Welcome to the Borderline Personality Disorder

So i came across PC out of coincidence and was relieved to see that there was a forum for BPD. I've been recently diagnosed and have been struggling to find support from people who truly understand the nature of having BPD and i am happy that i have found a place to connect with others who are just trying to cope with the same issues.

Thank-you for the borderline forum I don't understand why people in my hometown mock me all the time They mock my personality and what I say. Any kind of relationship is hard for me. I sometimes feel like there is no hope or giving up. I don't feel safe going to the hospital or mental health because the professionals mock me as well. I would rather be dead than go to the hospital for help. Are people treating me badly because they think I have narcisstic personality disorder or do they just not understand me so well. I don't know what to do I am so confused with life and the world right now.

Welcome and good luck on your journey to wellness.... It is great not to be alone anymore and this group will help every day.... I am still new to this but BPD people are almost like the family I never had...Understanding and encouraging....Emotionally feeding me in positive ways and with good thoughts... I am hopeful to grow into better person through this new road to travel....Keep in touch!!!! Have a relaxing day now

I wonder when I will find the right guy who will love me despite my illness.
I feel so alone
Thanks lynn for your kind message btw.

Hi all, im very new to this, ive known I was borderline for quite some time but recently got my diagnosis..
Im just looking for anyone to relate to..
I hope to have many conversations

Hi there, I'm new to this forum and to BPD. I've known my whole life that something was really off with me, and my childhood did not help anything. I just got my diagnosis and am very happy to have it so I can move forward.

Looking forward to getting to know everyone here...that is, if I remember to keep coming back! I am very forgetful.

Hello, I have been visiting this forum for a few days before I decided to join. I have not been diagnosed yet but certain circumstances led me to the realization that I may have some serious mental health issues. After taking some online tests for Bipolar Disorder, Schizophrenia, and Borderline Personality Disorder my test results came back as having severe BPD. This was just a few weeks ago and I have not been able to see anyone and get a proper diagnosis yet but I will, as even through all of this craziness I do believe that I still have a lot to live for and I want to be as healthy as possible while I do it.

I have been here a bit. This is my first time actually posting. I was diagnosed 25 yrs ago with possible BPD. I was 19 and in the military as a cop. The dr told me you have possible Borderline personality disorder. I said how do I fix that. He and I quote said "Suck it up and deal with your personal problems!". So I being 19, new to the military, being scared of being kicked out cuz I had just tried to kill myself, and not really understanding; I did what I thought was sucking it up and dealing with it!!
My new recent psych says I have Axis I:bipolar disorder, mixed mania and ____ (something else discriptive of episodes), Axis II:rule out borderline personality disorder, Axis III:see list Axis IV:nothing, Axis V:my meds, strengths, and dosages. What does this really mean!??! I know the III, IV, and V. And I think he is saying he thinks I have bipolar with possible BPD. Which is totally different than last psychiatrist. Last one said maniac depression, anxiety, DMDD, and C-PTSD. So I am very confused now!!Is there really that much of a difference or should I be concerned with it??

I must ask my T about any symptoms other than the high dramatic episodes and monastic retreats over and over and over. Like I try to live in the world, but would have liked to, in another age, lived in a monastery and study. Seriously, though, I think the BPD is the tip of the iceberg for adjustment anxiety. I understand my personality, I just basically can't stand people I meet here, but that's another story....."stuck inside of nowhere, seeing no one nice at all.....". I am getting stronger to visit my family in CA again soon. I feel that for the BPD sufferer, there is always a struggle going on and I think it is about authenticity and/or unexpressed artistic ability like writer's block.

Hi Rochelle...that is a lot to cope with and being in the military. Are the new psych doc's prescriptions having positive effects? It seems you are ahead to get this info now so you can face the issues. Good luck. (What is DMDD?)

I would be concerned, not with the differences, but with how these disorders interfere with daily life, happiness and functioning. P.S. I've been with one T for about 6 years now and the journey never ends. I set goals to improve, like relationships, better communication, and social involvement.

I am new to this. I was diagnosed with BiPolar back in 2005. However, reading about BiPolar and BPD, I think I might have BPD. Anyway, I am glad to have found this in my search for answers.

I'm new to this forum and posting in forums all together, I was only diagnosed with BPD a few months ago so everything is kind of up in the air and I feel like I'm floating and I'm stuck and I can't do anything to change my circumstances.but I have many other acronyms GAD, MDD,CPTSD,BPD and panic attacks. I'm having the (imagined)"biggest" problem due to my Bestie who has pretty much dumped me for a new boyfriend (who has been our friend for 12 years) so I hate that she doesn't even check in on me to see if im ok anymore (im a self harm kinda girl ) I love her!!! (honestly), I think about her constantly and the thought that she can't even give me a call so see if I'm OK it's hurting so much because I recently had to get rid of a whole bunch of "toxic" "friends" ohhhhh what open eyes can show you! but now I'm terrified of loosing her or pushing her away! my feelings are crazy and all over the place sorry.

