crap. all of my friends are busy.

[color14u]

Originally Posted by sidestepper

Mum emailed me to say she's not in any pain any more. That's a relief. I was planing out how I was going to get up there, if should I rent a car or get an airline ticket. It's exhasting but somewhat easier to drive, I can get there in less than 24 hours and don't have to deal with going though security and sitting around in airports. Somehow driving is easier than waiting around in airports. Maybe becouse I have more control? Be nice if I could fly my own plane. Be even nicer if I could fold a plane into a briefcase they way Felix the cat did.
Baring accidents or illness my relatives lived into their late nineties. My great grandma was 98. Still mom's the oldest That's left of her siblings. Physically my cousins and I have more health problems than our parents did-- junk food, not enough walking, who knows? So I'm sort of ruminating on death but my mood is fine.

Be safe on your trip

[tirednfedup]

Im in a city where almost nobody speaks english. I have not talked to a westernet for 4 months except on phone......im sad and i want to wake up a d be ten again...

[Bark]

Took a nap. I probably should have tried exercising and staying up... but I'm tired. I'm still tired. Going to have something to eat in a bit. At least I'm eating better. Can't go back to sleep because I would just feel more tired. And I want to sleep earlier tonight. Today I'm actually going to make sure I do.

Zzzz. Does closing my eyes while sitting up count?

[BrightShadows]

Back in the middle again today. Not awful just so very tired. I have school work I have to do and all I want to do is sleep. Hope you guys days are going better than mine

okay. i saw Still Alice, which was very good.

[JustTvTroping]

I've been feeling pretty good for the past few days. More self discoveries, more mental concentration, etc. I just want to dance the day away!...But I have homework to finish.

[waterknob1234]

I wish I could get rid of the arthritis and exhaustion. I just feel like sleeping all the time. All my joints hurt, even my fingers. It doesn't help that it is 80 degrees and sunny one day and 55 degrees and raining the next day. In spite of fatigue and pain I finished an important project today and went to church. I plan to finish my tax return.

I don't know what else to do for the arthritis. I am taking an anti-inflammatory medication and glucosamine chondroitin. I cannot afford to keep going to the doctor.

[lizzyjb]

New job in dont fit in make me feel anxious and horrible. Dislike it but at least is a job and i need the money.
I would like to feel safe at home again, where nobody can hurt me.

[artichack]

Crux thrown into todays push to spring...overcast....30......gray....white....blaaajaaaa...really can't wait for summer...green.....blue.....red.....yellow.....colors ....life....so tired of winters......problem being that old man winter can still grip us for another 2 months..........ug.......ventin.....Artie

[eggplantlife]

Friend. I sort of get. Why doesn't she call me back when she said she will? Always happen. Am used to it. She does text in the morning. Yeah, it is selfish in her side, i guess. Why?

[avlady]

i woke up in middle of night again and couldn't get back to sleep. i hate it when that happens, i have tobe very quiet not to wake anyone up. made coffee and am still awake from then. as long as i don't have a headache although i'm thankful. i feel for people with migraines. so for now i'm thankful.

Not too motivated today. Need to go jogging, do laundry, dust and just don't feel like doing anything. One of those days where I'm going to need to just force myself to do stuff, or talk myself into doing it.

[Chummy]

Made a Phone call. I still get nervous when I have to use the Phone. I'm getting a massage today. My first one ever. I'm a bit anxious for that. I know it will probably feel good, but that someone will see my body...

My mood isn't good. I had trouble falling in sleep last night. I felt so sad and alone and hopeless. And now my mood is still low. I've very little energy. I can't seem to get anything done. I also don't see the point in doing anything.

[herethennow]

not too good. today is also a really sad day for my country so.

[Rose76]

Doing pretty well.

[lizzyjb]

Feeling sad, blue and tired. So stressed.

[dandylin]

I'm here! That's something...right?

[tigersassy]

I'm so over this. My brain is running over cancer over and over again. I just want to cry. It's so much. 😥

[AnomalousCarrotCake]

Depressed. Fighting it, but feel like it's a losing battle lately. It doesn't help that I'm also in pain, and haven't been getting enough sleep lately.

It also doesn't help that I am dealing with other people, who, on an ongoing basis are bringing stress to my life. Which in turn turns up the volume on the depression.

Sometimes, I think I would feel better if I just had enough to get by and cut out all the toxic, difficult, and/or unsupportive people in my life, and start all over again. Even at this age.

okay. i actually did some work today!

[tigerlily84]

I went walking today on my break at work! I've been meaning to do that since I started lol

[Chummy]

Down Down Down. I feel lonely. I feel sad. I feel scared. I feel hopeless. I'm not sure if it's all worth it.
I wish the medication would work. I can't bear to feel me much longer like this. I have felt like this too much for too long. It's getting to much.

sad. i feel as though i have lost myself again. i hate this feeling,

Possible trigger:

normally it would lead me to SI. i'm not sure. it's not that i deserve it, its that i love the feeling SI gives me. help.

[Nammu]

Med check went well. I missed my last one a week and a half a ago and rescheduled but the person was scheduled ith wasn't there. The nurse I was originally scheduled with had time to squeeze me in. I've been doing well since the doc increased the dose of latuda. The sun is shining it's warm and nice outside. All I need is a bluebird singing on my shoulder.