I am so sad and depressed

I can't go on anymore, the depression has taken my life away. Husband says he doesn't love me anymore because he can't deal with my depression. That's just one thing. I have no friends to turn to, and I just don't know how long I can go on. The truth is I don't want to go on anymore

((((krea))))) I'm sorry things are so bad right now. Is there anyone you can talk to if you feel like you cannot talk to your husband? if you don't have anyone IRL, keep posting, write in a journal, just as long as you can get your emotions out of your system (in a healthy way). It is so important that you don't keep everything inside. We are all here for you at PC ... feel free to PM me anytime.
Take care
Jacq

I'm tired of trying

Don't give up on yourself. You CAN do this. Take things slowly, one day at a time.

Depression tells us lies. You just Can't believe all you are thinking, ok? Things won't always feel this bad... hang in there till you get to a better spot.

The only spot for me is in a cemetary. I'm just giving up. I'm tired of hanging in there. I think it is more than depression, I just don't know, I take my medicine, and all I do is cry, not a happy moment in my life. I can't see it getting better.

this is all my opinion. but like you said... it's a moment in your life. have you thought about how long you've felt this way? would you give up everthing because things are too hard. believe me ive felt the same way. and i still do alot of the time, but a cemetary are for those who have lived or it was their time to go. the only way i can explain this pain is like one big breath, you may feel like your soficating on the one breath, but your not going to. From the moment you were born to your death you cant have been sad the whole time. Doesn't that mean that theirs happiness out there for you? i dont have a husband, let alone im not even out of high school...but i do know what its like to hate life and to cry every night, and crap does it feel like it'll never end. But some how if you can pull through you'll realize that your not choking on that deep breath anymore.

haha sry im being all symbolic...i tend to do that sometimes.

Don't give up!! Think of everything that you are giving up on. Your dreams, your live, your family, don't you think they will miss you? What about your friends here? We will surely miss you!! Don't give up. You have a lot going for you. I know it's tough right now, but you will make it through this. Just hang in there.

I is good to hear how extreme your feelings are. It's hard for me to put to words when i'm really down and sick, so people don't always get it how badly I am doing. Sometimes, if you keep telling how bad you feel you find out you have said it enough and are ready to move on. That can be good, unless you talk yourself into thinkingthese (temporary) feelings are permanent. I am usually surprised by the good days and try to take advantage of them.
I apologize for rambling. I amd having more anxiety than ever in my life - may due to a meds change- and my head is unclear. I heard the urgent depth of your pain. I am having pain myself. I am noting that I have to say things several times before people hear me. Don't give up. People care, even if they are clumsy in trying to help. Your feelings are starting inside you, so it's hared for people on the outside to reach them or even understand them. ssummary: I approve of your decision to share your pain loud and clear. very little risk of bad coming fromtalking, and maybe good chance osf something good.

My opinion is that all people need to know is that you don't feel safe - nothing much to misinterpret there- and want some human contact. Don't be afraidto reach out to everybody - I even call the 800 number for my credit card and chat withthe operator. They are lonesome too at 4 am.

Oh, yeah - I have usually done well for myself by preparing forthe bad times during the less bad times. I try rehearsing contingency plans for when I don'[t do so well. Right now I'm taking baths, calling loved ones, and listening to favorite music. All are proven to soothe me, and justknowing I am trying to help myself is a tiny notch up. But if you can't do anything positive for yourself, try to think thatwhaat you are aactually doing may have a positiveside. Typing to this venue is a very good thingto do for yourself. Be a little proud. I am writing to you and trying to guess what might help another person gets me out of myself a tiny bit, andthat's a tiny notch up. And so it goes.

Thanks for your concern. I am feeling a just a little better. Sometimes I don't even have the strength to bathe. I know that sounds disguisting. I've asked my p to refer me to a psychiatrist. I've got to get help because I am afraid of dying. I'm trying to take one moment at a time. Again, thanks.

I am greatly encouraged by your latest post. Good solid plans totake care of yourself. Indifference to your own well-being like not bathing is very verycommon. Useful as a guage for yourself of how you are doing. (Hm - if i took a bath would I still be depressed?)

Oh Krea, ((((((((((((Krea))))))))))))

I'm so sorry you are so troubled.
Depression can take you to the depths of he$$.
You need to go back to the doctor and tell him how bad you really are. You may need a med change.
I had to do that and doing alot better now.
I have fought depression most all of my life, so I know how you are feeling.
I'm sorry your husband is reacting this way to your depression but he just doesn't understand. People that don't have depression, it's hard for them as they think, well, just get over it. They don't understand it's not a matter of getting over it. There is NO getting over it. You have no control of the situation.
Your brain is mis-firing and only anti-depressants can get it back in order.
I wish you the very best and let us know how you are doing.
We are here for you.
Take care of yourself.
I care,
Linda

my Pdoc gave me an excellent print out of what the brain looks like without meds and what it looks like with them.......i was floored at the difference.

i agree with the posters above......especially sorry that the husband isn't supportive but obviously he doesn't understand......xoxox pat

That picture of the brain is a lie. Did they take a picture of YOUR brain before and after? Who colored the picture? It is not scientific

Which picture of what brain is a lie? Is any picture a lie or all of them? What part isn't scientific? Couldn't it be? What would make it ok for you, Mark101???

I'm sorry that some doctor(s) felt the need to give you more than one label. I don't think a label changes who we really are or from what we are suffering. I do think there is a difference between how some ppl feel once they find a medicine that helps them, versus one that doesn't or even none at all.

I think we owe it to ourselves to try as many things as we can personally to find a way to feel better.

Feel better.

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my Pdoc gave me an excellent print out of what the brain looks like without meds and what it looks like with them.......i was floored at the difference.

i agree with the posters above......especially sorry that the husband isn't supportive but obviously he doesn't understand......xoxox pat

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What are you talking about?
what part isn't scientific? showing someone a picture of a brain with and without medication and pretending it is science.

feel better? what about think better? we would all be on opium if we wanted to feel better

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feel better? what about think better? we would all be on opium if we wanted to feel better

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Actually...........my medication helps me THINK better, that is why I FEEL better!

and my opium based med helps my pain so I feel better AND think better