[Girl_interrupted89]

I'm have a minor struggle with myself today very frustrated deep down but I am still cheerful.. confused... obsessed.. okay I decided I am cheerful...

I hate working the weekends. Everyone is home but basically ignores me and PC is much less active. It is boring and very lonely.

I had the most awful migraine earlier, I am glad that it has gone now.

Had my stitches out now so I can eat properly again.

[BeautifullyDeprived]

Went to my interview, seems they like me but I won't get the email until 2 weeks so I'm okay though I'm highly nervous.

Sounds positive BD Let us know when you hear back

[BeautifullyDeprived]

Will Do Buttercupper!

Haha I like that

[Atypical_Disaster]

I'm having a terrible day, one of those where I wish I hadn't even bothered getting out of bed.

(((((Atypical_Disaster)))))

[BeautifullyDeprived]

Ah, Hang in There Atypical, I'm basically married to my bed

[BorderlineMess]

I'm feeling better. Not completely happy, but not unhappy. Don't have the energy, courage, strength, or confidence to go to dinner with my family, but I did make it out to wash laundry and get some groceries.

Thanks, everyone, for their love and support yesterday. I'm sorry to have a melt down. Hopefully, if I have anymore, I'll keep them out of the forum

Originally Posted by BorderlineMess

I'm feeling better. Not completely happy, but not unhappy. Don't have the energy, courage, strength, or confidence to go to dinner with my family, but I did make it out to wash laundry and get some groceries.

Thanks, everyone, for their love and support yesterday. I'm sorry to have a melt down. Hopefully, if I have anymore, I'll keep them out of the forum

Borderline

It is what we're here for, Please do post when you need

[BorderlineMess]

Been thinking about you Buttercup....glad to see you posting

i don't know what I feel. this "feeling" sucks.

Originally Posted by s4ndm4n2006

i don't know what I feel. this "feeling" sucks.

How I relate to this

Originally Posted by Buttercup..

How I relate to this

Thank you

Originally Posted by s4ndm4n2006

i don't know what I feel. this "feeling" sucks.

I think that "feeling" is going around. Maybe the blah weather a lot of people are having. I still feel a little bit of "nothing" but I think it's slowly being replaced by that. How should I know???? Not feeling anything distinct either way.

Originally Posted by Maranara

I think that "feeling" is going around. Maybe the blah weather a lot of people are having. I still feel a little bit of "nothing" but I think it's slowly being replaced by that. How should I know???? Not feeling anything distinct either way.

i would agree. but my weather here is superb. cold but very sunny and beautiful outside. So it's just me. I'm just farked in the head. >.<

Started out fine, came here, started surfing around, saw a few things that bothered me, and now feel really out of sorts and anxious. I'm starting to wonder if coming here is the best thing sometimes.

Been feeling rather ok past couple of days, Missing my husband and daughter though who are in New york, They come home tomorrow and I can't wait.

Sorry that I haven't been around as much but I have my MIL staying until tomorrow so it is hard to get online.

[BorderlineMess]

I'm so ready for it to be Friday. Friday after work, specifically. I want to call out from work tomorrow but I have a bunch of work to do. I'm just really frustrated with people. I want to be left alone. Working and going to school makes one a very social creature and I'm not used to it. I want to be holed up in my room in my apartment with my dog and my computer and movies and n-o o-n-e else. Not even my roommate, who I adore. He will be spending Friday night out...another reason I look forward to Friday.

I really just want to be left alone. To not have to pretend, to over-analyze, to watch my words and behavior, to mimic, to fain interest. I'm feeling very selfish right now.

[XAndromedaX]

I started out *****y. Picked a morning fight with my BF then practically kicked him ou to go hang at a friends for a few hours. Made the mistake of texting my sister mid afternoon after trying two calming baths with peppermint essential oil [ no effect still hate veryone especially me] Told her abut how ****** I feel. She only sort of cares since she has BPD too. Plus I suck at being there for her.
Pointed me in the direction of a cool site. Feel slightly better. Realized due to being distracted by self loathing and irritation I only smoked a few cigs today instead of a whole pack...horray?!

[BrokenNBeautiful]

I have a new companion. He's a friend I've known since I was 12 and he decided to come back into my life on New Year's Day. I guess we were catching up over the holidays and we ended up spending a lot of time together.

Now there's feeling between us.

He invited me to visit him in his neighborhood today and I finally went. I brought him back home with me tonight.

A few months ago, I promised myself I would not have a bf until I was more secure in myself, but I guess when you fall in love, it's easier said than done. I fall in love too easily.

There is different behavior though.

I am not jumping into s*x anymore. That is such a dead end when I do it too fast. In fact, we did have it last week, but decided to slow down again.

Now, I am having ups and downs again, but working hard with Ani my mentor, managing to go to my daily commitments at the alano club, run my errands, do SHMW (mental health project) and most important of all, sit in feelings.

I am having anxiety about being intimate again, esp after losing my last bf to suicide on New Year's Eve.

This new companion has been good for me.

The only thing: Carol, don't devalue/idealize him. He's a human being, you are one, too. Deal with that.

So today I was able to manage my problems.

I followed thru and did not run away from him or from my obligations this week.

Carol

Not sure today will go well. Not only did I not sleep a dang minute last night so I've been up since 1PM in the afternoon yesterday... but I have to be at work all day and watch the winter storm get to us and wait to walk in it later tonight :/ Dunno what's up with this - Insomnia is new to me.

Saving my monster drinks for when I really need them later today. Wish me luck...

Originally Posted by s4ndm4n2006

Not sure today will go well. Not only did I not sleep a dang minute last night so I've been up since 1PM in the afternoon yesterday... but I have to be at work all day and watch the winter storm get to us and wait to walk in it later tonight :/ Dunno what's up with this - Insomnia is new to me.

Saving my monster drinks for when I really need them later today. Wish me luck...

Valerian and Melatonin are two herbal suppliments when, taken before bed, can aid with sleeping. Celestial Seasonings has a Sleepytime tea with the Valerian. It won't affect your wakefulness or performance the next day and have found them useful. I'm used to a bit of insomnia, though, and usually don't take them unless I go more than two days or so with none. It's all a thinking thing. Just can't stop sometimes.