[Maranara]

I'm having a hard time dealing with oncoming depression due to the holidays and the long, cold winter that I'm simply not used to.

[technigal]

Originally Posted by Maranara

I'm having a hard time dealing with oncoming depression due to the holidays and the long, cold winter that I'm simply not used to.

If you do not have one get a SAD lamp. That will help with the depression. I am having a hard time with Christmas too. My pdoc actually brought up how I was coping with the holidays, not well but trying to make it fun and exciting for the boy.

[Maranara]

Originally Posted by technigal

If you do not have one get a SAD lamp. That will help with the depression. I am having a hard time with Christmas too. My pdoc actually brought up how I was coping with the holidays, not well but trying to make it fun and exciting for the boy.

I haven't gotten one yet but am thinking seriously about one of those lamps. Thank you for the suggestion.

[beloiseau]

Emotionally all over the place today, fighting some urges. Trying to stay calm and make it to DBT tomorrow, friday is pdoc day there.

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[youwillrise]

getting nervous about break. i am an early childhood teacher and our school is on a college campus, so when the college is on vacation, we're on vacation. i have a hard time with too much down time. i start getting depressed because i feel useless. my job is my comfort, my safe haven...i dont know what to do with myself most other times

[technigal]

Originally Posted by Maranara

I haven't gotten one yet but am thinking seriously about one of those lamps. Thank you for the suggestion.

I know it really has helped me.

I don't feel that safe tonight. Time to hide in bed and hope for the best

[technigal]

Last doctor appointment in the family for awhile. Now to get my baking done before Sunday when I will deliver treats to special friends. So exhausted all of a sudden.

[Double T]

Doing ok today but feel like isolating myself from all my close friends. Also don't want to deal with holidays as I have to be around two homes I do not like being around, both on my husband's side. He is making me go. I could technically decline but then his family would think I hate them. And I don't. I just don't want to be around them.

Trying to focus on other things right now.

Originally Posted by simplydivine1030

Everyone and everything is irritating me. Does anyone else have an issue with any type of critism, even constructive? I'm so sensitive and I hate it.

*Raises hand*
Have always hated it and gotten defensive.
I'm getting better about it, especially sober. In fact I look at past constructive criticism from friends that I once took very badly and realize it was actually from a place of care/concern, and what I needed to here.
Yet I still struggle sometimes.

[shezbut]

Noticing a trend that I have ~ Everytime the holidays come around, I pull away from my bf in despair and paranoia that there is no love & yet I cannot manage my life without him. At the same time, I try to remind myself of positive experiences we shared just weeks ago ~ but they feel a million miles away & I cannot remember how those good feelings felt!

[Maranara]

Working.....thinking too much.....feeling lonely.....getting depressed. Same ole, same ole....

Doing well today so far... not cold out, kind of sunny and in the upper 60s here. woot!

Hanging in there. Trying not to get upset .

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[technigal]

All ready for the holidays but cleaning the house and really I need to wait until after Monday and the kids coming here to do anything major. Now hopefully I can relax and enjoy the holidays.

[beloiseau]

Trying to sort out my day so it's not as hard as yesterday... Can't let the anxiety and emotions take hold again

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[youwillrise]

"funny" how you can totally know what's what and still be STUPID as heck at the same time.

why do i keep doing this to myself with him? why cant i just say "no"? i must be insane because i keep doing the same thing and expecting different results. if only someone who actually cared about me as much as i do about them would come into my life...where the EFF ARE YOU person? or do i not deserve it?

[nycgal448]

Emotional. tired. sad.reminiscing 2013.

[technigal]

Emotional day. I opened a Christmas card from friends and there was a gift card for groceries, I promptly burst into tears. They probably have no idea how much that gift card will help our family.

[youwillrise]

i think ive cried enough for 3 people these past 2 days.

[beloiseau]

I cried a bunch yesterday too... Holidays are so hard for everyone. I got in a fight with my mom yesterday, it was completely unprovoked, she misinterpreted something i said and really overthought it, so she called me completely up in arms and started criticizing me. Let's hope the holiday gets better since i have to spend the next two days at the parents house. Oh and im out of ativan.

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[youwillrise]

i am lonely and i am alone. there are people around, but they might as well be somewhere else. i just feel like ill never be good enough for anyone's love.

[Aphrodites_Muse]

I'm struggling greatly with my life...but I feel like I've at least still got my feet planted, even if I'm not entirely sure where that is exactly...sigh

[shezbut]

I am feeling worried and trapped in my romantic relationship.

I am such a wuss ~ I cannot freakin stand myself!!

[youwillrise]

i just have the hardest time being happy on christmas anymore. im not sure where my joy has gone. im not sure i even have any. i feel like so many of the things i love just dont cut it for me anymore. loving myself is...well, im not sure how exactly to do that. im having such a hard time with everything. i was accepted to umass and will start (its an all online degree program) in january...im nervous as hell...having doubts that i can succeed and/or pay for it. just completely overwhelmed now when before i was exicted to finally start on a bachelor's degree. im gonna really need a 2nd job to be able to keep up with this and all the other stuff i have to pay...and ive been looking, but nothing so far.

im feeling like a loser because i keep running to this guy for sex stuff...even though i know he doesnt want me otherwise. i keep telling myself that i cant make him want more than my body...but then i start hoping too much and having faith and being idiotic. i dunno. i really just need to stop talking to him all together, but its hard since he isnt just some random guy...ive known him since age 12 (now we're both 30).