Hello out there. I have been bulimic since 13, and was finally diagnosed with BPD in August. I'm 48 and have been suffering from this all my life, as I keep learning more and more about this condition. It makes so much since now. Its freaky at some times, that's for sure. Has me questioning who my real self is. I'm sure you all can understand
I'm slowly making my way thru DBT and individual therapy...anyone else ?

HI!
Am new to all of this and duno how to post proper haha.
Well, i havent been formally diagnosed with BPD as of yet, but i do feel everything BPD had applies to how i have felt for years. severe moods, anxiety of abandonment, reckless behaviour and the ability to pick words apart and find negative meanings. the worst feeling is the incredible lonliness i feel. i feel i have no friends, though i do have some they are settled and i never see them, i hav a boyfriend but he has friends and is embarrassed to let me see his friends again as i made such a scene last time due to social phobia i seem to have. i could really need some help here xxx

Hello, new here, have BPD, Major depression, and Anxiety D/O. Need support and help from others that have the same disorders. It is not easy to have supportive friends when they do not understand my illness. Any advice for me would help. Thank you

Greetings to all borderlines. I was diagnosed with BPD, major depressive disorder, and general anxiety disorder back in 2010. Slowly but surely I am getting better... one day at a time.

I could really relate to what you posted. I'm new to this site. I went thru DBT for three years and it really changed my whole life. I still have the daily struggles but it's much better than it used to be. Who am I really? I too question who my real self is. If you have any questions about DBT maybe I could help! I love to help others esp peeps who struggle with the same things as me. Apart from bpd I also have bipolar 2, anxiety and ptsd. I'm sorry you've had to struggle with bulimia. That's got to be hard.

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I can relate to yr diagnoses. I too have bpd and I struggle with bipolar 2, anxiety and ptsd. I was also diagnosed in 2010 just like you. I can only live one day at a time. I'm also a member of aa and have been clean since 2013.

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Thanks Doc, I am 58, was first diagnosed with BPD after a hospitalization in 1985. Have never followed through with treatment. Glad to be here! Looking to get some insight and help!

Hey guys, new to this forum. I'm Preslee. I just got diagnosed with BPD last week...So I'm nervous about what it all means.

Hi - how do I get in to the weekly Borderline Personality meetings??

If you talk to your doctor and make the mistake of saying "here's my pathetic life so far" they will look at you and say, well, I think you may have BPD. I had always thought that but still don't know enough about it other than all my issues line up perfectly with the discription of symptoms of BPD.

]April 9th, 2014 3:41pm I came here today because I was diagnosis with BPD 40years ago!!!! And I Thought that if this is a group of people that are diagnose like me, maybe I be around people who mighty understand me, since other people don't!!!!
I have about 6 friends and only 3 keep in touch with me! The other 3 every so often!
Family, I seem to be a mental problem to them, and because I am 66yrs. old they might say something I did not like, and say something to them, and I get mom, that is not want I or we said, and of course it was and I would get back mom, you know you can't remember anything!!!!! Well, when is hurtful or a lie, I can not seem to forget it!!!! BECAUSE ONE THINK I CAN NOT STAND IS LYING!!!! Especially if you are lying on or about me!!!!!
It is mostly my oldest daughter[47yrs.old], but my other children tell me just forget it mom!!!!! I am 66yrs. old and have been lied on or about, or called a liar since I was a teenager!!!! People, family, friends just do not understand why it bothers me so, and I sometimes think they really do not care about me, or they would understand!!!!
I do not lie on/about anyone, so why do it to me!!!!!
As far as my older daughter, all her life she would say "I am just like my daddy and proud of it" and her dad was such a liar even to this day when it is about me! The children want me to talk to their dad[ since I use to claim I was a Christian]which I do not claim that anymore!!!!! but he since the last time I tried to talk to him, all he did was talk lies, and never told the truth nor said he was sorry for those lies!!!! he kept going on and on, so I stuck the phone under a pillow let him talk to himself!!! I would check to see if he was still talking and he was so under the pillow the phone went until when I FINALLY CHECKED AND he WAS GONE!!!! that was 2008!!!
So since I had signed up to this site, months ago I figured maybe I should try to find friends that understood !!!! I go by Polar 2[Eya-Andrea] but polar 2 is ok !

April 12TH, 2014 7:12PM Alaska Time
Hello To Anyone! I am 66yrs. old given a diagnose of BPD since my late 20'S! I wanted to meet people near and around my age, as well as people who may have the same diagnose as me!!!! So the group range is very diverse!!!! But I do not mind making friends with anyone!!!
I am Polar2

hi i am also new to this site and also looking for friends and to get surport and join the forums to be honest finding the set up of this site hard help