Day 3 of working 7 days straight and I'm already exhausted.

I'm screwed.

[Blue_velvet09]

Went back to the psych center and my uni and was denied counseling... Again. Why would they invite me back in just to tell me "we can't take you, we can't help you".

I understand that I need more intensive therapy and I need to go somewhere off campus but I can't afford it.

The whole situation was just so embarrassing and I walked out of the room crying. This is the second place at my uni that denied me service. Although I understand why, it just stings...

Maybe I don't realize how messed up I am

[Britneigh]

Physically exhausted. The humidity is killing me today working outside. I have to completely gut stalls so it's even worse. My shoulders are screaming with each wheel barrow I dump and each scoop ton fill it back up. 6 1/2 stalls done, 8 1/2 more to go.

Why can't I handle full week of work without having a meltdown??

[MoxieDoxie]

Originally Posted by shakespeare47

meh.. I'm going to watch Guardians of the Galaxy tonight.

Love that movie!

[Achy Turtle Armor]

Originally Posted by Britneigh

Physically exhausted. The humidity is killing me today working outside. I have to completely gut stalls so it's even worse. My shoulders are screaming with each wheel barrow I dump and each scoop ton fill it back up. 6 1/2 stalls done, 8 1/2 more to go.

I'm glad to see you back.

[Britneigh]

Originally Posted by Achy Turtle Armor

I'm glad to see you back.

Thanks I'm glad to be back...especially since I'm feeling A bit better.

[Espresso]

An amazing day ruined...

It has become disturbingly clear that I will need to take time off that I can't afford.

My stress levels are through the roof and my anxiety is nearing panic.

I don't want to be here. I want out.

[Britneigh]

I love having to call the vet first thing in the morning. I think one of the horses broke/fractured her skull. Joy :/

[Espresso]

Thankfully, last night's shitfest didn't carry over much into today. I'm still recovering from it emotionally, but the relationship is intact and apparently fine.

[Achy Turtle Armor]

It's a little embarrassing when I have to tell a stranger that I can't take a photo for them because my hands are too shaky.

[SeekerOfLife]

I am just here. Not officially diagnosed with BPD, but possesing the traits (though not with the intensity I supposedly should).

[GALAXYGAL]

Hello, new here. I slept good last night. No dreams no nightmares. My therapist ended our relationship after 3 sessions on Wednesday because of my psychiatrist (so she said) one wanted to communicate via email and the other via phone calls. I didn’t overreact and handled the ‘good-bye’ with diplomacy. I Will need to start over again she was my 2nd therapist in 2 years.

[Espresso]

I can't catch a break.

[Britneigh]

Had a bad day. Went back to old habits and cracked open a beer or Idk how many. Not proud that I fell off the wagon...but I'm sad.

[Espresso]

Hello, all. I'm headed to bed soon. Today was stressful. I was able to work through my emotions and frustrations with my husband thanks to DBT. I've been moderately to severely intoxicated for the past seven hours. So I guess that makes today neutral? I don't know.

Off to college

[Verity81]

Originally Posted by GALAXYGAL

Hello, new here. I slept good last night. No dreams no nightmares. My therapist ended our relationship after 3 sessions on Wednesday because of my psychiatrist (so she said) one wanted to communicate via email and the other via phone calls. I didn’t overreact and handled the ‘good-bye’ with diplomacy. I Will need to start over again she was my 2nd therapist in 2 years.

Welcome hope you find a good therapist who will stick with it

[Britneigh]

Doing prettywell still small bump in the road the other day but back on track. It's been a very frustrating week work wise...the other employee called in yesterday and today after being off for a week. Luckily my boss is home so she's helping out since I worked 10 days in a row.

[Astriferous]

I went to my friends funeral and I don't know how to feel. I'm feeling everything and nothing all at once.

Oh god, I'm so alone.

[Britneigh]

Just kidding. I'm crashing hard. I don't know what triggered it. But I cracked open a bottle of whisky...I'm scared but can't stop. Idk how this will turn out.

[Espresso]

I've been intensely irritable today. My husband caused it, but I know he didn't mean to so I'm trying not to lash out at him. But just so I can get it out, here's what has annoyed me so far today: he canceled a small trip I was looking forward to, got up extremely late, didn't answer a question I asked and instead made fun of me, drove a loaner car recklessly, forgot what I wanted to do with him today, and gave the baby a raspberry to crawl around with which resulted in red spots all over the living room.

In other news, I took a quiz about what my career should actually be, and I got therapist. I don't agree with the answer, but I thought it was kind of funny.

[Notoriousglo]

Don't want to exercise today. Not feeling angry at my T like I was previously. Supposed to write down the conflicts in my head... to figure out why I am stuck in the middle.

Wondering why I ranted in therapy. o.O

Feeling anxiety about what I wrote here? Is it right?

[isntlifewonderful]

I want to cry but I can't. I want to cuddle up in her arms but she's so far away. I want to feel alive but I can barely breathe.