Daily Check In - Ups and Downs

Feeling really good. Hope you all have a fabulous weekend.

HugZ
Nams

Good day for me as I sent my mother some documents she needs to complete her tax. I just got my tax papers now and it seems I'll be getting a refund as well though I only worked temporary last year. I got two requests now for my commission as well. Yes!

Bad day is that my grandma in the Philippines is still in the hospital and is now under life support. She isn't waking up yet as my aunt said.

Snow ! Not much, but it sure is pretty .

Has had a really really really GOOD WEEKEND!!! I'm super tired but wouldn't change it for the world...lol

Had a fabulous weekend with family that I rarely see due to distance issues. Now I get to spend the whole week with my kiddies home for March Break........Yay me I am very lucky.
Hope you all have a great day and week
Nams

Had an awesome day !!!

Good day: Starting to work on the two commissions that I got.

Bad: Rain+snow NOO! And more on my Grandma issue, mom wants to go home in the Philippines badly so she tries to borrow money from our relatives in LA but I got bad feeling that we're not that much close to them. ._.

Can't stop thinking & I'm very very sad.

I just had the worst weekend in years

I am sliding down fast...i'm doomed

Feeling rather anxious right now. I went home for the weekend and saw my parents, my brother and sister-in-law. It was nice seeing everyone again as I don't get to see them that often because I live several hours away. Overall the visit was pretty good. There was only a short period where my parents bugged me about finances and my mental health issues. It drives me crazy when my parents go off on financial stuff because I have never had to ask them for money, so why does it matter to them. I wish they would just let it be. This morning my husband and I went to the doctor. We have been trying for about a year and a half to get pregnant with no luck. We finally decided we were going to go get tested. I am excited, nervous, and hopeful for the journey we are headed on. The doctor was really nice and told us what tests to expect and when. I have this morning off since I was oncall last week. I should have taken the whole day off because I really don't want to go to work. Oh well, at least its only for the afternoon.

Very good day yesterday. The hubby and I took our dog for a walk in the woodsie area of the park. He loved being able to smell everything and pee on almost everything.

It was warm. I love warm.

very worried about everything...

today, i decided to quit smoking after 4 months, i must quit before it gets addictive tho. although it gave me a little self-confidence boost im scared i wouldn't quit it when it's too late

Bad start at this Monday, still mourning over the loss of our grandma.

Record High Temps. Here.

(((agma)))
lol @ Beholden pee on everything thanks for the giggle.
(((feary)))
(((recently))) WD on your decision to quit, step 1 complete....YAY
(((konrei))) ss about your Grandma...sending prayers.

Was on an upswing for almost 2 weeks, longest yet....can feel myself slipping, but now thanks to the tracking tools etc & quite a few very special people on here, at least I am aware of it now instead of just tripping, falling, thump and then wondering how the hell I ended up in the pit......I have a few branches to grab to slow the tumble.

Hugz
Nams

Up today! I took my flatmate's dogs for an hour long walk and I was actually there and felt good! For the first time since last summer! I think my meds are finally starting to kick in. Hope is strong with this one.

Cool !

Thanks for the hugs and comfort everyone.

Good: Starting my props for the upcoming anime cosplay.on April
Bad: Snow+hailstorm+sunny = headache and on a rush to finish the said above. Lacking sleep.

Horrible day and even worse evening. Feeling extremely depressed and anxious right now and having sui thoughts. I don't know how I am going to make it through the rest of this week

Being on the computer too long has given me enough physical soreness (neck and upper back) that it trumps all my psychic angst. Today they shut off my phones, internet, and TV service. Non-payment. Just so depressed, that, 2 months ago, I stopped even going through the mail. Well - got a wake-up call. Everything is back on now. I just paid 'em off using April's rent. But it will work out. I need to do the paperwork to get on subsidized housing. It feels like trudging through thick mud waste-deep. I just abandoned being responsible for stuff, and who do I think I am. I do nothing. Once upon a time I was a person who wouldn't recognize this person that I now am.

I'll get over it. Hung up my bird-feeders today. That was something

konrei, sounds like so much fun, always wanted to go to one of those conference things just to see all the creative costumes, characters etc have fun for me.

I've been really good for the past several days, not to mention suddenly having the energy of a six-year-old.
I'm just afraid of what will happen if it crashes. 0___0;

Take a breath. Remember you have a place to vent. We're here for you if only in spirit.

The bird-feeders sounds like you're slowly moving in a positive direction. Good luck.