[Bill3]

Congratulations misskeena!

[shezbut]

That is great, misskeena! Congratulations!

[skyxblue]

Congulations misskeena!

[Mindful55]

Way to go Misskeena

You are doing great!!

[Bubbles&Buttercup]

Originally Posted by misskeena

Got a 96% on my first mental health nursing theory test (and 100% on the group test which gets us extra credit for a perfect score) today, and I barely studied. The class average was 86%. Although this test focused heavily on schizophrenia, which I have no experience with (besides my patients) it also focused on therapeutic communication and a lot on antipsychotic medications which I once took. Guess it helps to have some first-hand experience--I research every class of med I take.

Mad skills! So impressive.

I'm doing a Cert IV in Mental Health at the moment, going to be spending the next few days/weeks doing assessments! Let's hope I end up with scores like yours!

Thanks everyone.

Originally Posted by Bubbles&Buttercup

Mad skills! So impressive.

I'm doing a Cert IV in Mental Health at the moment, going to be spending the next few days/weeks doing assessments! Let's hope I end up with scores like yours!

Good luck! Let us know how it goes!

[Britneigh]

I can feel myself slipping backwards a bit right now but I'm fighting like hell to not sink. I'm feeling down when it comes to horses...which is generally my source of happiness. My horses are both being terrors lately, I can't even catch the one. Its beyond frustrating and I feel like I've done something wrong training and its my fault. The thought of selling them seems like a legit possibility because I feel like they'd be better off with someone who will do right by them.

[detachedangst]

I have been feeling really good lately, but it's a false good bc I am abusing my gabapentin. Without it I lay on the couch all day watching tv. With it I get a little house cleaning done and I can talk to my kids and husband. Gabapentin abuse causes painful mouth sores and I don't care . I just can't stop bc my kids deserve a good mother and husband needs me to take part in the household. This is the first time in my life I have felt truly addicted to something.

[Bubbles&Buttercup]

Started and finished one of my biggest assessments today. I don't know if it's any good, struggled to concentrate..but I think I'll definitely pass.

Feeling alright tonight, I think the sense of accomplishment is helping.

Oh, I did briefly (for about 1min) see my ex cos he had to come pick something up. Hadn't seen him since we broke up. His hair was longer again which was how I liked it..but he looked weird. I guess it's just cos I don't love him anymore. I'm okay, it was just weird.

[Achy Turtle Armor]

Struggling today. I have a migraine & my back is a little achy. I think it's due to my not being present because I'm thinking about my mom. She died 10 years ago today. So I'm also feeling a bit edgy & easily annoyed. I really would like to leave work, go home, & crawl under the covers in my bed. My dogs would snuggle next to me and I would feel more at ease. Then again, it might bring me further down which is obviously not where I want to be.

I'm at lunch so I think I will put this away and find some quiet place to rest my mind & my eyes in the store. I hope everyone else is having a pleasant day & if not... Be good to yourselves.

Originally Posted by Achy Turtle Armor

Struggling today. I have a migraine & my back is a little achy. I think it's due to my not being present because I'm thinking about my mom. She died 10 years ago today. So I'm also feeling a bit edgy & easily annoyed. I really would like to leave work, go home, & crawl under the covers in my bed. My dogs would snuggle next to me and I would feel more at ease. Then again, it might bring me further down which is obviously not where I want to be.

I'm at lunch so I think I will put this away and find some quiet place to rest my mind & my eyes in the store. I hope everyone else is having a pleasant day & if not... Be good to yourselves.

Please be gentle with yourself today, Achy. Hang in there. If today is uncomfortable, tomorrow will be better !

[Iamalioness]

...but I felt really unimportant. I still feel that way, actually, it's just not as strong?

I felt the same way on Saturday when I was at my in-laws place with our niece and nephew. Everything was about my spouse, and about "Uncle this, Uncle that". I had to call my mum in tears for some affirmation, to feel like I was still loved and important to someone. It's such a sucky feeling to have.

[Britneigh]

I tried so hard to stay together but it didn't work. I'm lacking any motivation to do anything let alone leave my bed. I feel so helpless and useless and just feel like giving up on everything.

[Espresso]

Originally Posted by detachedangst

I have been feeling really good lately, but it's a false good bc I am abusing my gabapentin. Without it I lay on the couch all day watching tv. With it I get a little house cleaning done and I can talk to my kids and husband. Gabapentin abuse causes painful mouth sores and I don't care . I just can't stop bc my kids deserve a good mother and husband needs me to take part in the household. This is the first time in my life I have felt truly addicted to something.

Wow, what a coincidence. (And good luck to you, detachedangst, with the gabapentin issue.) I'm feeling good too, and it's also because of gabapentin (which I am also taking more than prescribed). I hope I'm not addicted yet, and I hope that this good, positive streak will continue even when I'm not taking the gabapentin anymore. So in conclusion, good day, I'm going to start DBT again, and I feel like I can get off my butt and do things. I hope it continues.

