[Miss Melancholy]

Better than yesterday, thank god.

[regretful]

The sadness is creeping in; I'm doing all that I can to keep it at bay.

Lighter...

[wellenough]

I am new to this, so hello. I am feeling "good enough" today, things/feelings have been better recently, including this morning. Meds, therapy, group and individual today will help too. Hugs to those feeling the dread depression today.

[whimsygirl]

I just want it all to stop.

[Bark]

Decided that I napped long enough and need to study for my exam tomorrow. I'm going to stay up all night trying to read, and I just know I won't finish, because I'm always tired and the words don't sink in half the time, plus I can't feel motivated enough. Got a bunch of nice things to eat, but my appetite's half what it was earlier. And I misplaced my wallet. I don't even want to imagine losing it.

All-nighter, here I come.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by Bark

Decided that I napped long enough and need to study for my exam tomorrow. I'm going to stay up all night trying to read, and I just know I won't finish, because I'm always tired and the words don't sink in half the time, plus I can't feel motivated enough. Got a bunch of nice things to eat, but my appetite's half what it was earlier. And I misplaced my wallet. I don't even want to imagine losing it.

All-nighter, here I come.

Best of luck to you.....

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by Bark

Decided that I napped long enough and need to study for my exam tomorrow. I'm going to stay up all night trying to read, and I just know I won't finish, because I'm always tired and the words don't sink in half the time, plus I can't feel motivated enough. Got a bunch of nice things to eat, but my appetite's half what it was earlier. And I misplaced my wallet. I don't even want to imagine losing it.

All-nighter, here I come.

Good luck to you..... WHOOPS! Internet problems.

[Rose76]

My neck is kind of sore, so I need to get off looking at this computer monitor and sitting at this desk. Otherwise, I feel pretty good.

[konrei]

Tired tired tired and my appetite feels weird. :x

[dg1983]

So today I was driving and heard a song lyric about "finding strength in pain" and my eyes started tearing up...I've just had so many painful feelings today. I quit my old job and was supposed to start a new job but found out the position was nullified. The agency screwed me and I called them to talk about it-they sounded like they didn't give a sh** on the phone. I handed out resumes and still no reply. Even if I do get an interview, the thought of it gives me anxiety. I'm a smart girl and have a college degree but for $%&'s sakes when I'm at an interview it doesn't seem to come across that way. I need to make about $3000 in a month or I will barely be able to afford my textbooks for when I start school, let alone be able to pay to get to school. Anywho, that was my day. Sorry for ranting and thanks if you could even stand to read this.

[regretful]

Tired...rotten sleep last night. Anxious and mildly depressed.

[Bark]

Finally finished the semester. I kept falling asleep all night, barely studied properly. Tried to study as much as I could the hour or so before the exam. Saw a bunch of questions I wasn't sure about, beat myself up about some of them... well, I got the grades, and I did all right. Okay, I did great (but I can't say that, I'm never happy with my grades). I got the highest grade in class. But if I had studied properly, I could have done better... of course ignoring the fact that I can't study properly till the last minute. I feel like I don't deserve the grade at all; I just got lucky. People worked so much harder than me; they deserve it more.

But I'm done. That's a huge load off my back... until next semester.

Sorry if I'm bothering anyone with this.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by dg1983

So today I was driving and heard a song lyric about "finding strength in pain" and my eyes started tearing up...I've just had so many painful feelings today. I quit my old job and was supposed to start a new job but found out the position was nullified. The agency screwed me and I called them to talk about it-they sounded like they didn't give a sh** on the phone. I handed out resumes and still no reply. Even if I do get an interview, the thought of it gives me anxiety. I'm a smart girl and have a college degree but for $%&'s sakes when I'm at an interview it doesn't seem to come across that way. I need to make about $3000 in a month or I will barely be able to afford my textbooks for when I start school, let alone be able to pay to get to school. Anywho, that was my day. Sorry for ranting and thanks if you could even stand to read this.

No need to apologize.....Sounds like you're going through some really tough times. So sorry about all you're dealing with, and I hope you get a break sometime soon. Sending good thoughts your way......

[Lost Lamb]

Very depressed and confused about the whole thing and life in general.

Not feeling well...

[whyme17]

Its only 12 and I've already had 3 ciggarettes and craving another, the patch I guess isn't working as well as I thought it would. I haven't left my house for 5 days I'm hating the sun right now and I keep crying and don't really know why I just want to go

[optimize990h]

Originally Posted by dg1983

So today I was driving and heard a song lyric about "finding strength in pain" and my eyes started tearing up...I've just had so many painful feelings today. I quit my old job and was supposed to start a new job but found out the position was nullified. The agency screwed me and I called them to talk about it-they sounded like they didn't give a sh** on the phone. I handed out resumes and still no reply. Even if I do get an interview, the thought of it gives me anxiety. I'm a smart girl and have a college degree but for $%&'s sakes when I'm at an interview it doesn't seem to come across that way. I need to make about $3000 in a month or I will barely be able to afford my textbooks for when I start school, let alone be able to pay to get to school. Anywho, that was my day. Sorry for ranting and thanks if you could even stand to read this.

The phrase from the song you heard "finding strength in pain"-reminded me of a phrase from a movie "make pain my friend". So I learned to see pain more an equal in order to deal with it better. It helped me. Take care.

[alone in the world]

checkin feeling a little better. focus and concentration are gone though. again have to take myself out of my comfort zone, home.

[konrei]

Lacking sleep but going good alright. Also I got a news from my relatives in the Philippines that our cousin just gave birth to a healthy baby boy!

[Bark]

Originally Posted by konrei

Lacking sleep but going good alright. Also I got a news from my relatives in the Philippines that our cousin just gave birth to a healthy baby boy!

Congratulations to them!

Looking forward to sleeping a solid number of hours right now. Hoping that I'll actually not wake up tired for once, but that seems unlikely. Wish I had more energy....

[Rose76]

Still doing good. This good streak is lasting for the longest in quite a while.

[dg1983]

Thanks Bark, optimize990h, regretful, whimsygirl: I just read your messages and received your support, and feel a bit lighter now. I will find strength, it's just so easy for me to make a catastrophe out of some situations...I have cooled down a bit today and feel a lot less upset.

[Bark]

Originally Posted by dg1983

Thanks Bark, optimize990h, regretful, whimsygirl: I just read your messages and received your support, and feel a bit lighter now. I will find strength, it's just so easy for me to make a catastrophe out of some situations...I have cooled down a bit today and feel a lot less upset.

I'm glad to hear that. Let us know how the job search goes. We all need to rant once in a while, to get things off our chests: I'm glad you didn't just bottle all that in because you thought no one wanted to hear.

Here's hoping all this paved the way for a fantastic job opportunity!

[MotherMarcus]

Had a couple of days where I was teetering over a dark hole. Been doing okay otherwise . I have an appointment for an echocardiogram this afternoon. Oh joy.