[iamspecial]

I'm really depressed these days and i can't seem to shift it at all, no matter what i do or say, nothing seems to work anymore. It's like life really hates me and wants me to give up and just let whatever is going to happen to let it whether it kills me or not.

People say look deep down in your heart and what does it tell you it wants....the reply i give them they hate but they asked and i'm pretty sure they would want me to tell them the truth and not lie to them but by their responce its like i should just lie to them. Be better for everyone.

What it the point in feeling things if they are just so hurtful that you just don't want to be around anymore and feel like there is no one who can help and feeling alone....others even think i push them away b/c of how i say things....how do i do that?!?! I really don't understand....whats changed?!?!?!

YES i feel ignored, YES i feel like no one cares, YES i feel worthless, YES i feel like i'm not loved, YES i feel like i let everyone down, YES i feel like my problems are nothing compared to others, YES i feel depressed, YES i feel alone and YES i feel like people would be better off without me in their lives!!

UGH i just really don't know anymore and who cares right??

[Lexi232]

I care....

If these people can't handle you at your worst, they sure as hell don't deserve you at your best! I don't like those people who expect your best all the time, but never being there for your worst... in fact they flee! ...
....
I'm sorry... I"m a bit edgy today... but i mean what i said in a good way...
you are special.. you are special to me, and too many others on here. There's many times you've made me smile and laugh when i didn't think I could. And your NOT worthless in my eyes..

[shezbut]

I care, iamspecial.

I know that this isn't about me ~ just had to remind you that I'm just one of many who honestly does care about you!

Please don't give up, iamspecial. Do call a helpline to get you through the suicidal ideation and onto finding some help to make it through this misery you find yourself in. You do deserve to live a life free from misery and worthlessness ~ absolutely!

[jollybutdepressed]

[MISERABLE ME]

Originally Posted by iamspecial

I'm really depressed these days and i can't seem to shift it at all, no matter what i do or say, nothing seems to work anymore. It's like life really hates me and wants me to give up and just let whatever is going to happen to let it whether it kills me or not.

People say look deep down in your heart and what does it tell you it wants....the reply i give them they hate but they asked and i'm pretty sure they would want me to tell them the truth and not lie to them but by their responce its like i should just lie to them. Be better for everyone.

What it the point in feeling things if they are just so hurtful that you just don't want to be around anymore and feel like there is no one who can help and feeling alone....others even think i push them away b/c of how i say things....how do i do that?!?! I really don't understand....whats changed?!?!?!

YES i feel ignored, YES i feel like no one cares, YES i feel worthless, YES i feel like i'm not loved, YES i feel like i let everyone down, YES i feel like my problems are nothing compared to others, YES i feel depressed, YES i feel alone and YES i feel like people would be better off without me in their lives!!

UGH i just really don't know anymore and who cares right??

I care very much about you and how you feel Iam, I feel the same way that you do if you cannot handle the truth then why do people ask. And everyone tells me I push them away also because of what I say or how I say them and I may do that but it is a protective mechanism for me this is one reason I do it hun and I can tell you this if it had not been for you and nin and a few others on here well I will leave it at that. Just wanted to let you know I am always here for you no matter what and to let you know you are not alone hun many Hugz.

[canuhearme]

Hello Iamspecial,My goodness I truely thought wow I must have a twin for the day I would have written the samething and was wondering could you or someone from this group help me understand how all of this work? I took that quiz thing and gosh I was more frustrated than when I started but you know what it was enough distraction from what I was originally feeling and that is ok.
So before I get to distracted I have been treated for a few years Dx ADHD and I know at times I get sincerly depressed I also know that sometimes it is situational and how I hear things and I am very sensitive that way but does anyone have any insight on Adult ADHD and depression?
Thanks bunches for your time I am stuggling abit wrose than I have in the past and am a bit nervous about it.
Thanks again!

[SunReach]

My dear dear special. I don't need to tell you how much I care...I am certain you know that I do, even though you feel like no one cares..And I think that's what confuses some people, or what people can't handle sometimes, the contradiction of perhaps knowing one thing but feeling another. (But to me this is perfectly possible.) Maybe they just think they should be able to say something and instantly make everything better. And because this doesn't happen, they don't know what to do or expect. But you are not responsible for how they handle that.
I have never felt like you push me away. I am right here, I love you and I care about you. I am truly grateful you're my friend special

((((((((iamspecial))))))))

I care alot about you, I love playing in the games section with you too I often feel alone too, If ever you want to PM me feel free to do so, I will always listen

[likewater]

(((Iamspecial))) giving up is never an option. We all love you exactly as you are. Many of us have felt like you do and know it will pass. I' m so sorry for your pain. Please feel how much you are loved.

