This guy pisses me off so much. He's mad that I won't come over but I have family stuff that's kind of more important. I'm so damn angry.

[porcelain_pain]

My day was just dandy.

[JadeAmethyst]

mid day, have the house and dogs to myself right now, hot water heater is kapoot, and i took a cold shower, was not that bad really! Kind of energizing to be honest. LOL
at the moment a pretty decent Wednesday mid-day.

May we all be healthy, wealthy and wise in our "happenings" today.

Jade

[trying2survive]

feeling pretty good today despite my lawnmower woes, LOL! getting some laundry done and washing the dishes! ahh house work, LOL!

[NeverBeenLoved]

I had a very restful day. I was up late night. Got up late this morning. Made a phone call, took my morning meds and then went back to bed and didn't wake up until 4 pm. Oops ! It is okay I figure I deserve it, when I was working, I worked a lot of 24 hour days, so this is just catch up.

[Espresso]

I've been pretty even today. No intense emotions or flying off the handle (except for yelling at someone while I was driving).

[JadeAmethyst]

End of my "day" and was feeling "crabby" but....pulled my airplane up, and noticed it and let it the "crabby" be and she had her say....just crabby.

Was having company for dinner which i cooked. Got to looking at why and what i was cooking,,,,,now why am i cooking? I love to eat and "commune" so my attitude and mood actually shifted!!!! The dinner, and conversation was a delight....go figure...woohooo

[Britneigh]

Just got home from dropping the boss off at the airport...farm is my responsibility for like 3 weeks...I'm a little nervous to be on my own for that long with the luck thats been going on around here. Overall though I had a decent day. It started off feeling cruddy but it got better.

Snuck my kitty in with me for the night. She's super preggo so maybe her little ones are ready to come say hello tonight! Her belly was moving earlier, it was kind of cool.

Drove for the first time in over a year tonight too. It went alright. Kind of nice to have that freedom. Felt weird at the same time.

[Verity81]

Had a dream last night I had self harmed and was really upset about it. I woke up really confused and anxious and had to check my arms to make sure. I'm seeing this as a good sign I really don't want to do it anymore...

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[ifst5]

Woke up with a start thanks to inconsiderate neighbours. Couldn't get through to my support team as i just wanted to be heard - and if they won't listen who will? Giving up on that i had quite a nice conversation with a family member instead and from there i felt good enough to go and make myself lots of good healthy food. I'll probably spend the rest of the day just trying to remain on an even keel and get some work done.

[trying2survive]

i have given up all hope of starting this lawnmower:day 3, i have had enough
off to the shop it goes

so get to the shop, the say they will know something in a week, A WEEK, great

[Britneigh]

I post in this thread too much.

I love alcohol...yay Corona...I need to get more tomorrow.

[Verity81]

Originally Posted by trying2survive

i have given up all hope of starting this lawnmower:day 3, i have had enough

off to the shop it goes


so get to the shop, the say they will know something in a week, A WEEK, great

Can you borrow a lawnmower off a neighbour for now?

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[NeverBeenLoved]

Feeling lousy today. Spent most of the morning in bed, still wish I was there. I don't feel like talking to anyone or doing anything today. So I am hiding out at the library using their free Wifi because mine is running out at home. My support team said i needed to get out and do something, so I came here. Not sure this is what they had in mind, but I don't really care. I am out of the house and that is all that really matters.

Have a good day everyone.

[JadeAmethyst]

Feel blah today, down, lethargic, ugh. One of them days....still able to get out of the house and run some errands though. Just kinda goin' thru the motions, but hey...still here and that's ok. And here we all are, so thanks you guys.

Jade

[Britneigh]

Had a good day. No alcohol. No bad coping. Just a good day

[trying2survive]

bad day today..crashed hard...got into a heated argument with a customer that breached a contract and thinks 'im supposed to pay the taxes on HIS house..of course, i lost it..been having trouble with this guy for 2 years..today was the last straw..i'm so done doing business with this idiot

[Blue_velvet09]

I just want to be loved

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[trying2survive]

good day so far, minimal mood swings (at the moment) had a nice workout today. feeling pretty darn good! LOL! ah BPD, never a dull moment!

[JadeAmethyst]

ok mostly, gotta' get some quiet time, and regroup.

[Britneigh]

I am armed with 3 large bottles of wine. Yay for by myself sad/angry drinking!

[ifst5]

It's Sunday, it's peaceful but i'm alone and feeling a bit strung out. I hate trying to lay new foundations only for them to collapse inwards the moment my stability takes a dive. Next week will be tough. I have an appointment with my CC Tuesday, an endoscopy scheduled Thursday and a lot of business in between. I want to be proactive but it just won't come. Maybe this is a sign my current depressive cycle still hasn't lifted...

[JadeAmethyst]

Feeling grief...loss....morose...dark, really dark....old grief, unprocessed, swirling back up again....so tiring, and tired, frustrated, mad as h..ll, want to punch the wall, want to fight back, hurt, pitiful, raging bull, friendless and lost in space, drifting, needless wantless, voiceless, icy cold hate.....lots of stuff let it go, let it go

[ifst5]

I feel very bad. I could do with some peace.