I really have to vent here sorry about this

I went on Monday morning for an MRI well unknown to me I was put into a totally closed machine and even though I had taken plenty of my meds to keep me relaxed as this was to take about two hours of time.
First off they offer me music right, okay on go the headphones then they slide me in and she says here is an emergency thing to push if something isn't right.
Well this had to have been a machine from back in the first days when I had one done as the noise was deafening even with the headphones on, which of course music was never heard at all. So I try to keep myself together, heck I have had so many of these done, but not like this one since my first.
Within twenty minutes I was getting a migraine from the noise that just echoed through my whole body. I am squeezing and squezzing this bulb, I am kicking my feet..... hmmm I am suppose to lay still, I think they went for coffee. I was in there about a half and hour, crying and finally after yelling my head off they seemed to realize something was wrong,,,,,,,, DUHHhhhh. I had to reschedule for next month, this is so going to upset my neuro but I just couldn't do it.
So besides just feeling bad about not going through with the whole thing, then I have the issue of kicking myself all over the place for being such a wimp.
I am so angry at myself.... Well anyhow got home after I was able to get calmed down by hubby a bit, took my imitrex and then went home and prompty slept most of day and into yesterday. Apparently my daugther had called and said they were all coming up on Thursday and staying until Saturday moring.... oh boy and my house is totally torn apart. I was redoing my computer room and we just got a different couch, and I have done no house cleaning in a week, on top of that there are things I just can't do without hubby and he works until I am unsure what time last night as I was asleep, when he came in. At 2:30 he was still up and I woke up and have been up dozing here and there since then. How do I get my house in order for four overnight guests, when My living room floor is overfilled with stuff. I am overwhelmed here with all that needs to be done and I have no energy to do and no hubby that will have time to even help me. So I am stuck looking at his cra... all over the bedroom and hallway and its way to heavy for me to move at all.. I am just sick.... he helps a friend last night when he knew I needed help here and fine I dont have a real problem with that it is just that he will be busy tonite also so again no real help..... Sorry just had ot get this off my chest as I am going absoulutely baananananannaanaaaasssssssss.... Any sound advice would be truly welcomed. I will probably just leave this page open all day so when I need to rest This is where I will seek my solace... Thanks if you read this far I don't mean to vent, but I just am overwhelmed and feel so totally like cra . on top of it.

Hi..I know you don't know me..seeing as I am fairly new to this sight..but I saw your post and I just had to reply!! First of all, ((((HUGS TO YOU))))) Wow, what a stressful day and night for you..and it sounds like it is ongoing! I get severe migraines as well..Imatrex did not work for me..I hope it does for you..as far as the hospital..I would not be too hard on yourself. I know you feel weak and embarressed but it sounds to me like they left you a little vulnerable don't you think..leaving you in there for that long..kicking and screaming before they realized anything was wrong..to me..that seems just wrong..shouldn't they have kept a closer eye on you?? As far as your daughter and everything at your home..it sounds like you have so much to do and so little time to do it all in..and hon, that is just too much for one person, especially considering the fact that you have little to no help. I would think that under the circumstances, your daughter would understand. Start small...do what you can..go from there..and finish what you can..take your time and TRY not to stress too much about it..I would think that could and would only bring your migraine back and make it worse, then how would you enjoy your daughter and the others when they were there!? I may not have been any help..but if anything..take care of you..and Keep your head up and your smile bright!

Liv28 Thank you for your kindness. I am trying but this is so hard and I feel so overwhelmed.. I am sorry that this is the place we meet but then again I have made some of the best friends right here. I look forward to getting to know you. Linda

look forward to getting to know you as well..I hope you have stress free holidays!! I plan too!! (I let my husband do the worrying in my family)

I felt overwhelmed just reading this, you aren't a wimp at all! I have had one of those MRI's..... Sending you love and support (((((((((( walkswithspiritbear ))))))))))))

((((( sweetie )))))

First and foremost, take care of you.

Step back and make a list of must do's. Don't sweat the small things, let the dust stay where it is. In the grand scheme of things what's the worst thing that will happen? They might whisper you have dust. So what.

Second, don't be mad at yourself about the MRI. It happened to me. I freaked. Enclosed places are not my thing. Not for five seconds or two hours.

I went throught the Yellow Pages until I found a place that had a sit-up MRI. It was perfect. Loud, yup. But not enclosed.

Hang in there. I'll be sending cleaning vibes your way.

oh you dear sweet woman.......please take care of YOU.....nothing else is important.....

allowing you to be in such obvious distress and not assiting you is totally uncalled for and you have a right to be upset...hope that next month they will be able to monitor your reactions more closely and help ease you thru the process...hope you are feeling better..

EV

Linda, my friend... it's good you getting it all out here. We're here for you, hon!

((((((((((((( Linda ))))))))))))))

I don't do mri very well. I absolutely had to have a brain mri though... I went and viewed it and met the techs long be fore I was able to make the appointment. Then I made a mock tube and took it to T for him to work with me about the whole thing... hypnosis type suggestions etc.

IDK, I didn't have any ear protection... but for you, have you tried the type of headset ear protection used at a gun range? It dampens down to practically nothing

Knowing the tech, and the tech working with me was great... he took me out at soon at I had a problem... they knew ahead of time of my issues...

Maybe a hand signal when you are in distress and need assistance? They do have a camera and watch quite closely imo.

Sorry you had such an experience. I'm sure those involved feel poorly about it also...and will work harder to help you next time. TC

Hi Linda
I'm sorry u had a bad time having a mri. Ive had tons of them. where I live at there r open mri's I have had problems in the past with the closed ones (I have to spend up to 3 1/2 hrs) medicaid evan pays for it in NY.
maybe u could look into the one were you just sit up and only ur head is enclosed, I feel badly hearing about ur problem cause I used to be so scared to get mri tested.
((((((((((Linda))))))))))

Linda, calm down take a breath first, you can only get done what you can. Taking good care of you self can be a great stress reliever. I am sending in calming vibes...and vibes of strength... take care my friend.... walk in peace and light.....

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Thank you each and every one of you, you have no idea what your kindness means to me.

Oh boy! Do I understand the messy house aspect you're going through. Cleaning makes me tired just thinking about it. This past weekend I had my first visitor to the house in, literally, years, if you don't count the couple of times my mom came. She already knows how things are, so I don't even try to pick up before she gets here.

I sat here in the middle of it just wanting to cry, no idea where to start. The only help I have are two teenagers so, basically, no help at all. I finally just said "Hey, I need help" and gave them SPECIFIC tasks to do. "You, pick up everything in this room that's yours and take it to your room. You, pick up the newspapers and anything else the dog has ripped apart, then pick up the rest of the bottles and cans and empty food wrappers." Those two things right there made a huge difference. I also told my friend earlier in the week that it looked like a tornado went through the house, but I'd get as much cleaning done as possible, so he'd be prepared to walk into a hazardous waste dump if I failed to get a flash of cleaning inspiration/motivation in the next three days.

He was very understanding, but I managed to get the house picked up more than it's been in ages. My daughter walked in the bathroom and goes "Wow, this place actually sparkles!"

Anyway, moral of the story, let your guests know the state of the house and if it doesn't get picked up as much as you'd like, at least they were warned.