Daily Check In - Ups and Downs

Staying indoors as always. Joined this site out of boredom. Made jello shots. Enjoying the fact that I actually vacuumed the floor for the first time in 3 weeks. Good for me.

horrible day horrible life

I'm still feeling good. Getting stuff done. Hooray.

I thought my meds were starting to work because I was having a few better weeks. But I've been slipping back into the abyss for the last two weeks. Next pdoc appointment (and the possibility of upping the meds) is in another two weeks from now. Urgh.

Furthermore, I still haven't got enough courage to pick up the phone & get into psychotherapy.

Had to let it out, sorry.

Another crappy day. I am so tired of being depressed. I think I am going to go for a walk with my H when he gets home and see if that helps my mood at all.

Still depressed, still in dark space

Tiring day, multitasking everything.

Going to iron and wash the kitchen floor. This Up-Mood I'm in is lasting longer than any such good interval I've had in a good long time. I hope this is the start of a better life for me.

Rose so good to hear you are on a solid up....I have been for over a mth now and feel better about it every day. Here's to us both on our way to better things.
Hugz
Nams

Well, my mood is still generally up.... However, I'm on spring break (I'm a teacher) and have had this cold now over a week and still don't have the energy to do much... Glass is half full thought - at least I have time off to recover and get healthy. The half empty thought - I'd really like to get out and have some fun with my kids while we all have time off. Guess I'm feeling both at the same time...

Just.....here....kind of....not here.

Today I thought about jumping out a 17th floor window. So I would say, not a good day.

Seing new physician today. hoping to get my meds refilled. A little anxious as i am kind of afraid they will hospitalize me because i have destablized so much in last few months. Hopefully, they will let meds work first. Also, nervous as i have job interview today.

Still just,........ here. In corporeal form......just being. Will try to explain to T today. Nothingness, not sad, depressed, pissed, contented...can't find a word/adjective. Not tired but numb, numb to typing, reading, watching DVD's all my usual things to help, it's not that I can't or don't care, just , seems too far away. Thats the best way to say it. Everything is far away.

Woke up in a horrible mood but am doing a little better now. Still having strong sui thoughts. I talked to T a lot about my sui thoughts yesterday, but I'm not sure it helped. I just want my meds to start working.

On March 8, of this year, my friend was murdered. It hit home because she was like a sister to me! I miss her so much because she helped me escape a violent abusive husband back in 2008.Her boyfriend was always beating her up and on March 8, he finally shot her to death.

I'm still doing good. Sore muscles from yesterday's housework. Less intense activity planned for today. Goals: Clean and tidy kitchen cabinets. Possibly - do end of laundry.

Good mood today, I got my stuffs for my cosplay done. Just house chores are all I need to finish.

I have been having a really good week but on a side note.

I was thinking today and was thinking about getting married. I laughed because me married is a joke. Who the heck would want this.

Good week but my brain is thinking about unhappy topics.

i had a great day at office!!! Planning to have a great blast at this coming weekend!!!

(((((willowknighthawk201))))) SoSo Sorry to hear about your friend.

Huge hugz being sent.
Namaste

I'm real tired, but not depressed.

Can you say "Rapid Cycling " boys and girls ? I knew you could.

Tired of it all. All of it.

i wrote everything in all caps and it didn't turn out that way. Grrr.