[Momentofclarity]

i want to die. Indunno who I am or what I feel, but I don't care...it won't matter...it all won't matter if I went away now. I'm so fed up by the way i think. so fed up by thinking...percieving.. existing.

Hey. I'm sorry to hear you're having such a bad time. It sounds overwhelming and very atypical of the crippling exhaustion that is depression. Remember that depression isn't you - it's an illness. You and it are not attached.

Are you seeing a therapist? Medication might also be something to consider. Keep going. I'm here if you want to talk. One day at a time, remember that just by being alive you are doing so well.

But I don't want you to die and I'm pretty certain your family wouldn't want that either. I know things are really hard for you right now but it does get better. I promise. It just takes time. It's taken me a while but I think things are slowly improving for me too, and for most of this year I just saw no alternative other than suicide. But I am getting there, slowly but surely. And I know you will too

[James511]

I have the same types of problems. Thinking, feeling, living......but you do care, you do think and be thankful for that. One second, one minute, you are alive and willing to hang on. That is what I do. You must do it too. I'll help and others will too. Smile, just a little today and tomorrow try it again. Take care and will be thinking of you.

[Altered Moment]

Please stick close to us Momentofclarity. You are an integral part of this site. keep posting and hanging on to us.

[TheOriginalMe]

Nothing, not even the bad times, lasts forever. Be strong and stay safe.

[waterknob1234]

Hi Moment of Clarity. Stay close to us and stay safe. We care about you. I have had moments when I felt like you but hang on. Those moments pass. There are good things to live for even if you can't see them just yet.

[Momentofclarity]

Originally Posted by 8888an8888

Hey. I'm sorry to hear you're having such a bad time. It sounds overwhelming and very atypical of the crippling exhaustion that is depression. Remember that depression isn't you - it's an illness. You and it are not attached.

Are you seeing a therapist? Medication might also be something to consider. Keep going. I'm here if you want to talk. One day at a time, remember that just by being alive you are doing so well.

I'm getting a therapist. Don't got one yet really.

Originally Posted by secretwhisper

But I don't want you to die and I'm pretty certain your family wouldn't want that either. I know things are really hard for you right now but it does get better. I promise. It just takes time. It's taken me a while but I think things are slowly improving for me too, and for most of this year I just saw no alternative other than suicide. But I am getting there, slowly but surely. And I know you will too

am glad you are doing better...

So tired of liiiiffeee.... I never sleep well............! I don't do anything.. I want to block the door to my room and cover the window with curstains and never see the light again.

[i dont matter]

** I hope you are okay, safe, protected, LOVED **

[Fuzzybear]

I send you love and support

[Clara22]

sending you peace and love

[Momentofclarity]

Thanks all. I should have thanked you earlier maybe but ..well...I wasn't in mood.

I don't really know how I feel now. But I have a doctors appointment today in which I believe I'll get a therapist and possibly a anxiety disorder diagnose. yeah I think I got both depression and anxiety disorder...

pls stay with me ._. I know I didn't really at much to the thread to discuss but I'm so afraid of being left alone anyways...

[ArtsieLady]

Momentofclarity, I do too, but I also want to live sometimes.......I just forget how at the moment.....that's why I came back to psychcentral........because I needed to know I wasn't alone.......so, just know that, you're not alone either.

You know I'm still with you, and will remain so

I'm sorry to hear you feel that way I hope you cheer up soon.

[woundedsoul]

I think lots, if not all, of us here may have felt at some point in time, like you are feeling right now. Just understand that those thoughts are fleeting, thought and felt in the most deepest, darkest times of our lives, when we can't see a tomorrow, but there is a tomorrow. And when you're at your lowest point, you have to start looking at your cup as half full now. Let's say well, I'm all the was at the bottom, so there's no where left to go but up. So let's get going! Once you start looking at your cup as half full again, and you start seeing the positive in things, your life will start to be positive again.

[Momentofclarity]

i want to si

[no-thing]

Originally Posted by Momentofclarity

i want to die. Indunno who I am or what I feel, but I don't care...it won't matter...it all won't matter if I went away now. I'm so fed up by the way i think. so fed up by thinking...percieving.. existing.

I know that feeling. When continuing to breath seems pointless. It is a very dark and lonely place.

[Momentofclarity]

I need help.... I really need help. I dunno what to do! I really think this is going downhill! I was supposed to get new prescription yesterday but I had a ..."meltdown" and then forgot about it... so now I'm kinda without it for the weekend unless I find a way to get a new prescription during "not-office-hours".

What should I do when I get the selfharm urges? Really! I need help with that!

I switch from functional to suicidal all the time and thats one of the problems I have when thinking about psych emergency or calling the clinic for more help and bla bla bla my head is to full of tese thoughts I just dunno what to do!

Please give me a reply even if you don't answer a question. I am grateful for the replies so far I'm just not in a state of giving you all an answer even if I want/should...

Help ._.

[flours]

hi,
sorry you're feeling so bad. don't know where you live but in my country there is always a possibility to get meds somewhere in the weekend. there is something for emergencies to be opened. maybe you can find a way to get a prescription that way? seems like a good thing to focus on. hope you get through this

I take it the everyone you would normally call is closed for the weekend? Do they have any out of hours numbers that you can call?

[Momentofclarity]

I dunno... I'm trying to google it but I can't find any information about it.

Have you completely run out of medication? Can you go to the hospital and see if they will prescribe some for you if you explain the situation and why you need them?

[freefallin]

If you call your psychiatrist's office, will there be an emergency service available to you? Are you able to go to an urgent car facility to get a prescription?

[Momentofclarity]

I guess... but I think I'm just gonna wait till monday. I split my pill from yesterday into two... so it will only be one day without it completely anyway. Then I don't have to deal with this... check google... pay loads of money (just guessing it will cost me extra)... and trying to be discrete with it since the people I live with doesn't know about the meds in the first place. They don't work anyway...