[carrie-19]

i feel so detached right now,so alone.i know i have people who care about me,but still this is such a lonely place.

people assume depression is just being sad.
they dont understand what it really is. everything takes a concious effort with what feels like the weight of the world on my shoulders. ive had a headache for weeks,im constantly tired,paranoid that every laugh is at my expense.
i am the cause of every problem.

i wish i could reach out to people so i wouldnt feel like im drowning all the time

[online user]

So sorry to hear you are having a rough time right now. Try to do something nice for yourself. Hugs to you!

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by carrie-19

i am the cause of every problem.

That feeling brings me some of my darkest moments.

Originally Posted by carrie-19

i wish i could reach out to people so i wouldnt feel like im drowning all the time

Here's wishing someone will reach out to you.

[carrie-19]

Originally Posted by Rohag

That feeling brings me some of my darkest moments.

Here's wishing someone will reach out to you.

went to see psychiatrist for first time today. cannot explain how nervous i was (i was on the verge of getting sick/fainting in the waiting room). and i was pleasently surprised. he might of been one of the nicest people ive met. very understanding,very supportive. even though we talked only briefly so he could prescribe me meds, i felt somewhat relieved afterwards

[charlie13]

I feel for you and it's so nice to hear how someone with depression can relate to how I feel.. It's so hard to explain how we feel to anyone because I find it something u have to have experienced in order to understand how we feel. I battle with this every day and I feel EXACTLY how u feel...Have u read about transference yet?? It will help u!!

[mudgey]

I'm with you on this, but what if it is more than just meds? Who do you talk to or get help? I can't seem to find or afford anyone who really seems to understand and not just feed me some line of BS. I still think I need help with the meds. Cocktail not quite right yet. I'm not sure if changing some of the meds can be making the lonely detached feeling. Just know you aren't drowning alone. If that means anything at all.

[online user]

Glad your psychiatrist was encouraging and helpful in your brief visit, Carrie! Your post sounds so much brighter and more hopeful! I can relate to the pre-visit anxiety you felt. When we are so sad, so much hangs on being able to get some help!

Mudgey, have you tried Burns, "Feeling Good Handbook?" It was recommended to me by a psychiatrist I saw in the hospital. Gives you exercises you can work through on your own to help yourself feel better. Also a good resource for understanding some of our "issues".

Hope we all have a better tomorrow!

Glad the psychiatrist exceeded your expectations, Carrie.

[puddles120710]

Before I saw my psychiatrist for the first time, I was exactly where you are. I thought the whole world was laughing at and judging me. I believed that I could not do anything right and offended everyone. I felt that I just wanted to disapear. They told me it was this beast called depression. Trust me, if you stay on your medications, work with a counselor, and work the problem you will see results over time. It is not going to be perfect, a quick fix, or a complete cure. There will probably be down days where you feel like giving up. You will need to fight it everyday. Over time it will get better. I am glad to hear you were able to get some relief with you psychiatrist. Hang in there we are here for you. Good luck and stay true to yourself.

[carrie-19]

charlie13,never heard of that before but as soon as i saw your post i googled it.really interesting stuff im going to try and keep in mind thanks

mudgey i think that its meant to be more than just meds. i was reading about treatments of depression today and though the description of what meds do is perfect they "take the edge of the depression" not completely cure it. i think youre meant to continue with therapy and other things to get to the root of the problems etc.
todays been kind of difficult,feeling really really spaced out and away from the whole world.focusing to type this is kind of difficult so apologies for any typos etc
thanks for all the support