[Bubbles&Buttercup]

Just recently I've come to realise (or finally admit to myself) that I still love the man I dated about two years ago.
He broke up with me because he was in a bad place emotionally and working away, and within two weeks he realised his mistake and that he wanted me back.
I couldn't stand the idea of putting myself in the position to be hurt again and had already emotionally detached myself from him in order to cope.
For months and months he was a mess and made it clear he still wanted me back, he quit his job and moved back, he showed me the attention and love and priority I'd always wanted but it all felt scary by then. I wanted it but it was so full on and I'd already tried to move on.
Eventually after nearly a year he started seeing someone, and so did I. My partner was a huge mistake and the opposite of him, probably why I chose him.
Now I'm single again, and the thought of being with someone sickens me, until I think of Josh.
The man that is now living with a girl who I've always believed had strange and sinister motives behind her actions, he's probably happy though.
And now all I want is him and it's breaking me.
If I'd waited just a little longer, if I'd given him a chance once he'd come back everything could be different.
But I'm 4hours away alone in bed, and he's probably laying next to her.

[Achy Turtle Armor]

Out of nowhere I can feel the pull of depression. I feel like I am trying to climb out of a hole in the ground but there's very little to grab onto.

On my walk tonight with my dogs this feeling just started to flow over me. I started crying about nothing except the feeling of sadness and emptiness maybe. Then I got agitated with my dogs sniffing and stopping too much (which is what dogs do, duh) and I yelled at them. I feel like a sh***y mom but I don't think that they were even aware of my mood.

Going to bed and hoping this is gone in the morning.

God is peace is love is calm is salvation is eternity is the truth is victory is all I want

Originally Posted by Achy Turtle Armor

Out of nowhere I can feel the pull of depression. I feel like I am trying to climb out of a hole in the ground but there's very little to grab onto.

On my walk tonight with my dogs this feeling just started to flow over me. I started crying about nothing except the feeling of sadness and emptiness maybe. Then I got agitated with my dogs sniffing and stopping too much (which is what dogs do, duh) and I yelled at them. I feel like a sh***y mom but I don't think that they were even aware of my mood.

Going to bed and hoping this is gone in the morning.

[skyxblue]

I had my first DBT meeting today. This is the fourth time. I always quit. I want to stick with it. Hopefully I can.

Lately, my emotions are all over the place and changing so quickly. I have no idea what is going on.

[Britneigh]

Spent time with my horses yesterday. Didn't ride, just fave them both a 'spa' day. Shedded them out a bit, put their tails up to avoid the mud drying and breaking them and just over all groomed. It was good to just be with them, not doing anything crazy or whatever, just being there no expectations or plans. I think they enjoyed it too. I have to go sign the paperwork for the apartment. I'm starting to get nervous about it all.

[HD7970GHZ]

Met with the DBT clinic and cried for an hour straight. Left with swollen eyes and pulled heart strings. Lots of people made mistakes - and I am happy to say that some are learning from it.

Potential for a lawsuit is imminent.

[Achy Turtle Armor]

Originally Posted by Britneigh

Spent time with my horses yesterday. Didn't ride, just fave them both a 'spa' day. Shedded them out a bit, put their tails up to avoid the mud drying and breaking them and just over all groomed. It was good to just be with them, not doing anything crazy or whatever, just being there no expectations or plans. I think they enjoyed it too. I have to go sign the paperwork for the apartment. I'm starting to get nervous about it all.

Glad you had a nice day with your horses.

Originally Posted by HD7970GHZ

Met with the DBT clinic and cried for an hour straight. Left with swollen eyes and pulled heart strings. Lots of people made mistakes - and I am happy to say that some are learning from it.

Potential for a lawsuit is imminent.

I have to ask the difficult questions, dear HD.

First off, did I read this correctly - do you want to sue them?

If that is the case, I must ask ... given your current state, do you feel like that would make you feel better ? Would it not add a whole mountain of stress and anxiety on you, on top of everything else ?

I understand that you need to point out that what they did was wrong, and you should do that, but a lawsuit, I feel, may do YOU more harm than good. I'm only saying this in your interest.

[HD7970GHZ]

I have to ask the difficult questions, dear HD.

First off, did I read this correctly - do you want to sue them?

If that is the case, I must ask ... given your current state, do you feel like that would make you feel better ? Would it not add a whole mountain of stress and anxiety on you, on top of everything else ?

I understand that you need to point out that what they did was wrong, and you should do that, but a lawsuit, I feel, may do YOU more harm than good. I'm only saying this in your interest.

I am talking about a very delicate situation that occurred that is not a result of my emotional state or paranoia. I have all the proof I need. I was mistreated by the public health care system on more than one occasion and I was the victim of medical malpractice. I had documents written about me with falsified information and MAJOR misinterpretations that led to my being mistreated. Not only that - if what they wrote was not proven false - my life could have been ruined.

Long story - still getting to the bottom of it.

In short: I am not after money - I am after justice and resolve.

Originally Posted by HD7970GHZ

I am talking about a very delicate situation that occurred that is not a result of my emotional state or paranoia. I have all the proof I need. I was mistreated by the public health care system on more than one occasion and I was the victim of medical malpractice. I had documents written about me with falsified information and MAJOR misinterpretations that led to my being mistreated. Not only that - if what they wrote was not proven false - my life could have been ruined.

Long story - still getting to the bottom of it.

In short: I am not after money - I am after justice and resolve.

Yes, I understand all that, HD. I am not doubting you being right about this.

The only thing I'm questioning is ... will the process of going through the lawsuit ... court appearances, paperwork, etc. harm you even more ? You are in a fragile state at the moment, given your recent attempt and/or hospitalization, and I just worry that going through such a tough legal process might put undue stress on you ... that's all.

If you feel confident that you can handle it, all the power to you.