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#226
Dec 01, 2013, 11:53 AM
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On a bit of a roller coaster today, fighting my head and very conflicting feelings. Feeling quite alone in all of the inner turmoil. I just wish it would stop.
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#228
Dec 01, 2013, 01:38 PM
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Hope everyone is coping with the holiday..... Feeling slightly overwhelmed today. Jittery and very anxious. Have to go to tree lighting event today. Just not into the spirit at all. Seems everyone has been out and finished shopping. I haven't even stepped into a mall or plaza. Don't know how I am going to cope with the holidays here. My b/f has torn the house apart to paint the living room...that was back in August. House is still torn apart. I cannot even start to clean up his mess and the house has to be decorated for xmas.... felling totally overwhelmed at having to do this...maybe I can get away and not deal with it....hope you all are doing better than me. Take care.
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| allme, Bill3
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#229
Dec 02, 2013, 12:03 PM
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Mix of feelings right now. Feeling happy and blessed for having the lady friend I have right now. Tense because I need constant reassurances and I don't get that very much from her during work.
 Worried that I could have another blowout.
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| allme, Aventurine, lynn808, technigal
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#230
Dec 02, 2013, 11:01 PM
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My bf and I are back together again, we just finished a great weekend... I should be elated, cause I wanted this... but I feel sooooooo depressed.. We are both really busy this week so I don't know when I will see him... makes me anxious cause I know where it will lead.. to me being "too demanding" again. Oh God I hate this...
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#231
Dec 03, 2013, 06:01 PM
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I had a rough start and it was very, very hard getting started, but I was able with some help from a friend or two, snap out of it and be somewhat productive.
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#232
Dec 03, 2013, 06:59 PM
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Losing it. I hate my ****ing mother-in-law. She makes my life a living hell. I can't deal with this.
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Mags Depression diagnosed March 1996 PTSD diagnosed January 2000 BPD diagnosed September 2013 |
| Bill3, lynn808
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#234
Dec 04, 2013, 09:34 AM
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Today i'm struggling with lack of sleep, anxiety about my next appt with my T. But on the good side i'm baby sitting my nieces, waiting for them to wake up from their nap.
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#235
Dec 04, 2013, 11:48 AM
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Gosh today's the first time l worried about hurting my baby niece because I couldn't calm her down. Had to put her back in her crib for ten minutes to ensure her safety. Don't like this
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#237
Dec 05, 2013, 09:29 AM
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OK today, just working plodding along. Still struggling with addiction on a daily basis now. I have given up before and know I can again....it's just a matter of when!
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’’In the end, it’s not going to matter how many breaths you took, but how many moments took your breath away’’ |
| Bill3, technigal
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#238
Dec 05, 2013, 11:25 AM
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Feeling distractable to... HEY SQUIRREL!
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| Angel of Bedlam
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#239
Dec 05, 2013, 11:30 AM
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#240
Dec 05, 2013, 11:44 AM
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Feel nauseous and overwhelmed.
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 Am I the only one I know, waging my wars behind my face and above my throat? Diagnosed: BPD PTSD |
| Anonymous12111009, Bill3, technigal, Truth in Ruin
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#241
Dec 05, 2013, 02:11 PM
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I was just officially diagnosed with BPD. I have been diagnosed with BP for a while. The doc raised my Lamotrigine to 300 mg even though I told her I don't think it helps me and I always feel angry and/or emotionless. I am starting DBT next week - does anyone think it helps? Or can anyone tell me a little bit about it?
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"I'm a bagel on a plate full of onion rolls." ~ Barbra Streisand <3 DX: Major Depressive Disorder ADHD Generalized Anxiety Disorder Meds: Ativan 1 MG Viibryd 40 MG Adderall 20 MG |
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#243
Dec 07, 2013, 02:36 PM
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Trying to balance. Fears and doubtfulness trying to break in every 30 seconds... but at the same time I can't deny the good stuff happening... taking a lot of energy to keep my composure.
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#244
Dec 07, 2013, 02:42 PM
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#246
Dec 08, 2013, 08:40 PM
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Because of BPD, it's so hard to appreciate what you have and instead dwell on things you can never fix. I was awakened to that yet again yesterday, and I hope I can remember that. It is so important, for all of us.
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#247
Dec 08, 2013, 08:45 PM
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Have an 8 year old having a meltdown, sent him to his room without yelling! Go me!
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Mags Depression diagnosed March 1996 PTSD diagnosed January 2000 BPD diagnosed September 2013 |
| Bill3, hawaii04
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#248
Dec 08, 2013, 09:10 PM
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#249
Dec 08, 2013, 10:47 PM
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Mags Depression diagnosed March 1996 PTSD diagnosed January 2000 BPD diagnosed September 2013 |
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#250
Dec 09, 2013, 12:32 PM
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Two words to describe my state at the moment: Cautiously happy. Had a good night with my lady friend. That doesn't stop the fearful mind trying to convince me to feel otherwise but I'm fighting it.
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| technigal
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