[heidu]

I don't know you Ferfa but I have read your posts from before. I sense so much negativity from you, it saddens me.
I have to COMPLETELY disagree with your tagline for I believe that not trying is the only failure. If you are living your life by what your tagline says then you don't have a chance. Do you want your life to be hell or do you want it to get better. I don't feel that you do and I wonder why not. Your life is what YOU make of it. YOU have all the choices and YOU decide how to react to things.
I am sorry if maybe this isn't what you want to hear but hearing that your gonna kill yourself in 30 days isn't what I wanted to hear either.
Heidu

Every path to a new understanding begins in confusion- Mason Cooley

[LadyDragus]

oh, man I was truly hoping when you came back to us, you would feel so much better..
Please do not try to kill yourself again.
And everyone is a christian as long as they belive in god, and ask him for forgivness for what ever sin's you make/do to yourlsef or others..
You have to learn to love yourslef, not others first, before you can even begin to get better.. I had to learn this the hard way.. When I told someone I loved them it all blew up in my face. Now I understand others want friendship, but some do not want anymore.
We females.. Can be so hard to read.. for this I know since I am a female .... Try to understand your friend.. Be cautios and be slow, with her.. Tell her you still want to be freinds, and if she is not ready for the "closeness" you want, let her take her time. telling someone you love them can be a bullet they were not excpeting, sometimes they need some time re-adjusting to you.. So they can re-think why you are friends, and if it could be more ??

<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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[nowheretorun]

Ferfa,

Hey man... don't off yourself over one girl... give life a chance, huh?

I understand how it seems like the end of the world... but it isn't..... I know you have a lot more going on too... break it down into little pieces, prioritize... you can do it.

"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but rising every time we fall." Confucius

[Rapunzel]

Ian, I have not in any way forgotten you. What can I do to help you?

As I have mentioned before, I have seasonal affective disorder also, so I know that fall and winter are worse than the rest of the year. I was worried that you were going to Australia because is it winter there. Please try to make sure you get up in the morning and get some sunshine and some exercise. That's something you can do that will help and doesn't cost anything.

Tell me what you think a Christian is if you don't think you are one? If you would rather not have that discussion on a public forum, you know how to send me a PM or you can e-mail me. wendy@ddiamond.net

Take care of yourself, please.
-Wendy

<font color=blue>Life is filled with tragedy; if you let it overwhelm you, you cannot enjoy life's innocent pleasures. -Robert Heinlein</font color=blue>

{{{{{{{{{{{{{Ian}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

I did not forget you either, my friend. I'm glad you're back and that you're here on the boards.

Geez you sound like me with the deadline. DON'T KILL YOURSELF OVER A GIRL, please. Right now you are at the bottom, but you CAN go up.......if you choose to. Stay here, talk to us, and we'll help you as much as possible. You are not alone, please don't think that you are.

As far as money, I can relate. Since surgery we are beyond poor........but I'm still here. There are alternatives.

Mary Alice

[Fuzzybear]

I haven't forgotten you. I am glad you are still here and talking, that makes me think you haven't given up. Remember you are not alone ...

{{{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}}}

[LMo]

Welcome back Ian - glad to see you're still around.

Sorry you feel like crap. Not a good feeling, but I'm sure that intellectually, you recognize that you have some positive options. Let me know if you'd like me to reinforce them for you.

But on another note:
Tell us about your trip to Australia! What were the best parts about it? Want to share any stories with us? I just came back from Brazil and Mexico and still have the travel bug (but not Montezuma's Revenge, fortunately).

[Peanut61]

I'm glad to see you back, Ian!! Not happy about your deadline though... We'll talk more, OK? Your friend, Peanut

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