Would anyone care if I was gone?

If I killed myself,would it even effect anyone?

It seems that no one cares about me, that they look everyone else better then me. I am no one's favorite, because I have so many things wrong with me. I always get treated younger then I am. No one cares about me, no one...

Yes it would. I am not just saying that. It is the truth. I know that there are people who care about you. People here care, believe you me. Anyone's passing will have negative effect on someone. Do you have a therapist? If you feel like you are in danger, call a crisis line or go to the ER. Sending love and hugs.

It doesn't seem like it thorough.

I don't even know how'd it effect them.

We really do care! I would certainly miss seeing you around the threads! And it would most definitely hurt your family and friends. How they show it will be different but I have no doubt that there would be a sad hole in all the lives that you have touched.

Is that how you feel? I have dealt with depression since I was in grade 7, I am now 46. I have spent 4 years in the hospital. So many suicide attemps, and 2 days after I got out of the hospital after being in there for a year, my mom uses my medication and kills herself, I get to identify her body after being dead in a hot shack for 4 days. I have never attempted after that. I learned the receiving end of it. Now I have 2 kids, 19 and 15. Been married for 22 years and again so unhappy and all those thought running in my head, I don't want to put my kids through what I went through, but I have a unfeeling husband and kids that are so used to me doing everything to please them that they treat me like ****. I feel useless and unworthy to be here. but I keep trying. Don't give up, don't let them win. I have to bellieve that there is a reason for all of us, if you can't see it then let me help you see. Tell me your story.

Hi, I'm sorry I've only really caught up with you on your last thread, but I/we care about you. And you know people can often not really say/show what they genuinely think/feel, for all sorts of reasons, so even if some people in your life haven't said how much you really matter that absolutely doesn't mean that they might not be thinking/feeling that way.
But if they don't see that then that's their problem, that doesn't mean it's not true, you DO matter, you ARE important.
And I'd really like to see YOU caring about you as well. I know that really might not be easy but why let other people's opinions (or what you think their opinions might be?) dictate who you are?
But it would be an idea to talk to some people, one's you feel might be approachable, about how you're feeling. Sometimes depression can really narrow your perspective so maybe they can reassure you or at least offer you some support.
And if there are things wrong with you (which you can maybe see differently or address with some support) then that still isn't going to mean that people aren't going to/shouldn't care about you, that you aren't important, that you're no-one's/not going to be anyone's "favorite".
If you want to talk more though..............
Best wishes
Alison

I care...

People do care about you. I have been on both sides of suicide, having family members who have committed it and several suicide attempts I have had. The people who you think do not care will be devastated and it will leave them destroyed for life. I know things are tough but hang in there, this place is full of people who care about you.

Sometimes I indulge myself in such thinking.....Then I remind myself that I don't know what's around the corner....I may have a profound effect on someone, or they may be in need. My everyday actions might affect someone who also has an effect that changes or even saves a life.

So you never know.

It's a responsibility in a way, to be here. We're not on this earth for ourselves.

So yes. I can positively without a doubt tell you that you would be missed.

Fox and the Hound Hang in there. You matter more than you will ever know.

People do care. There is always someone that will miss you. That would be terrible sad about you dying.
Why you say nobody cares about you? When I'm bad I find myself going away from people, I feel rejected even they don't think like this. I guess I'm the one who makes myself rejected.
And about your family, do they know how you feel? I know my closest family would be devastated if I gone away. I know that they will blame themselves.

Yes. It effects and impacts everyone around you. Even people you've never spoken to. I have had 2 people close to me take their own lives. They left behind ripples and echoes of themselves... and none of them good. For most, that is all that is remembered about them. Not who they were or the good memories of them. Just that they gave up, left a mess, and didn't give the people who cared about them a chance to help.

Personally, I developed phobias and PTSD from how and when they died. I feel nothing but saddness and ANGER at those people. I am sad and ANGRY, because I love and miss them still. And keep in mind that I spent almost a decade of my life suicidal. I'm not a stranger to wanting the pain to end.

This is going to sound harsh and blunt, but it has been MY TRUTH... If you are going to die anyway, why not try one last thing? If you have endured the pain this far, how much worse could tomorrow be? Cry, scream, do whatever you have to make it through today.

In my experience... Life will always get better, it just gets a little worse before it does. Troubles will come and they will go. There is an ebb and flow. Whatever you do, do not cry wolf. Be patient and ask for help. You have suffered and endured. That makes you stronger than anyone else, because you are still surviving... that isn't far from thriving.

You haven't lost until you give up. If you are still breathing, there is hope. While I have no faith in the masses, I do believe in the individual. I believe you can over come if you FIGHT. I know it is easier said than done, but it is not impossible.

After just having an...episode... I can tell you that I scared the **** out of people that I didn't think would even care. It was very weird. A few people outside of my family don't know, and I think I will keep it that way for now. But I think that there is this instincual rejection toward that sort of thing that really affects people. Going against the primal imperative of staying alive really shakes people up.

Also, failing in any attempt can leave permanent damage in many forms. Fortunately I just have to flush a few things out of my system, but still. Wouldn't it be ironic to want it to be over only to have to live out an even more terrible existence?

So yes, you would affect many people, in ways that you wouldn't even know.

YES, it would make a difference to me. I like reading your smart posts on chat. Plus, this is what keeps me from doing it, my girlfriend is into new age, earth, moon, angels, etc. one day she told me if I ended my life I would return back to this miserable incarnation to finish my karma. Needless to say, I said I'll be d amn if I have to live through this misery again, so I keep on going hoping that a natural death will catch up with me and my karmic contract with this sh itty life is over.

I would care because that's an awesome username and avatar and I wouldn't see it again.

Seriously though, I understand, I had those words roaming through my brain earlier this week. I really am very alone here without my family, friends, missing my wife and kids. Sometimes I honestly do think everybody would get over it pretty quickly. I then remember that I could indeed have a great time ahead of me, it's just going to be a bit of work to get there and I think the pain will be worth it when I get there, it's just an unfortunate series of events. I have to get through that damn jungle of ********.

You say you're treated younger than you are... who are you referring to? If it's your family/parents I think that's just a sign of them really caring about you, perhaps being a little overprotective. I'd like to expand on that but don't want to assume what your words mean, so let me know?