[whimsygirl]

Up until a little while ago today had been tolerable, with just a few tears flowing now and then when sad thoughts crossed my mind. But then, somewhat out-of-the-blue, a downturn.....negative thoughts swirling. Too many years of trying to convince myself that "not too bad" and "a little bit better" were enough. And even when things were at a good enough place that I was able to say that kind of thing to myself, there was always that looming reality that at any moment the illusion could disintegrate and the "truth" would come to the forefront once again. And how sad to think that when I'm feeling okay it's not even "real". Sigh. So sad. It just can't be that things were supposed to be this way.....that suffering so much should be considered "normal"....let alone acceptable. And I do mean for any of us who feel this way. It's really not fair at all.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by optimize990h

I got enough sleep but needed sleep meds. I had not slept properly for 3 nights. Hoping to re-establish a better regular sleep pattern.

Wishing you good luck with your sleep problems. I relate very much. Aside from having severe sleep apnea, bad ~sad thoughts have interrupted my sleep for many months now.....sure doesn't help the depression. Hugs.....

I have had a tolerably reasonable day today. I got many things that I wanted to accomplish done. I still have a lot to do this week....this semester really.

One...foot...in....front....of...the..........other........

Originally Posted by regretful

Feeling a bit upside down and inside out still...depressed and anxious, wondering if I'm making the right choices...

These days are the hardest. Hang in there

[Dos3512]

Very very very very very very very very down! ugh!

[vintyg]

Hi ! , very down today missed my class . Just could not get out of bed . Totally clueless . Writing 'Suicide Note' , i write them often these days , just gives me peace . My head feels heavy and though i am very weak i am not feeling like eating anything . Had a bad incident yesterday , which really broke my already fragile confidence and what ever i did to cope up in last 7-8 days just shattered . Had i been my confident self i would have been able to take up that failure but in this state that i am every little thing seems insurmountable .I hate my self and hate the choices that i have made .

[regretful]

Still in the midst of depression mixed with anxiety...it's a battle indeed.

[dazedandonfused]

Really depressed today and I don't know why. I went to go help a friend who is seperating from her husband last night but I ended up feeling worse by the time I left. I felt like I was completely powerless and that I couldn't do anything but just listen and be there for her. I don't want to have to live this way. There's got to be happiness somewhere in this world.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by dazedandonfused

Really depressed today and I don't know why. I went to go help a friend who is seperating from her husband last night but I ended up feeling worse by the time I left. I felt like I was completely powerless and that I couldn't do anything but just listen and be there for her. I don't want to have to live this way. There's got to be happiness somewhere in this world.

Hi dazed....Just a thought (what I believe).....There IS happiness out there in the world, even though you, and so many others of us are sometimes not able to see it, or even believe in it. But please try to remember that when you are not able to feel it it's because there is a terrible, unfair illness called depression....which we do NOT deserve. Whether it feels that way or not, and I've been dealing with all this for a long, long time....HOPE is out there, we just have to find it again. You are reaching out for help, and that's a wonderful step! Hope you find some comfort soon.....

[whimsygirl]

Therapy session later today. Going to be doing some more hypnosis. Hoping it helps, 'cause I've been feeling really "stuck" lately.....

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by dazedandonfused

Really depressed today and I don't know why. I went to go help a friend who is seperating from her husband last night but I ended up feeling worse by the time I left. I felt like I was completely powerless and that I couldn't do anything but just listen and be there for her. I don't want to have to live this way. There's got to be happiness somewhere in this world.

Remember that depression does not need a reason.....the demon does not follow any rules

[Turtleboy]

Feeling pretty good, a family member i don't want around me is trying to force their way back into my life and it's making me nervous because i know there is gonna be a lot of drama and stress no matter what i do

[alone in the world]

Wednsday and am shut in the house again let my afternoon appointment go just want the world to go way today.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by Turtleboy

Feeling pretty good, a family member i don't want around me is trying to force their way back into my life and it's making me nervous because i know there is gonna be a lot of drama and stress no matter what i do

Good luck with your family member.....

[Atlantis]

It's been about a week since I started feeling more depressed than usual. Ziprasidone was working but I feel it's wearing off. Feeling extremely tired and uninspired. Work production is slow. I feel numb and am avoiding things. Unmotivated and unable to get pleasure out of anything. Typically depressed. Trying to shake it any way I can.

[whimsygirl]

Really good therapy session today, including some hypnosis. I've felt quite a bit calmer ever since. Oh how I am wishing for some better days.....

[Leed]

Feeling better since doctor added Abilify to the Cymbalta. Had started getting a bit blue again. The Abilify is great, except it usually makes me retain water. lets see if it does it this time -- I had to quit using it once before.

Got diagnosed with COPD too, and that's not making me want to jump hoops. So now I'm on rescue inhalers, other pills, etc. NUTS. But I did it to myself, and now I must reform. Patches, here I come.

Wishing all a better day. God bless & love to all. Hugs, Lee

[optimize990h]

I did go out but it was like an errand with minimal human contact. I did do a phone call, which I hate, and had to deal with an answering machine. Hoping to do more errands soon. Mood is blah.

[dazedandonfused]

Not much to say just

[agma]

Just spent a week in the hospital. I am feeling really depressed this morning. I see my pdoc tomorrow, and I am nervous because I will have to tell him what I did.

[whimsygirl]

Still feeling more calm this morning, after my session yesterday Through hypnosis my therapist is helping me to (finally) let go of some of my feelings of sadness and anger after being abandoned by my bff a few months ago. Of course it's still one moment at a time....as always....but I'm feeling a bit more hopeful than I have been lately, and possibly feel some comfort coming my way..... ps....Hugs to all

[regretful]

Today, anxiety has wrestled depression from the forefornt of my mind...It's been a battle...

[alone in the world]

day started fine by forcing myself out of the house and then went down hill. feeling very anxious and trying hard to not take anything. hoping the evening gets better.

[alone in the world]

Originally Posted by whimsygirl

Still feeling more calm this morning, after my session yesterday Through hypnosis my therapist is helping me to (finally) let go of some of my feelings of sadness and anger after being abandoned by my bff a few months ago. Of course it's still one moment at a time....as always....but I'm feeling a bit more hopeful than I have been lately, and possibly feel some comfort coming my way..... ps....Hugs to all

glad your session was great. going to try and use your calmness. keep moving forward it inspires me to see others are where I want to be.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by alone in the world

glad your session was great. going to try and use your calmness. keep moving forward it inspires me to see others are where I want to be.

Hi alone.....Thanks so much for your kind words. I only wish I could somehow transfer some of my better feelings over to you..... Warm Wishes