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Chris and I are meeting today and I'm very nervous. I'm not very hopeful so I guess I'm prepared if anything bad happens. I feel like I've gotten through the worst of it. I'm still very nervous though and don't know what I'll say to him.
Sorry if I keep going on and on about this. I'm just looking for some hugs right now. |
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Awww hun I sooooo hope it goes well for you, just try to stay calm and keep an open mind. You will be fine
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((((((hugs))))))
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![]() ![]() Hope it goes really well! Looking forward to hearing about your good time (hopefully!) ![]()
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How did it go?
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Hope it goes well, let us know how it went
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Thinking of you
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Okay so I went there.. we sat there awkwardly for a while and hardly said a word to each other. He said he wanted to be friends, which is what he meant by "talking about things" he wanted to talk about moving forward with our friendship.. he's okay with cuddling and okay with having sex, so I guess we're "friends with benefits" now.. nothings really changed.. we had sex, he got me some food and we watched TV and then I stayed the night, which was a typical day for us when we were together, the only difference now is that he's not technically my "boyfriend" which still kind of hurts. I mean it's just typical, every guy I've been with is willing to **** me but never wants to be with me and idk why. I'll probably go along with the whole "friends with benefits" thing, I mean like I said things are pretty much the same.
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I know it's hard to be without someone who makes you feel comfortable, but you have to find the respect for yourself to walk away from a situation which is only going to be harmful to you. Not to mention that, my dear, he is using you for sex because he realizes that he can. Don't let him. |
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great, I feel myself spiraling down.
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It's all I can think about now, ****.
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Don't spiral down, girl. |
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I thought Chris was different. He said he cared about me, I thought he meant it.
There's just something wrong with me, there's a lot of things wrong with me.. I'm simply not girlfriend material. |
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There is nothing wrong with you, you just have a lot of stuff going on right now. It's really hard to deal with what's going on in your mind and try to also focus on a relationship, school, trying to navigate the other stuff you've mentioned that's going on (I don't know all of it, but you've mentioned some other stuff). You've got a lot going on. It's easy for us with BPD to make feeling wanted the #1 priority, but it often isn't...and that's what gets us into trouble. P.S. If Honey Boo Boo's mom is girlfriend material, we're all girlfriend material. I'm just sayin'. For real though, it's not that you're not girlfriend material, you just have to work on taking care of you for a little while. |
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you touched a raw nerve with the headcase comment. No one should label you like that. Everybody has had a love go wrong. If 50% of marriages end in divorce, what percentage of relationships fail. Do you see what I am trying to say? It isn't all about you. I like to think it is always about me, but it just is illogical. At my age now I am so grateful for each one of my failed relationships. it allowed me to start a whole new one. Just for fun try creating a character mock up, like you would if you were writing a novel, and design the guy you really want. It gave me a little fun hope when I was down and lonely. I even cut out magazine pictures of guy things I found appealing. I don't care if people call me a headcase, because frankly I do prefer to live in my head. There I am the safest from judgmental people. Sorry I rambled, I wish I could carry you through this phase to the other side. Hugs
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Sending lots of hugs your way!
I agree with frippet. No one should ever judge someone like that especially by calling them a "head case." That is a harsh thing to say, I think, because most of the time the people who are quick to say things like that don't have a any clue what the other person is going through. I really hope you start feeling better soon. I am going through my own relationship issues and it really is so hard. You deserve to have a guy who wants it all with you....who would rather be with you on your worst days, than anyone else on their best. If you ever need anything, let me know! I wish I could help you more. ![]() |
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Thanks for the support! I really appreciate it!!
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I just spat my drink on my iPad reading about "Honey Boo Boo's mum"
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(((poptart)))
I am sorry that you're feeling down so low. These intense feelings really can be hell, can't they? ![]() Just try hard to remind yourself that this feeling will go back down. It always does ~ and something else will take it's place. Hopefully, a more grounded feeling will be the one! *crossing my fingers* p.s. I agree with misskeena. Don't let Chris use your loneliness and insecurities to his advantage...that only puts your self-esteem lower. (((gentle hugs))) sent to you.
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I think he's using you too, you need to stop giving him your world if he doesn't want anything but sex. Eventually there will come a point where you'll have to say why am i here doing this with him? It will go on as long as you let him because he's getting the milk for free.
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Anyway. Sorry. Not about Mama June. |
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I'm not a hugging person at all! But I gave you one any ways. We borders need to stick together
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