. Hmmm….

I value you my self-worth on how I view myself @unaluna - I don't think any good of myself. My parents are amazing, they love me so much and help me a lot - but honestly when I was a kid, I got absolutely no love or affection - I have been devoid of love my entire life, and I don't think anyone will ever want me because of how disgusting and hideous I am. It's something I deal with and fight with all the time.

Anyway, this weekend was incredible - had such a good time with my bestie I met on Bumble two months ago. She stayed over and we went to an Edgar Allen Poe Speakeasy show in town. They served four drinks with each of the stories performed, and I was really worried it would bother me - (we both had non-alcoholic drinks), but it was so much fun. They performed the Tell Tale Heart, The Raven, The Masque of the Red Death, and the Black Cat. All the performances were so full of life and dynamic. We had so much fun. Then today we went to Raleigh together to my monthly coffee talk with my Sci-fi group, which my friend enjoyed a lot. She signed up with my group today. I got to see her apartment too - and honestly, I am so grateful that I live far away outside of the city, because my apartment is 5 times hers size.

I hope you guys are having a good weekend - its good to be back home and relaxing, I am honestly exhausted. Here is some pics from last night:

Now my friend canceled our weekend plans! We did reschedule for Tuesday/Wednesday. And my MWS friend hasn’t talked with me since Wednesday. Mania sucks!!!

That looks like so much fun @LadyShadow ! Glad you had a good time

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Getting the drawings prepped for the watercolor class. Here’s one of them.

I had a good day. Very productive. Went to the pharmacy , got some exercise, did two loads of laundry, took a shower, prepped/started and finished 4 drawings, only have one more large on to do tomorrow in prep for the week long watercolor class.

Feeling really good. Tomorrow’s plans are to do the last drawing, clean my apartment, and practice violin. The upcoming week is gonna be super busy but really good.



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I’m over here with my cat just TRYing to not piss off anymore of my friends!

I’ve been so tired since the colonoscopy. I think it’s residual meds. On the plus side they really helped with the pain.

Had fun downstairs we played uno and there was 6 of us. Uno is really fun when there’s more people. Like this. It’s Saturday and nothing on tv for the rest of the day! Bah humbug. Guess I’ll read.

Banana bread for everyone. Have a good evening.

Yum! Thanks!

It’s been a good day. Peaceful. I’m still not sleeping much at night though, but I’ve had time to lay down and rest throughout the day. Feeling grateful for that.

I might take a half of a trazedone or melatonin tonight for sleep. Hopefully, I can tolerate the cpap machine. It feels like I’m suffocating sometimes. Now that I’m using a fan directed at my face, breathing is a little easier.

I hope everyone has a good Saturday night.

Morning. I slept in til 7:00. Bliss. Going at 9:30am to pick up my eldest son. Going to a cafe. Not 100% sure which one.

Yeah CPAPs aren’t easy to get used to at first but you will and then it will be no big deal.

I felt off so I took my blood sugar and it was 151. I fell asleep shortly after that for about 45 minutes and I woke up teeling a lot better.

I got this big squishy fidget block of cheese and a Nedoh ball that I've been using all dsy. My mom seemed gross out by the cheese..

I'm not thinking much about the surgery. My stomacg has felt ok today after this morning.

I’m
Exhausted from
Work. It’s a lot. But I like it. My anxiety has been high. I’m gonna go to the ky state fair tomorrow

Just got home from an 8 hour training in order to help facilitate grief support groups. My brain is fried because it was so much information and we got maybe an hour total in breaks. I get more breaks than that at work most days. But, the training facilitators are very good at what they do. They had us participate in some activities that involved self reflection, which I wasn't expecting. I think that self reflection, and being an introvert in a room full of strangers for so long, is also part of why I'm tired. They showed us a really cool game for younger kids that uses Candy Land to help kids share a time they experienced a certain emotion.

Because of my low mood, it was extremely difficult to get myself out of bed for this training. I almost called in sick. I'm glad I didn't though. One day at a time.

Potty training is hard as hell in apartments. H got his new schedule he'll almost be working full time he'll work 6 days a week. I'm pretty stable right now. no hallucinations, no depression I found a trainer that's cheaper in person then the online trainer that I found. She's nice she took my paper of tasks that I want to teach. She's a little bit old not to be potty trained but I only got her last week before that she was on a farm. We have to crate train her but she acts like we are killing her when in the crate and my neighbor won't be happy with her screaming..

Time for a new thread:

Bipolar Check-In #93