i really dont think i can take much more of anything at the moment, my minds at a really bad place but i cant seem to change it. all the small things are just going together and making one big problem for me and i dont know who to tell or what to tell or anything, and im sitting in the middle of my floor crying my eyes out, and i decided to go here to write before i do something stupid like SI.
im guessing whats making me feel so down is hormones or something saying as im a teenager, and i have tests starting on the 7th that are part of my main school tests, my friend's mum caught her trying to jump out her 2nd story window the other week, im all alone recently because of all the school work i have to do and i dont have time to stop for 10 minutes, which is just as well, because then i start to think and it puts me into situations like this were i really cant handle anything anymore
and my friend texting me at the moment isnt helping anything either, because she is telling me how much of a wonderfull day she has had hanging out at the cinema with everyone, (the fact no one even bothered to invite me made me feel even more crap) and i cant tell her to go away because she will know something is up and i dont know how much i can trust her anymore,
i dont feel i can trust anyone.
im just to stressed out and its getting to much and i dont know what to do and im worried about what i could do if thing get worse and i just want to scream so loud.

[shezbut]

(((niamhh504)))

Well, if you feel that you cannot handle any more stress ~ and you feel overwhelmed by things that have happened lately, stay present in the current moment. You can make it through the night. Put on your pajamas, think about each action that you do. When your mind travels (like it does normally), push it right back into that moment again. And again, and again.

Writing to your friend might also help relieve you of the pain that you feel. Helping her just might help you get through your emotions. Or, simply writing in a journal can be very helpful ~ to let those feelings out. Rather than puting yourself down for having strong emotions, just let them come out free to express. You can write all of those thoughts & emotions out, even if they don't make sense at that moment. That can happen in real emotional times. Just let it out. That can help a lot.

People do care ~ best wishes to you!

i tried to do that, i really tried, and it was ok then during the day when im doing things, but when i go to bed i try to sleep and i cant, and im left in the dark thinking about everything and last night i didnt get to sleep untill about 4:30am and i cant help thinking then because there is nothing else to ocupy my mind, and thats when i feel at my worst. even now, its 12:15 am and im sitting fully dresses on my laptop, wide awake, with nothing to do, trying to stop myself thinking by going on really random websites.
i used to write stories in notebooks that i keep in my room, but i cant even seeem to concentrate on them anymore. when i go to write i cant anymore and when i do, my stories are not as good, which get me more down, so now my mind refuses too come up with stories because i dont want to disappoint myself. when i couldnt write i would read a book, but i cant concentrate on the words anymore. would listening to music when trying to sleep help, could it block out the thoughts till i get to sleep?

i know im taking up peoples time and im sorry, but im still crying and i was about to si only i got a text and it stopped me but i really want out. Everything would be better, my family would be upset but they would get over it, nothing would be worse that i can think of. I dont know why im still here. Ive looked and nobody actualy gets me, and if they do,they dont care.

I care, niamhh. I care.

well no offence but if you care you must be one of the only ones, because my closest friend doesnt even seem to care.

And what do ya know, im still here, meaning part of me dont want to go. Yay. Goodpoint. Im probly just goen to regrett writting this for anyone to see in the morning! Awesome thats one thing i can look forward to

[Fuzzybear]

Keep on posting so we know how you are doing.

[lonegael]

Hon, don't apoolgize for posting. If we didn't want to hearit, we wouldn't be here, would we? So you aren't responsible for how we feel, hon, it's all in our park. Sometimes what I try when I am having problems sleeping is to try a progressive relaxation. You tensee all the muscles in your body as you're lying in bed and then, starting with the tips of your toes, start relaxing the muscles. DO NOT HURRY THIS. Let it take a long time, and once you are done with your toes, progress to your feet from the balls to the heels, when you are done with that, move to your lower legs. Continue in this manner with your whole body, and if you can keep focused, with any luck you'll be asleep before you get through your whole body. Huggs! Oh, yeah, your not taking my time, hon, I'm giving it, so enjoy:-)

thank you im feeling brighter today, ive just spent half an hour telling my dream that i had last night to my friend because it was really random! im about to go eat some lunch which is something i havent done in a while, and then im going to work on one of my stories because i can always find a way to improve. Im going to try the advise lonegael gave me for getting to sleep because i feel that if i sort my sleeping everything else will follow! And i dont know why but, i dont regret posting. Usualy i feel silly for doing it but i dont this time. I even feel like adding a smily face :-)

[shezbut]

I am happy to hear that you're feeling a little better today That's great!

When I have trouble falling asleep, I listen to soft classical music. I have a hard time reading nowadays (which used to be a wonderful relief for me) and have recently turned to word search puzzles. Pretty simple tasks, but there are some challenges to prevent boredom. It often works to clear my mind.

No computer in the bedroom for me ~ otherwise, I'd sit up typing all night! No television either. My room contains a notebook to write in, my puzzle book, and CD player. The music I play must be without words and not too complex, or I become way too distracted to sleep.

Another tip, keep it dark in your bedroom when you go to bed. If your clock shines brightly, perhaps you can sit it behind the curtain? Or, if a clock clicks loudly, look for a silent clock to use.

Best wishes and hugs to you!

i usually turn off my laptop at around 2, but i make sure my phone is near so that when i feel like i did last night i can come here instead. and i cant remember the last time i turned on the tv in my room... so i cant say it keeps me awake. and i dot have an alarm clock because my phone does that for me. it hasnt failed me yet.

i might go to the music shop and buy a relaxation cd, and see how that works for me...
i dont know why but its always after 8pm that i start feeling down. i feel down again tonight, and i dont even know why this time. i havent really been thinking about everything, ive been concentrating on the moment. i guess my mind just doesnt like evening lol. im not as down as i was last night so thats ok, im just feeling empty apart from negitiveness every now and again...

[lonegael]

Glad to hear that you are feeling better. And yes, please keep in touch and let us know how you are, OK? HUggs