My Bipoar

Strength my friend. You have more than you think and feel free to borrow some of mine. I am often in short supply, but I find that often when I loan some out it comes back multiplied when it is to someone who cares, and I know without a doubt you care.

Sweet angle dream well
Let not fear and pain rule the day
Of some things we cannot chose
These will come without out say

But end the end we have the strength
And we can call on friends in need
Together we can share or wills
To climb each hurdle in the path we lead

You do not face these things alone
Though often it seems to be that way
Reach out your hand and trust friends
Hold the demons that attack at bay

We can not be there with you in flesh
But in your mind and heart we share
Feel joy and share in your triumphs
And will do as we can to relieve your care.

Sometimes these are only words, but they are true words from the heart. I and others here care, just as you so willingly care for us. Do not forget that it is mutual. Keep us in your mind and heart. Draw what strength you can from us, and do not hesitate to ask for more when you need it. We have talked. You know I have plenty of my own cares and demons. We all, those of us here, do have those things. Often, the only way I can get through another day is to lean on others, and I find that when we all lean together, we get much stronger.

Peace my child, I wish only peace on your mind. This will not come easy, and there will be setbacks, many. I will give you no lies about that. Unfortunately, there are no magic pills or wands to wave. There will be pain, and setbacks, but you will win. Fight the fight and defeat them.

I was required, years ago, to form a personal statement. I am supposed to look in the mirror each morning and state it, looking myself in the eyes and trying to mean it. I don't always remember, don't always have the strength to try. There has been more than one day that it was the only thing that got me through that day, gave me the will. I suggest that you try to do the same. I will share mine, though I will use the name Goose rather than my own in a public forum. It has changed over the years as I have needed it to:

I am Goose.
I matter.
It does not matter what others think, I know I am a good man.
I have something to do today, I may not know what, but I will find it, and do it.
Today is not the day I will let the bastards beat me.

thank you gooseman for the wise words and support.
bizi
I like your mantra!

sorry i wasnt on yesterday i went to hospital sick but im back today and depressed as all hell cuz da guy im ment to be getting wit got a girlfriend so basically ive got nothing he was the only thing keeping my mind under control but now ive got nothing to hold onto i know i have you guys but your not here in person and i no dat he isnt here in person but i was goin 2 move in wit u

I am sorry that you are disaapointed jazz.
It hurts when things don't work out like you want them to.
Do you have any girl friends to lean on?
bizi

hi guys just thought i would fill you in on what is happening to begin with i am falling apart and dont know if i will be able to pull it together i am seeing a counsellor but i tell her a senario of what i am feeling and then i just let her think that what she is saying is changing how i feel when it does not i dont think i will see her anymore

i am not going to be online for the next three weeks as i am on holidays but i will let you know when i get back

thanks for letting us klnow jazz, have a nice holiday!
bizi

hi guys im back i stopped seeing my counsellor and have been losing the plot den i met justin he has been fantastic support for me and is helping me cope im so happy hope all is well for others

i told my boyfriend (justin) that i cheated on him and was expecting him to go right off at me and dump me which i full on deserved. but instead he said that i must not love him that much i told him that i did and would do anything to change what happened then i started crying and he said he was angry but he would give me one chance. i am so greatful for that but he is bottling up how angry he is with me and i know it is going to blow up one day and im gonna cop it i am not sure where i am getting with this but i feel horrible which i full on deserve

I AM A BAD PERSON

what do i do?

Dear Jazz,
You are not a bad person.
Your behavior hurt him.
You must figure out why you cheated on him.
I don't understand why you quit your therapist.
perhaps you can call and get in to see her/him?
History repeats itself unless you deal with the reasons why you behaved the way you did...IMO.
Perhaps your bipolar is out of whack....are you hypomanic?
That could help to explain it not excuse your behavior.
Think about this jazz.
You are young and have time to get it right.
We still have to accept that our actions, hypomanic or not...effect the ones that we care about.
Maybe you need to not be seeing anyone seriously....could you just date him?
bizi

i am not sure that i could like justin and i are still together it has been 8 days since i cheated and 10 days that we have been together we have moved through the cheating thing with a few arguements on the weekend and now we are looking for the brighter side i have deleted the guy i cheated on justin withs number as i have figured that he was just using me and that i deserve so much better then a friend like him anyway i want me and justine to work out ive really fallen for him

i am over the moon i finally got a traineeship it is so exciting i cant belive i got it it is in child care and is full time so unfortunatley you wont hear from me all that often but yeah i am so happy and cant wait

great news jazz! good luck!!!!
bizi

i hope this works out for you Jazz! thanks for pointing me where to look...

thanks guys i knew i could count on your support

lats day of school for two weeks im kinda nervous now

37 i scored 37 on the bipolar quiz im getting better yey me

This is great!!!!!!
you can do this....yes you can.
bizi