[January]

Mama, it is so good to hear from you. I'm so glad you are posting. I hope you are not in the hospital.

Gus, those glittery flowers are so pretty! Thank you. Yes,
I do want tips on Chrome. I need all the help I can get and I know you are a whiz.

Liz, I really look up to you. I feel you always have things to offer us. Besides, even if you say, "Hi!", it's always great to hear from you.

Cake, hon, Liz is right. Put your oxygen mask on first. Take care of you, first. Please take care of you.

I've been in the E.R. again. I wrote my last post to you on Friday and Sat. everything went out of control again. I was in so much pain with my back and legs I could barely move and my colitis went completely out of control again. My gastro Dr.
sent me to the ER. The ER Dr. and the nurse did absolutely nothing. I was there from two in the afternoon until after 4 in the morning and they did nothing. The ER Dr. sent me back to the Gastro Dr. or tried to do it. They can't work me in at the Gastro's office. I can't see him until the last Thurs. of the month. I am surviving on Gatorade, Pepsi and mashed potatoes.

I am trying hard to manage, but I'm so afraid.

[Gus1234U]

oooh Jan~!! i'm soooo sad that you are having to go thru this~!
but be assured, there is nothing to fear.

[BlueEyedMama]

Jan, I hope that you begin to feel better and I am so sorry that the ER did nothing for you. I am not a fan of the ER, rather afraid of it actually. Hang in there Darlin'.

Well, my kidneys moved out of the danger zone so I am not in the hospital and am doing outpatient tx a few times a week for now. Today has been a tough pain day so I have been using a lot of distraction to help get my mind off of it. I see my general Doc on Monday and my lupus Doc next Friday. Not much else is new, staying busy with my writing, my Hubby and my dogs.

Take care all and know that I am sending you healing vibes.

[January]

Belle is sick. I have to call the vet tomorrow and somehow take her to be seen. She won't let me touch her. She is walking in circles all around the living room and tonight she's started walking backwards in small circles. I had no idea that was possible. She's shaking all over. I looked up the symptoms and the articles say it's symptomatic of seizures or some sort of nuero problems. She cries, but not all the time.

The neighbor's gf came to stay with him for the past couple weeks and they fight so loudly and viciously that they scare Belle terribly even though she's on her anti-anxiety meds. She's gotten increasingly more nervous with each fight. I can't control what they do. I know for a fact that great stress can set off seizures in some people who have the disorder. I just don't know if it can be the cause of seizures.

Please pray and/or send healing thoughts for my Belle.

[Gus1234U]

[January]

Mama, I'm so glad you are out of the danger zone. I hope you continue to stay out of it.

I took Belle to the vet. She is displaying neuro problem signs and they said it was triggered by the stress of the arguing neighbors.
They leave the door open and scream profanities at each other at the top of their voices while slamming things. Belle was abused when I got her. She can't take it.

Right now, they put her on Trazadone in addition to her daily Valium and anti-depressant. If she has another spell, I am to take her in right away. There is more, but you get the idea.

My friend told me it's my fault because I am a quiet person and have not exposed Belle to enough, and the litany went on and on... I feel so sick...

[cakeladie]

Hi guys I know I haven't been on or posted in a while. The there has b I n way to much stuff going on.

Jan I hop the doctor can give you son answers

Kira take it one day at a time and I hope you start feeling better soon

Gus your posts always bring a smile to my face.

Has anyone heard from Christina? I am worried about her

I am very sorry if I forgot anyone. I already took my meds and I am getting loopy.

I miss you guys and incare about each and everyon of you. Take care of your self.

Sending positive vibes and hugs to everyone

Cake

[Kiya]

We miss you too, Cake!!! Rooting for you!!! 💖

[Kiya]

Jan, your friend is messed in the head about that comment about Belle! Wowzers!

