[Achy Turtle Armor]

Originally Posted by BeteNoire

Am on the second day of my week off and already I want to go back to work.

When I'm working I may be angry and stressed but at least it's a distraction.

Now all I have are my thoughts and they're making me more and more depressed.

I am totally the same. My job is really valuable to me.

[Achy Turtle Armor]

I was missing my sister today and she said the she was down because she missed me too. That made me cry.

Tomorrow I start the divorce process and the couple, friends from work, that I've been staying with are loaning me the $1500 for a year interest free. I'm scared when I think about how my H will deal with this. Has he even thought about his options. I don't want to throw him out of the house with no where to go.

[bamaborderline]

Originally Posted by Achy Turtle Armor

Can you get more help? Or try a different therapy?

I am trying to find an intensive treatment to attend now, I see a therapist now, and have been to intreatment for sex addiction as well as anger management classes but all of that was before the BPD diagnosis last December. I am very willing to try anything as I truly do want to put our family back together and to be a better husband and father. Any suggestions as far as intensive treatment?

[Achy Turtle Armor]

Bamaborderline

If you mean in patient I can recommend Menninger in Houston but it's not cheap. Out patient, I'd suggest looking for some place that does DBT. Good luck. My husband refused help over & over so that's the end for us.

On way to work x

Originally Posted by muaythailady88

On way to work x

Drive/ride/walk safe, lady ! Watch the road !

[lifelies]

i may or may not loose my less-than-one-week-boyfriend because, even though he said "i love you first," i didn't hide my extreme feelings and I said i love him so so so so much and he was uncomfortable
i can't let him abandon me... i can't
tom/Amber

[LOSTnowFOUND]

Not sure how I am feeling today. Yesterday I was stressed beyond belief dealing with my son's foot. Today I am exhausted.....that seems to be the only thing I feel these days. Working from home today which is never good because I have no motivation here.......feeling blah.

[Britneigh]

Don't feel like leaving my bed today. So the pup the guinea pig and I are cuddling up for a Desperate Housewives marathon

[Espresso]

I'm exhausted. I'm bored, but I don't want to do anything.

[Notoriousglo]

People with glass houses shouldn't throw stones...

[Espresso]

I'm feeling very sad. I just get used to life again and then everything changes.

[bamaborderline]

I am feeling terrible right now, I have been told that I have to leave our home. My ex-wife has been giving me another chance with her and we have been living together since last April. She told me tonight that she just can't stay on the roller coaster anymore. I have not made enough progress in learning how to control my emotions and have not been able to be the man she needs me to be. I understand, and sadly she is right. I love her with all my heart, I just am not good for her. She deserves to be happy. The cost of her happiness though is my complete and utter sadness.

[Achy Turtle Armor]

Originally Posted by bamaborderline

I am feeling terrible right now, I have been told that I have to leave our home. My ex-wife has been giving me another chance with her and we have been living together since last April. She told me tonight that she just can't stay on the roller coaster anymore. I have not made enough progress in learning how to control my emotions and have not been able to be the man she needs me to be. I understand, and sadly she is right. I love her with all my heart, I just am not good for her. She deserves to be happy. The cost of her happiness though is my complete and utter sadness.

I'm sorry about your struggle.

[Achy Turtle Armor]

I want my back pain to disappear. It has been worse, but as I lift approximately 50, 40 lb., boxes a day... I can't afford back pain. I think it is due to the fact that I haven't slept in my own bed in over 40 days. This divorce is really wearing on me and it has just begun.

Tonight I will attempt to sleep on the floor in hopes that it will be better for my back.

Wish me luck. I love all of y'all.

[Britneigh]

My filly is in the process of being weaned (separated from her mom). She's so upset and scared it's breaking my heart. On top of abandonment issues of my own it's killing me even though it's natural and has to happen for horses. My poor baby it makes me so sad.

[Bubbles&Buttercup]

I have a new job and now I'm back to being stressed out all the time. Second solo shift tonight, I completely freak out when I have to close up downstairs at 2am and it's dark and frightening.
I feel sick and I don't wanna go but I have to.
My partner is working lots too now and I feel like we never see each other.

[Astriferous]

Just finished up my first week of school! It went well, but my crippling anxiety has once again returned.

[technigal]

Just dropping in. I know I haven't been around much, I have been given so much support here that I feel guilty that I have been staying away. Things are going really well for me. I am in a good place and hope to stay here. The boy started grade 4 so I am feeling a little old, then again I am 45 now although everyone at work thought I was 25 on my birthday.

for all those who need them

[Britneigh]

The "s" word is on my mind. It's going to be a terrible night

[Achy Turtle Armor]

Originally Posted by Britneigh

The "s" word is on my mind. It's going to be a terrible night

Hug your guinea pig!

[Espresso]

I'm exhausted. I don't know what to do. I don't know anything.

[Verity81]

Husband pissed me off by complaining about frequency of sex etc. ffs it was only last week and in the meantime I'm doing prolonged exposure ptsd work, working full time, being a stepmum etc etc.. Feel like I'll never be good enough and this is the day after my T told me to be more compassionate with myself. If it wasn't for the fact I've promised the girls we are going to see my new baby nephew I'd walk out and go shopping by myself! Wants me to be ****ing super wife, step mum, lover......piss off and buy yourself a robot cos I make constant sacrifices to be in this family and I'll tell you what would help me feel sexy?? Appreciation!

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[Achy Turtle Armor]

Dropping my car off at the house tomorrow morning so my ex-to-be can use it. I'd rate me a 75% out of 100% on my communication with him via text today. The challenge for me is to not go to that submissive state. It's what I do to protect myself from the fighting.

[detachedangst]

Cracking under the pressure of home and work