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Removing my post. Wow, I know we are all suffering, but for many people to have read my New Thread, heard my despair, and not one have left a single kind word or take one second to send a hug. I am amazed and brokenhearted to think that people who know what the pain is like could be so cold. And coldness is something that I already have too much of in my life. I feel we should all be kind to each other, and not add to one another's emptiness. That said, I'm out of here for now. Good luck to everyone.....

Hello, Whimsygirl. I don't know why, but this is the first I'm actually seeing your post.

Of course, you don't need more coldness in your life. Do what you need to keep yourself safe. May life place something or someone in your path to make things easier.

PLEASE don't leave! I'm sorry we didn't see/post to your thread. I TRY to post to threads, but evidently I missed yours. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me/us.

Don't leave -- will you please stay? No one iintentionally hurts people. I think you know that.

Stay, will you? Please? Hugs, Lee

I'm so sorry you feel that way... What's got you feeling down?

Really sorry that you're feeling this way...don't leave these forums. We're here to support you (at least I am, and from what I am reading above, I see that others do too)...I've read about your situation with your friend, we've shared some kind and supportive words...that's what I feel is the beauty and necessity of these forums and messages...support. And with something like this, which is simultaneously anonymous and personal, I view it as a significant blessing. I do hope that you reconsider and look forward to your encouraging words from other people...Hugs to you...

I hope you stay around, Whimsygirl. I don't think people mean to be insensitive and I have noticed that ppl don't usually respond to threads right away. I have seen that with posts I have started also. I do think people are generally supportive here, but there are so many posts that it is hard to answer them all when you feel bad.

Hope you will decide to stay.

Thank you for the kind messages. I'd like to say a few words....actually quite a few....to whoever might read this. First off, yesterday was a day of complete despair for me (I think we all know what those are like.) I posted a thread expressing this, and when it came to the point where 16 people had read what I wrote, but no one had responded in any way, it just felt like one more confirmation of the idea that no one cared....I suspect that most people dealing with the demon that is depression can relate to that? So....realizing that this was only making me feel worse, I wanted to completely remove my posting, but I couldn't figure out a way to do this, so instead I just wrote what I did. So here's the thing, the feelings I expressed were NOT directed to everyone, as obviously I couldn't predict that no one would eventually leave a word or send a hug. And to those of you had not even seen my post, I was NOT directing anything at you....I would NEVER "blame" anyone for not having seen it. All I was doing by removing the original post was to (try to) protect myself from feeling even worse....seeing that even more people were hearing about my pain and then going on to the next thing, without a moment's pause. For those who might not have seen other posts of mine, I have suffered from depression since childhood. This is not the first "depression forum" I have been a part of, and I completely "get" that there are so many people in pain....so many stories, and when you're really suffering it can be difficult to even feel the motivation to type something. Plus, obviously, it would be impossible to respond to everyone, even if that was was your intention. I certainly have seen posts that I did not respond to, for whatever reason, but when I can tell that the person might really be in a desperate place, I can at least send them a hug. Maybe I'm missing something, but in my mind that's one important reason why the "Hug" button is there....to let someone know that you care....and that IS important.....whether or not you say a word. And come on, it takes a nanosecond to send a hug, can any of us really say that takes up too much time when it is someone's life that may be on the line?? I hope not. And just one more thing, as I know this is pretty long. No matter how low we may be feeling, showing kindness to others is always good for the soul. I am not even talking about myself anymore, but I think we ALL need to remember something. When another person is suffering greatly, we never can know what little thing that registers to that person as one more "hurt" may be the one that makes life unbearable for them....and I'll stop there, because I think I don't even need to finish the thought. Well, anyway, if you read this, thanks, and I'm sending hugs out to EVERYONE. I hope everyone's having the best day possible.....

Well, at the time I did not want to write the wrong words as I had just joined as a member. I was not sure whether anything I wrote would be posted til later, then I lost track because I had to focus on my problems. I guess the major problem here in forums is to be able to acknowledge what is bothering myself and not feeling guilty about whether I am expressing it in the best way possible. For example, a fear of what I write causing me more problems than what i already have. Of knowing that today, there is less face to face interactions. At this time, for me, there's the forums and the phone number/name/voice. So blunting my connection to people.
But as you can read, I have swings of mood. fear/depression modes. So, now I can write to you that I understand your feelings of down. i support your struggle to continue on and see that you are not alone!