[lizardlady]

Jan, 'cuse my language, but your friended is effed in the head for what she said about Belle. You provide her a quiet, safe home - WHICH IS WHAT SHE NEEDS!!! Would a ThunderShirt help Belle? Or how about cotton balls in her ears to cut down on the noise of the fights? My heart goes out to the poor baby. There was a time in my life that the sound of other people fighting made me want to crawl under the furniture and hide.

It was a high pain, lots of fibro fog week. A cold front moved through. They are murderous for me. Blessedly, the storm is passed. The weather is beautiful. The weekend is here.

[cakeladie]

I must have missed something I am going back and reread the posts how dare anyone say anything negative about Belle the nerve

[Gus1234U]

soon, and for a brief time, there will be Lilacs~!

[January]

Cake, it is so good to hear from you. Write when you can. Know that you are loved by everyone here.

Liz, I'm sorry you've been in such pain. Maybe since the weather is better, the pain will decrease. I sure hope so.

Kiya and Liz, thank you so much for your support about Belle. It means the world to me. I never thought about putting cotton in Belle's ears. What a great idea. I have a sort of thunder shirt for her. It's a harness, too. I've got to get her used to it. She's been acting healthy today, which makes me so happy. I've hugged her and kissed the top of her head a million times today.

I am going to march over and tell the neighbors to quiet down the next time the fighting starts.

[lizardlady]

Jan, be careful if you go over to the neighbors'. On the other hand, I'll volunteer to come over and go redneck crazy on them if you'd like!

[cakeladie]

oh Liz

[January]

Oh Liz, I would so love to see that!

I stood up for myself twice today. One friend who is dear and near to my heart said something hurtful and cruel and I told him about it. Then the "friend" who criticized me over Belle told me to go find a sense of humor because I lost mine when I got so sick. I informed her that I'd find one when I got well. She got off the phone!

I just felt so rotten today that I was in no mood to be insulted.

Belle did quite well today. Last night we thought we heard a mouse and Belle started shaking but insisted on getting between me and "the enemy". She loves me.

I will be careful about confronting the neighbors. I don't think they would hurt me, but they are very volatile. Of course, no one here has ever heard me raise my voice or say a cross word, so maybe the shock value will help. I don't fit in here at all...

[January]

I forgot to tell you guys that the first three years I lived here, I hid in my bedroom every time the neighbors got into it. I couldn't bear it. They frightened me that much. I didn't flee intentionally. All at once I would startle back to my surroundings and discover I was hiding in the bedroom. If I couldn't take it,
poor little Belle can't.

[Gus1234U]

(i'm so glad to hear some good news about little miss Belle~!) (and you!)

call the police and report them for disturbing the peace,,, it's YOUR peace too, after all...

[cakeladie]

I'm with Gus call the police. I had not lived away from home until i got married. Fast forward a few years and my husband left me and my son. I moved back home for s month because he kicked us out of our apartment.

Anyway the only place I could afford was not in a nice area and like you the neighbors fought or would have their music on very loud. Scared the h&ll out of me. Remember I had never lived on my own much less with a special needs child. The manager said to call if I had any problems and I did at night and he was the one who ended up calling the cops. The people finely got taken to jail at some point and told not to come back but the only place I could afford was that one bedroom place.

I did move back home for a few more months then found another place to live once I got restitution. I think I moved out of my parents home way to fast the first time. The second time we moves out I was able to get a bigger place still not in a good area but oh well

[January]

Thanks for the good advice, Gus. I absolutely adore that peacock! You bring me so much joy with your pics!

Cake, I am so sorry that you went through that. Life is so rough sometimes. Until my Dad died, I always had a place to go to if I needed it. He left my brother and me homes and property b but my Mom frittered it all away. There is nothing left and I am here.

Early in the morning I go to swallow the pill with the camera. A very nice nurse called me today to do the intake. She actually asked me if I was sui. Then she asked me if I was homicidal! This is in regard to swallowing a pill! What has this world become???

