Happy to depressed and back again

I have the problem where today I've had a brilliant day at school. For once I didn't feel too bad, I was able to concentrate... I say I could concentrate, not until English where my teacher talked about a man getting shot and I had the urges to harm. I ended up scratching away at my skin until it started to bleed.
Soon after I was put in a better mood and then while drawing I felt ridiculously down for no reason and ended up drawing really depressing figures. I'm feeling so much better now though...

Does anyone have these sorts of mood changes too? Also do they happen so quickly as they changed in the space of an hour...

Sadly Yes- with in an hour some times, with half a day some times, with in a few days some times.... then I can be ok or depressed for days on end as well and then have rapid mood swings in between--- It is no fun..and everyone is different. I am working with thoughts and emotional regulations with my T right now,...

The scratching yourself till you bleed, should be something to bring up some one- it is a part of you trying to release your emotions, I think In opinion... Maybe it is not, but still that concerns me to read that from you



Right now, my t is trying hard for me to understand Safe Place and Containment.. Which is, when something upsetting comes up- I take a moment back, go to safe place if needed, but contain my emotions for what is going on to get my work done.... I am having issues with containment and keeping it in my "box" or what have you-- but it does sound like a grand idea for coping some days

Do you talk or have access to a school councilor? Or talking to your parents or someone?

I have a school councillor, I see her tomorrow, but I don't want to tell her something as big as the scratching when I won't see her until the 4th of January after tomorrow. If you know what I mean, because after a gap of 3 weeks I'll want to talk about other things and not things from three weeks ago... if that makes sense?

My councillor also helps me with my safe place. It's only worked once for me, and that was because she was guiding me through it. When I try to do it myself it doesn't seem to work at all.
I don't really talk to my parents, I don't trust them at all, and I'm not entirely sure as to why.

EverythingCanWait- Yes I can understand that you may not want to bring up something this big and not able to see your support systems till weeks after--

but ya know, I have found just with me, that some times it does help (it can be a toss of the coin)- With holidays and all I at times don't see T till a 3 week gap, and ya know... The last big break for me and my T, was before the Thanksgiving holiday, I ended up crying at the end of the session, but still some of the things she said helped me to get through the holiday to see her at the beginning of December.

I know also it takes to gather up courage to talk about things, but with in time... i know also (At least with me) putting off with talking about a problem is me avoiding to bring it up-- some times, depending on what it is, with me, should not wait.

I hope you well-

Yeah I am having issues with the whole safe place, my boyfriend helped me out a bit, but how to keep it when in an out of the blue outburst, is my question.... Guess it comes to down to catching my signs before getting to the outburst then right
It is something to work on, As T Told me my last session- it is something hard as well some times, but keep at it

I suppose I could tell her, I mean it gives me something to talk about without feeling I'm wasting her time when I don't have anything to say.
I used to see my councillor every 2 weeks until she asked me to see her every week, the longest I went without seeing her was nearly a month.

Just a quick question... would you class scratching away at my skin a form of self harm? My councillor wasn't too great with the topic of harm last time I mentioned it so I'm a little hesitant.

To me- Yeah I do see scratching as a self harm - weather it be not knowing doing it or knowing doing it- but then I am not any sort of pro on this

I just know when I was younger like a kid to preteen i use to scratch myself, pinch myself, and as a teen i use to cut at times---
then with one of my brothers, when he was under a lot of stress (i do this as well) but would scratch away his skin with out really knowing he was doing it...
I do think with some, it is some sort of release to not in an "appropriate way" to deal with emotions..

but this I do think you should talk to your council about as well- and you two can determine on what it may be the main goal with you and your councilor is to come to a solution and better you For YOU....

Okay, I think I'll tell her. Thank you so much by the way.

That happens to me on occasion- up and down 3-4 times a day. Since I've been on meds it has been better. It's easier to get a handle on life when you're not on a daily rollercoaster

I never got round to telling my counsellor about the scratching, or the fact I had a huge panic attack. She also told me how I won't see her for 4 weeks, I don't think I can stand these ups and downs. :/
You've got meds for these things, I'm still waiting on results to see if I need any sort of medication. It doesn't help knowing that people are talking about me and what may/may not be wrong with me.
I don't know. I was really hyper earlier, so much so that I thought I was a fish and laid half on a chair half off and moving my legs pretending like it was a tail fin. Then straight after I felt really depressed and angry with everyone. I hate these mood swings, they are getting beyond ridiculous.

Yes one day it will get better. One thing that helps me is some form of simple focused task. Yoga is a great equalizer. Also deep breathing techniques. Have you ever tried any of these? Do you like to exercise? Sometimes I'll exercise for 2 hours just to get everything back in alignment. Keep us all posted. We'll hang with you over the holiday.

I agree that the extreme mood swings are the worst. Sometimes it makes your head spin.

I normally just read books and escape the real world. Thank you, it's nice to know people are there for me, the same applies to you too. I'm here if you need me

I escape the world too but it's hard to concentrate to read. movies and music are too loud and noisy. I did make it to yoga class with my daughter. wondering how i'm going to get ready for christmas. lots of folks will be here and i certainly don't feel like ho-ho- ho.

Yes all the time & I think people are starting to notice. One minute I'm fine ...laughing, talking, singing, smiling, etc & the next I just get really sad. This girl noticed once & asked "are you ok? You just got really sad all of a sudden." It sucks because I feel like I can't control my mood swings. I'm more often depressed than feeling upbeat & if I am upbeat something rips that feeling to shreds.