Thanks very much for your kind words. Best Wishes......

Whimsy, i also didn't see your post and you don't have to explain yourself about feeling badly that nobody responded because i feel the same way when it happens to me. You are human and i think its a normal feeling to wonder why nobody had anything to say when you were putting yourself out there and sharing your pain. I realize also that everyone on here is going through something but you still can't help but be hurt. I just recently did the same thing, i posted something and nobody responded and i then posted something about how i'm pushing away people even on here and i don't even remember all that i said but i was upset that nobody responded. People then responded and reminded me that alot of people on here are going through things and sometimes they just observe and don't have it in them to respond. So your not alone my friend. And whimsy i'm embarrassed to say i don't know how to give a hug unless i am replying, that is the only time i see those emotion icons off to the side. I wondered how i could just send a hug. Its probably something so simple right in my face too which will really be embarrassing. I can give you hugs now though !!!! Hang in there i am in your corner Anjelmarie

I totally understand where you're coming from. I know what it feels like to think that no one cares about you. I hope you're feeling a bit better now.

Thanks for the kind words, and I hope you're okay too....

Hi anjelmarie.....Thanks so much for the hugs, and all your kind words....they mean a lot to me. Warm Wishes and hope you're doing okay today.....

hope you r better

Dear Whimsygirl. Some days I don't even have a voice if you know what I mean. Sorry was unresponsive. I care. Lots of people care. Please, never think that we don't. Its the irony of our condidition.

Its really important though to have a voice. Plz keep yours here. We're just a little slow to react. HUGS! and more HUGS to you!!! Bless you and be well.

Whimsy, I know it can be frustrating when you don't get an instant reply when you're really wanting one. I can make a post and no one will say anything for days. eventually someone will--I've never had a post go completely unrecognized my entire time on this site. I've seen so many people get frustrated and chew others out for not responding. keep in mind that there are hundreds of users on this site looking at hundreds of posts and I know I do not comment on every thread I look at, just the ones where I can say something helpful.

if you're feeling particularly anxious for quick response, check out the chat rooms where there are people in there in REAL time.

this is a very good place to be--please stay and be patient with us.

Suki....Thanks for the message, but I never "chewed out" others. I simply explained why I was changing my post, I was being honest, and I completely stand by my words. I don't know if you read my rather long message, but from what you say here it sure doesn't sound like you did not

I don't frequent the depression forum, but I happened upon this thread. Someone once said that posts on PC get a response somewhere in the one for every 15 viewers range (I may be slightly off on that statistic, but I think I'm close.) So, 16 people viewing a thread and not responding really isn't out of the norm at all. I know it is easy to feel ignored or of no value to people when we don't get quick responses. Try to remember that those viewers may not know you or your situation so they may not feel comfortable responding. They may have their own serious issues and responding in any way is just not possible for them at the time. Sometimes we see a post and just don't know how best to respond. Anyway, there are so many people on this site and the number of reasons people don't respond is probably countless, but it generally is not that people are intentionally ignoring us or are intentionally being insensitive. I know, hard to keep in mind when we are feeling so low. I totally understand that. Hope you are feeling better today. Sounds like you have lots of support here though. Take care of yourself.

Thanks very much for the message. From your words I'm guessing that perhaps you didn't read my rather long post within this thread? No worries. Or maybe you did and there is just a misunderstanding. In any case I appreciate you taking the time to write. Best Wishes....

sorry I didn't read your long post and when I said "I've seen lots of people chewed out" I'm making that as a general statement, which is true. I never saw your original post, just an fyi.

also, sometimes people (me in this case) will read the first post and respond to just that, not reading the whole entire thread. just a heads up that not everyone reads/responds/thinks the same way. I skipped your long post as it was too overwhelming for me to read. after all, I've got hundreds of posts to catch up on...

Thanks so much Tinkerbell....and same to you.