[Mindful55]

Originally Posted by nevergoodenough

People suck so much I cannot even tell you. I am not the problem, it's everybody else.

Yes they do!!
WE have to realize; it is their stuff; & we need not to react. Easier said than done.

[allme]

Feeling tired this morning, but otherwise I am good

[Britneigh]

I've hit a low and am struggling so badly. I just want to give up. I'm so useless and a waste of space

[Espresso]

I wanted to type something here, but then I thought that maybe it was too dark and demented. I'm not normal. I don't know what's wrong with me.

[technigal]

My Christmas holiday low has hit big-time. Spending my days/nights crying while trying to hide it from a 9 year old. I absolutely HATE Christmas.

[Crazy Hitch]

I am sending big ((((hugs)))) to the above posters who are experiencing a difficult time.

[Bubbles&Buttercup]

I've been feeling emotionally okay all day and suddenly I'm crying and my head is filled with self harm thoughts.
Not suicidal though.

[Achy Turtle Armor]

Originally Posted by technigal

My Christmas holiday low has hit big-time. Spending my days/nights crying while trying to hide it from a 9 year old. I absolutely HATE Christmas.

Aww. I'm so sorry that you are so sad. if it's ok

[Achy Turtle Armor]

Originally Posted by Bubbles&Buttercup

I've been feeling emotionally okay all day and suddenly I'm crying and my head is filled with self harm thoughts.
Not suicidal though.

The holidays are tough for a lot of people maybe that's the trigger? Whatever the reason, try some self-soothing ideas like warm bath or shower, lotion, hot cup of something...

[Swabbingred]

I hate going out feeling like a million dollars and looking like it too, but inside I'm a f****** trainwreck.

[Britneigh]

Over the holidays. I'm so over life. Yesterday I have never cried so much, I woke up in tears and they just carried on. Today I'm just numb. Merry Christmas eve to all of you who celebrate

[dancinglady]

[nymphea]

I told my psychologist I was going to end my life but all I wanted was her validation. I'm struggling so much and it's supposed to be the happiest time of year.

[Lefty_Mac]

Originally Posted by nymphea

I told my psychologist I was going to end my life but all I wanted was her validation. I'm struggling so much and it's supposed to be the happiest time of year.

Come on now, please don't do that. There's absolutely nothing to gain from oblivion.

I know you don't know me - I'm sorta old but still green in here, but as I come back and see all of you in that sadness, it breaks my heart but also gives me hope that I can help you. I'm far from being a saint, and my shortcomings still overcome by good qualities, but I see how we suffer and how much of a long way we have to go to at least be able to crack a tiny smile at a purple morning sky or some rain, or whatever, but trust me - we get there if we want to.

It's not worth it. None of you are deserving of ending your lives. We may have all this emptiness and incapability of finding a path where our only choices are either make it or break it, but that's just not what it is.

It's not gonna be easy, but it sure will be easier at least a tiny bit if you just reach out or accept those who offer you a shoulder to cry on. Well, I'm doing that. I didn't come back for nothing; I came back because I can offer that shoulder - not always, but as much as possible. I'll be around for anytime you wanna talk.

I'll be around.

[Achy Turtle Armor]

I missed you Lefty_Mac

[intheburbs3134]

I am barely coping at the moment to be honest. Here it is Christmas day and I just wish this day and boxing day would just be over. Someone sent a friend request but I have no idea how to respond to it here on this board or check for messages from them via this site. Seems my potassium levels in extremely low explaining the agonizing pains in both my hips and I am medication I have to take every other day. I am bit concerned on my creatinine levels as the are 15 points higher than average . I just can't seem to get bothered or enthused to do anything. I can't work out why to be honest. I am just so tired of it all. May everyone have a peaceful and stress free Christmas. I just wish mine never sucked as much as it is currently.

[Achy Turtle Armor]

Just wanted to say that though I am enjoying my Christmas eve for the first time in years, I'm also thinking about those who find this time difficult. Take care of yourselves. if it's ok

Originally Posted by Achy Turtle Armor

Just wanted to say that though I am enjoying my Christmas eve for the first time in years, I'm also thinking about those who find this time difficult. Take care of yourselves. if it's ok

that's nice

sadly though a rarety these days

because so many people just think of themselves

Want to die.

[Britneigh]

Had a really good two days. My anxiety was through the roof because I've been isolating myself for the past month and finally made myself be social....but I'm glad I did. Now the true test...I'm going to a friends for the weekend who's an hour from the farm...I haven't left the farm for more than a day and never over night since I was in the hospital for my gall bladder last February. I already feel nervous.

[Britneigh]

Ps. Hugs (if it's okay) to everyone and happy holidays.

Originally Posted by nevergoodenough

Want to die.

((((((hugs))))))

what's wrong..

[Bubbles&Buttercup]

I hope everyone's Christmas was enjoyable, or at least not too rough.
I got the same present that I get every farking year..my period. It comes with suicidal thoughts, cramps and migraines. This year it is a bit upgraded though, it also comes with some sweet vertigo.

Originally Posted by Bubbles&Buttercup

I hope everyone's Christmas was enjoyable, or at least not too rough.
I got the same present that I get every farking year..my period. It comes with suicidal thoughts, cramps and migraines. This year it is a bit upgraded though, it also comes with some sweet vertigo.

christmas sucked here

was barely worth it

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

((((((hugs))))))

what's wrong..

Missing/hating someone.