[BLG939902]

I feel the exact same way. Everything you said, I can absollutely relate to. At first I thought I was dumb for thinking that my problems were even problems at all but you have helped me to realize that I'm not alone. You're not alone either. And if we are all here for each other then we can all have hope that it gets better.

[Caretaker Leo]

Special, you know I care.

Let's see if we can find a way to turn your thinking around a little. Understand that these are words from a mom... and not intended to negate your feelings.
i feel ignored- Are you really ignored, or are you ignoring ideas others give to you to help you make your life better?

i feel like no one cares - How many friends do you have here and on FB and IRL? They all care.

i feel worthless - Every one of us has been blessed with something of great worth in our lives. Maybe we don't know what it is yet, but it is there. God doesn't make junk.

i feel like i'm not loved - Are you really not loved, or are you closing your eyes and heart to the love others extend to you?

i feel like i let everyone down- "Everyone" ? Or just some people? Or really, mostly yourself?

i feel like my problems are nothing compared to others- Normal. Usually that can make me feel better, knowing someone else is struggling more.

i feel depressed- So do I - more often than I want. But when I feel that way, I force myself to take some action to help me feel a little better.

i feel alone - We are actually all alone. Born that way. Learn how to enjoy the pleasure of being alone to do creative things - whatever makes you feel good!

i feel like people would be better off without me in their lives!!- Gee, have you really asked all those people whether that would be true? If you have never watched "It's a Wonderful Life" - please do!

[gma45]

iamspecial....and don't you forget you are! We all get to feeling down sometimes. Your feelings are just as important as any ones! I hope you are having a good day today. It's ok to feel ok!

[needfixing]

i validate you.
relying on others to uplift you is a hit or miss.
i like to write my emotions down, write the date too, so i can see the progress i am having.
hope this helps you as an outlet.

[SunAngel]

Spec, you had better know that I care about you and your feelings.

Send me a pm if you would like to talk.

((((BIG SQUSIHY HUGS))))

[Susan Quinn]

What a good place to be: at the end of yourself. That brings back such good memories for me when I was suicidal but while on my knees begging God for help, I got an answer I didn't expect. Give up on the old, and bring in the new.

Yes, give up what doesn't serve you well. Instead of tying a knot and hanging on, grease that sucker and slip off. Come to the end of yourself as you've been trained to be, and find your autonomy--your voice of authentic self. This is what processing your journey really means and it can be a HOOT if you begin where you are and listen to the self still in you that has been gathering dust in the corner. Blow the dust off and meet that person. "She" ALWAYS awaits.

The following statement can be read every day of your life and still be able to teach:

"Listening is a magnetic and strange thing, a creative force. The friends who listen to us are the ones we move toward. When we are listened to, it creates us, makes us unfold and expand." Karl Menninger (psychiatrist)

To begin the process, listen to YOU. When you are able to hear YOU, you will "unfold" and be able to present your authentic self to others. Two sincere hearts coming together have ears that can hear.

We are ALL hearing impaired to some degree. If you journey through life with "heart-ears," you will be guided to many and exciting "bread crumbs" on the path way to healing. Learn to discern who is right for you in the moment and who is not; allow others to do the same to you, for even rejection can be a healthy part of life if done respectfully. Learn to believe that you will not be the perfect fit for someone else needs nor will someone else necessarily be the right fit for you...allow yourself to hear yourself and then others and connect with those who value the treasures of the heart as you decide what those are.

I am soooo excited to hear what 2012 has in store for you should you want to see your life from this perspective. Take back your power, which is rightfully yours as a unique, individual person who is NOT a cookie cutter version as dictated by the masses! Susan Quinn

[LeCigareVolant]

You are not alone, you sound just like me, and there's tons of people like us everywhere! I could give advice like "do something you enjoy doing, read a book, go for a walk, try to meditate" but all that is crap that doesn't really work. lol All I can say is "wait it out" or something that I have tried is sometimes I tell my brain/mind/logic to eff off and that despite what they tell me to feel I will be happy coz it's my prerogative. Good luck!

[sammy2629]

I care and i know just how u feel but keep your head up there will be better day's