4 years gone

Hi,
sometimes, people around us are very toxic. What worked for me in the past was to get my economic self-sufficiency. Once I had my own money and I could make decision on my own life things changed for me. It was very difficult because I have a severe physical disability, but at the end I could make it. I do not know if this is your case, Elektra, so I apologize if what I am saying is stupid or does not have anything to do with your status.

I know it is not easy. It takes a lot of hard work and help to change our thoughts and beliefs about ourselves. It can be done in whatever way might work for you.

Her are my views about it.

The simple fact that you were born gives you value and worth. You are an inherent and integral part of nature and creation. Everything that is born, is a part of nature and creation has worth and value. Has meaning and purpose. Even spiders and snakes. The fact that you exist means you have value and worth.

You may not have been nurtured but you are a part of nature and that gives you value and worth.

If I knew you well I am sure I could tell you many things that are good about you and that give you value and worth. You wouldn't believe me though. It has to come from within as well as from without. It takes a lot of hard work and positive help. But it can change.

Just my view.....one mans opinion.

thats the prob.. having a job. but a job wont give me what i actually need.

You are right, money, job, they are just means

nothing matters in this ****ing world. how pretentious of me thinking what i want comes ever in equation. im entitled to shi.t

One thing that helped me a lot was some advice to keep things simple. Set a small goal for yourself every day. It might just be to check this forum. Your mind is probably twisted up in knots by all the things you think you should be doing.

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amazing how some *****es keep complaining "oh my miserable life" when they have all simple things in life. i wonder if they didnt have anything like me, they would kill themselves. life is a ***** and then u die, i wonder when the **** do i die!!

My job gives me a purpose and helps my depression. Interacting with people and thinking about something other then my depression, is helpful.
Wallowing in your own thoughts all day, is a recipe for disaster. Try to do something to get your mind on something else.

well i dont have depression. im not able to have ajob. and there is no something.

May I ask what you do have and why you're not able to have a job?

every time i go to my grandpas house all my fam ****s with me... bc im skinny, caz i dontt have life, caz im always in bed with my computer, for WHATEVER. its been since EVER i put up with it but today i just said enough. my aunt needs a ride tomorrow so i basically send a msg saying: the idiot, the one thats gona be single for life, whatever shi-t u name me, doesnt make any favor to whom doesnt deserve! hopefully she will get the msg!

I think we all "got the message".

my aunt acted like nothing happened.. which means they will keep on it... i have control over nothing lol

why cant i just die? i have no place here.i have nothing. just need to die.

What are some of the things that get you down at times like these? Are there any positive things that happen to come to mind when you think of the last 4 years? I feel and understand exactly where you're coming from, but being here on Psych Central, that in of itself takes tremendous courage! Sending love & hugs your way.

i dont have a life lol is pretty much it. and besides not having a life i have probs after probs. there is no positive. ive been just watching days pass by. being here brave? lol this is anonymous and i have no probs telling my T anything soooo.. hugs to u too. tc

Ha! Wait til you are saying what i do, that it is BEYOND hopeless as it is twelve years gone, stuck in the same ****ING place that I despise, the deep religious loser South, near the same bullies who have always attacked me. I have had it. Good bye.

people are really ****

I also feel most are....
(((((elektra)))))

(((ELEKTRA))) I know how you feel. I am asking myself the same questions. I am very sorry that you are feeling this way.

my father is such a ****er lololol and amazing as the ****ers have it all good. this world isnt for good people. i should be a ****er too most likely i would be a lot happier.

(((((Elektra)))))

and the ****er came to piss me off again. these ****ers ****ed my life and think are even entitled to anything lololol someday im gona just blow up and its not gona be pretty.

my father is the most ridiculous clueless son of a bit.ch EVER. the ****er decided to send my cv to apply for a job that has nothing to do with me. and even worse the idiot says its him (the father of applicant) sending lololol i really need to kill myself

i have no control over my life. i never get what i want. im soooo tired so so tired