Belle is very bored today because I don't feel like doing much. We did go for a walk and she decided to roll on her back in the grass and sunshine. She had a grand time, but I had to clean her up before I could let her back in the apartment. Our horses used to do the same and watching her brought back fond memories.

I'm off to drink magnesium citrate. Wish me luck, I'm going to need it.

[lizardlady]

Jan, how did it go today? I agree about watching the critters roll on their backs. Sometimes I wish I could do it!

A quick hello to everyone else!

[lizardlady]

Poor BG (my dog). I just yelled at him to go lay down. I didn't sleep well last night due to current flare. I hurt all over. My temper is short as a result. He was dancing around begging for a piece of pizza and licking me (I HATE being licked!) and I yelled at him. I know it's not the end of the world, but I feel mean.

[Mindful55]

Liz...it happens. Be kind to yourself 💝

Gus: thank you for the supportive pictures.

Cake. ..one day at a time..

Jan...a camera pill!! The nurse should have known that..

Blueyes..we all need support 🙋

I have not posted in awhile. Depression gets the better of me.
Had an awful flare up (canceled Dr apt). That gets old. Depression slipped in.

My flare up was due, as usual, to emotional pain. The new bldg (converted Mills) has brought on gossip, wandering souls.
I think I make a new friend & boom the bad vides come out.

Lesson learned: acquaintances only 😢

My cat Chuddles passed on today. So very sad. She made
a difference in my life 😻

((((Hugs))))

[January]

Oh Mindful, I am so sorry Chuddles passed today. Gentle hugs to you, my friend.

Liz, I am positive BG totally loves you. Please don't get down on yourself. God love our critters. They love us more than we love ourselves sometimes.

Well, I made it to the hospital this morning, after having gotten slightly lost. I was able to get the pill down me. It has a strobe that goes off every 20 seconds so the camera can take a picture. I had to take the equipment back eight hours later. The nurses told me in graphic detail, not once, but four times what would happen to me if I went near an MRI machine with that pill still inside me. Alfred Hitchcock couldn't have made up anything more bizarre!

The magnesium citrate has made me even more ill than I was. I came home and slept most of the time during the eight hour break and I slept this evening. Belle crawled right in the recliner with me and slept, too.

I will have no results until the 27th of this month.

I had not mentioned it, but my son had promised to come home and see me in July. I have not seen him in seven years and I was so excited. Tonight he told me he's changed his mind. He'd rather go on vacation with his buddy and hopefully meet a girl at the beach. He also let me know I'm just not enough to come back home. He got mad at me because I told him that one day it will be too late to come and see me. I didn't know he could break my heart even more. Thank God for Belle and all of you.

I love you all.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by January

Oh Mindful, I am so sorry Chuddles

passed today. Gentle hugs to you, my friend.

Liz, I am positive BG totally loves you. Please don't get down on yourself. God love our critters. They love us more than we love ourselves sometimes.

Well, I made it to the hospital this morning, after having gotten slightly lost. I was able to get the pill down me. It has a strobe that goes off every 20 seconds so the camera can take a picture. I had to take the equipment back eight hours later. The nurses told me in graphic detail, not once, but four times what would happen to me if I went near an MRI machine with that pill still inside me. Alfred Hitchcock couldn't have made up anything more bizarre!

The magnesium citrate has made me even more ill than I was. I came home and slept most of the time during the eight hour break and I slept this evening. Belle
crawled right in the recliner with me and slept, too.

I will have no results until the 27th of this month.

I had not mentioned it, but my son had promised to come home and see me in July. I have not seen him in seven years and I was so excited. Tonight he told me he's changed his mind. He'd rather go on vacation with his buddy and hopefully meet a girl at the beach. He also let me know I'm just not enough to
come back home. He got mad at me because I told him that one day it will be too late to come and see me. I didn't know he could break my heart even more. Thank God for Belle and all of you.

I love you all.

I'm so sorry about your son Jan

(It breaks my heart.. I know about uncaring families.. your own son )

You're loved here for the lovely person you are

I love you, always