Borderline PD symptoms description

That's me...

hee hee, that's so me its not even funny! wow! for a long time i just believed i was reallly screwed up and that's just the way it is! there's a name for it!
this unexplainable behavior of mine, it is so nice 2 know there are other people going through the same things that i am

Scary just how much i identify with this. There was a time a few months ago, when i thought a friend of mine left me and i felt completely shattered. The feeling completely different one day to the next is very relatable too,

Self-diagnoses is dangerous, see a therapist before getting scared and over identifying. Only they can tell you what you have!

Oh no I'm not self diagnosing as such. I just feel a connection to this description. I'm planning to talk about this to my counselor on monday.

Does a Person with BPD ever regret moving on to a new relationship so soon?

ha ha ha ha! when i'm single i can't get into a new relationship fast enough!!hee hee

i hate being alone

Doc John's article on BPD in the Information Forums.Conditions
is also very fine. I've just read it for the first time and am very moved.
All this helps perhaps for me to better understand
my deceased best friend as well as some ways we were alike.

I don't know that BPD fits me, but the descriptors sure cover some points that have my attention.

Thanks to one and all.

Are there tests for this diagnosis? None of the therapists want to make this diagnosis/ And if you do not show cuttingg behavior or suicidal attempts, would you discount this diagnosis?

I don't want to be like this anymore. It's crippling.

This is the best description I have read so far. Clear and concise! I have not been diagnosed with BPD. I was able to get just one sitting with a psychologist and towards the end she acknowledged that it might be the case but need more discussion to come to that conclusion.

But going by this description and even other detailed symptoms on the internet, I feel like this is exactly what I am going through.

do you ever just feel like you're submerged in an emotional tar pit? I even sometimes feel that the universe was designed so that I would wind up in that pit.

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As others have said, that is me... except I could never see me leaving my T in anger. I have more anger towards myself than others.

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"great difficulty in holding on to a stable, consistent sense of one's self: "What am I?" these people ask. "My life is in chaos; sometimes I feel like I can do anything—other times I want to die because I feel so incompetent, helpless and loathsome. I'm a lot of different people instead of being just one person."

The one word that best characterizes borderline personality is "instability." Emotions are unstable, fluctuating wildly, often for no discernible reason. Thought processes are unstable—rational and clear at times, quite extreme and distorted at other times. Behavior is unstable—often with periods of excellent conduct, high efficiency and trustworthiness alternating with outbreaks of regression to childlike states of helplessness and anger, suddenly quitting a job, withdrawing into isolation, failing."

This hits too close to home.
Thank you for finding this information; its a great post.

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I've had many symptoms, but appear to be rather high-functioning. My biggest problems these days are dealing with the repercussions of my angry/unthinking outbursts and/or the impulsive things I say and do at times

and there are still some minor self-destructive habits.

This is my description, this is who I am.
And sometimes it's so hard to accept that..

Hi to everyone,

My last diagnose was BPD, I don't know if I fit, I've been through OCD and others....
meds: Zoloft, Wellbutrin,
now: Depekane, Lorazepam....
I am sometimes depressed yes, more confused, don't cut myself but had once suicidal thoughts... definitely anxiety all the time, Pick my face, wonder around in my place.
Have lots of energy but not the thrill to do things.
All of that has affected my intestines (Colon problem) I go to therapy changed 4 times of therapist, I am really annoyed of all the time repeating the same things.
My greatest concern right now is... Am I not producing something that affects my body? Is this me or my personality has just changed through time due to electrical (brain speaking) hormones / neurotransmitters.

I am like what the "#$#"$ please just want this to come to an end, have something accurate diagnose and my colon problem fixed

So all of this is so me to a tee...but I haven't been diagnosed...kind of diagnosed myself and although it scares the crap out of me...when my husband says things like "you are sick" "you have BPD", etc...I get so enraged...I don't wanna be sick. I don't wanna have a mental illness....I just wanna be normal. I want to be able to control all the negative things that go on in my head. Its like there are 2 of me and I have no control of either. And as hard as I try...I fail, at least that's what my husband inadvertently, indirectly tells me, well I tell myself that too. I fight these feelings and emotions and thoughts...and somethings I succeed with my verbals words...but I still lose the battle.

My husband and I have been married 2 months and I have left him 3 times. I physically assault him regularly. (Now here is the justification for my assault, he is huge (Marine fit guy) and I am less than 100 lbs. I couldn't hurt him if I try, but I go into these uncontrollable rages over nothing, I mean nothing...and then the fight is on...and then I call the police and I beg them not to arrest him and then we make up and then we are great for a few days until I open my mouth again. And all he wants for me is to get better...and all I want from him is for him to shut up and quit telling me how I should be and what his opinion is and how wrong I am...oh my goodness I could go on for days....btw...he is a great man, he trys to be supportive and he loves me like no other ( I don't mean to sound so critical of him because he is so, so good to me.)

Anyways, I just want to fix me and I don't know how.

You always feel so alone with bpd, discovering you aren't can be a huge help. And knowing that this fits more than yourself is rather hope giving.

Wow...now if only I could get my parents to read this...haha

Echoes,

Thank you for your insight on BPD. I have just been diagnosed today and I am feeling good in one way that at last "it" has a name but feeling very childish that I cannot function like other people my age..

I couldn't have stated the description better. That is all, literally, all, me. It's so frustrating and sad I just, finally, at 30, have realized this is what I suffer from, after 15 years of trying to, yet, I am so relieved to know now. Thank you.

I have never been diagnosed with this, i cant afford to see a dr of any kind, but this exactly explains how i feel and have felt all my life.

This is a good description and I'm glad to know I'm not the only person that feels and acts like that