Why can't I snap out of this?

I just can't get moving. I NEED to get to work, but all I can see myself doing is staying on PC and playing computer games..... all........day........long if I let myself, and end up feeling worse in the process.

Can you make youself a list of things to try to achieeve in one day? Don't be like me and make the list impossible! But you know, things like washing up, putting a load of laundry, maybe going for a walk? I find the act of listing can help. The other thing I have done is make the thing I want to do into a reward - eg, "I will clean the kitchen for half an hour and then let myself play the computer for half an hour."

It's not easy - baby steps!

I need to get working and earn money, and I just can't bring myself to do it. I've gotten behind this week because of server problems at the main office, and now I have more work to make up than I can possibly do in a day, so I don't want to do any of it.

So, back to the baby steps?

Yes, OK, you can't make it up in a day. But what steps need to be taken - and which of those CAN you do in a day? Or even in an hour? Or, to break it down still further, what could you do taht woud be a baby step in the next 10 minutes?

I sure understand that inertia problem.

OK, I put on my favorite fuzzy socks and long, long cardigan sweater, and I have the space heater on just high enough to be warm but not hot, so at least I'm comfortable and not shivery now.

I need some coffee to give me a kick start.

I'm getting long reports by easy doctors so I don't have to struggle with understanding them, just with staying focused enough to get through them.

I have a goal, but my forward progress took a hit on Tuesday (or was it Monday, anyway...) and I haven't been able to get back on track. I'm taking my two kids and two of their friends to an indoor water park in three weeks, and the more, extra work I do, the more mad money we'll get to spend. So it's not like I don't have incentive. Why, oh why, did I request to switch from Lexapro when it was doing a good job? That's what I get for trying to save money.

'nother baby step. I called my ex to see if he could come get our daughter today to save me losing another hour or so of work time. I offered to pick her up on Sunday instead of him driving her back over. He agreed to it.

Coffee's brewing as I type.

Oh gosh, I have been there soooo many times. Since I had to go to an office to work, many is the time I called in sick. And then racked up the reputation of calling out a lot.

I think Caroline has it nailed with baby steps. Sounds like you're on the path now...yeaaaa!!!!

(*Aza steps on her soap box* - people who have never dealt with mental illness have NO idea what it feels like. *Aza gets off soap box and slides it to the side*

LOL. I needed that giggle. Thanks Aza.

Anyone have a bulldozer they can loan me? I want to clear out this mess and start fresh. If I was eBay seller savvy, I could make some of that extra cash that way instead of donating it all to Goodwill.

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This is a baby step in more ways than one. It's almost like... a *gasp* partnership. I'm glad for you

Oh ha ha.

His girlfriend's probably shut him out. He's always nice to me when he's having woman problems.

The baby steps are the way to go. Otherwise you'll feel overwhelmed. I get into the habit of making myself these pie-in-the-sky lists, and it does nothing but frustrate me.

wi fighter,

I don't think depression is something you can "snap out of."

I think it is something that we learn to live with, and cope with.

I think you should go a bit easier on yourself, if you write too long a list of things to do, you end up not being able to do any of it. I have had days like that!

Perhaps make a priority list, but make sure that YOU are at the top of it!

The other thing I'd like to say is, how about praising yourself for what You do achieve.

I don't want to sound like I'm preaching ! I have major problems too.

Thinking of you.

Of course you can't "snap out of" depression! I'm sorry you have fallen prey to society's use of the term. You can go back onto the Lexapro... isn't it worth feeling better? Hope you can manage till then... TC

Thanks Sky. I just feel that because I know what's causing me to have a setback that I should at least be able to talk myself out of it.

I'm not sad or anything, just can't get it in gear. Kind of like turning the key in a car with a dead battery and hoping it will eventually start. Guess I need to recharge, huh?

The office is just going to have to deal with me not putting in a stellar day numbers wise today.

God, Wi_fighter. You sound so much like me. Can't get in gear. That's how I feel, too. Argh.

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Arrrrrgggghhhhh....those numbers. While I'm chasing Z's those vicious numbers are chasing me!!

That's all I hear at work - "Gotta get those numbers up" then when they're up in one area, they're not high enough in another. Kind of like the plate juggler.

I wish I knew how to ebay as well...I'm getting rid of a lot of good stuff before I move to a smaller apartment. There's always the Goodwill (or in my case the thrift shop that raises money for Hospice) but some things I really wish I knew someone who could use them.

What's frustrating is that I have the freedom to do as much work as I need to, to be financially stable, and yet I just haven't had the get up and go to do more than the bare minimum for quite a while.

Aza, I just roll my eyes and go on with my day when they like to pull the "if we don't get the backlog caught up, so and so is going to pull their account." Yeah, yeah, sure. You've been saying that since I started over 4 years ago, and the one time they actually did leave 2 years ago, they came back with their tails between their legs a month later because the other service wasn't up to their quality standards (which are hard to meet because most of their doctors are totally unintelligible).

Well, things seem to be looking up. Doc upped my meds by 10 mg. Said 20 mg was tooooo low. No duh.

good luck!!! xoxoxo pat