[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by eggplantlife

Oh my god! Both of you are in same position as me? I hate the place i am at. Being with my friend is okay but i don't like where i am. I don't know where to go to. It's about time to move out of here because been feeling the same for a year i have been here. Been trying so hard to create a dream, but doesn't frel like mine because not naturally come. Everything i do seems to demean me. Why?

I'm sorry you feel the same way. Where would you like to be? What would you like to do? I hope you'll find your way to them. Lots of hugs.

[waterknob1234]

I have today off from work and I am going to go to some local museums and apply for jobs. I love history and would love to work in a historical museum. I hope I am successful. I have prayed about this.

[herethennow]

so my country has entered a national mourning phase. and the videos that are up is making me cry.

other than that, pdoc's appt today was crap.
still feeling down.

Doing okay today. The day started off with me feeling really wiped from my full day yesterday (which I don't very often have), but then after I went jogging I felt better and more energetic.

The fact that I felt so tired after my full day yesterday has me dreading starting a full-time job because it will apparently take some time for me to build up stamina. I think the jogging will help that along though.

Today it's volunteering at an AA administrative office and then therapy in the aft. I sure wish I would get a phone call from a potential employer wanting to interview me . . . Every time I come home and see the ol' "0" on the answering machine (for zero messages), my heart sinks a little.

[Smileonmyface]

feeling sick down and anxious. prepping for procedure tomorrow not fun. want to lie down but nobody else to watch kiddos. praying for forgiveness for being a really lazy mom today and trying to focus on the day tomorrow after this is over with.

[mulan]

I have been feeling realy down I hadn't feel bad like this in a long while.
I am sad. It's like all the odds are against me. If anything can go wrong it will go wrong to me. And it males me even more sad the fact that I can't face and beat my fears. I am so lonely. I have been keeping all my problems to me, because there isn't a right person for me to share with.

i feel so-so.

[hope2010]

I am better than yesterday, feeling more secure and alive, start to remember who I am, what I want, what I like to do, etc. I know that later on, like at night time maybe everything will be fuzzy in my mind. But right now, in this moment I am full of hope. I always have a positive view, I am glad that is back, still sad that I never know when I will be down again. Sighs

i hate flashbacks.

[Nammu]

Woke up feeling awful. Massive headache and my body feels like I've been though the ringer. I think I'm dehydrated so I'm pushing the fluids. But I had the most awesome dreams.

[Clara22]

Originally Posted by waterknob1234

I have today off from work and I am going to go to some local museums and apply for jobs. I love history and would love to work in a historical museum. I hope I am successful. I have prayed about this.

[Rose76]

I'm doing pretty good. I'm tired, but I think that may be from not being active enough.

[Chummy]

I don't want to feel like this. These bad feelings and thoughts have been going on for so long. 2.5 months back in therapy and on medication, but still no improvement. I know it takes time, but I don't want to feel like this anymore. I'm so tired.

I either feel too much, crying, depressed...

Possible trigger:

suicidal

... or else I'm apathetic and feel dead inside. There's no gray areas.

I never feel 'well' emotionally.

My feelings exhaust me. Wish I could hand them off to someone else, but I would never wish this crap on anyone.

[Shiznit86]

Possible trigger:

living in my alcoholic abusive parents basement after my wife and i split. I have no word for how low ive sunk. Theres just nothing left for me

[TheOriginalMe]

I decided on an early night, no distractions, no Psych Central, all the good sleep hygeine stuff that guarantees a visit from the sandman. Well it is 1:45am and I'm wide awake. I've been too cold, too hot, mind racing, mind empty of anything, tried to picture nice stuff and failed. I keep coming around to the fact that I screwed up, all this mess is me and it is too late now to expect anything different. Even when I pushed these thoughts aside I couldn't sleep because of pains in my feet and ankles. So here I am, wide awake and anxious about how I will get through a day of work tomorrow when I am so very tired. I do so wish there was an escape, I can't be bothered to work out the trigger code so I'd best not say more

[Turtlesoup]

Doing really well at keeping the depression demon at bay-my T should be pleased because I have taken lots of "me" time which is starting to get a little easier. This is the best I have consistently felt in several years-I'm keeping up with housework, getting plenty of exercise & my hygiene-wow my shower can't believe we have a daily date lol-my heart goes out to all that are struggling-big hugs to all

[Dante744]

I hate it when relatives come over they never really have nothing nice to say and always make me feel terrible and my parents makes it worse by making it seem like I'm useless and insult me right in front of them and then I have to deal with their judgmental opinions. It really sucks but it's always been like this so it's nothing surprising to me I just wish they would actually try to talk and get to know me instead of taking my parents word.

That pretty much drained any motivation I had for the remainder of the week but I'm still looking forward to seeing my psychologist on Friday.

I'm doing better today. Was laughing and having fun earlier at work. Was with someone who is generally positive and upbeat. I want to keep this feeling and not let go. But I know it doesn't last.... Vicious cycle for me. But today I sing! FAME I'm gonna live forever, I'm gonna learn how to fly!

[eggplantlife]

Had nightmare about being kicked out. Alarm went off. Have to get moving to get ready for work. Drinking...a little is a lot for me.

Going to do things that make me happy from now on.

I don't need this job! After the interview, i was so upset. Now, i know i made a bad mistake. One shouldn't feel like that going for a new position in the same company. I know i worked hard for this company. I should of gotten a raise. I am very aware if they really like you and want you, they will give you a raise. Their company policy is only an excuse. I have worked put there in the world before so i am very aware of that.

I'm doing my usual so-so today. Still hate crawling out of bed and starting the day. Am always apprehensive about my ability to do the things I need to do in a day, even though I'm always able to. Wish I had more confidence in myself.

Today I'm volunteering at the museum, AA meeting, then pharmacy errand. Shouldn't be too tough.

[color14u]

Originally Posted by Shiznit86

Possible trigger:

living in my alcoholic abusive parents basement after my wife and i split. I have no word for how low ive sunk. Theres just nothing left for me

I lived in my strict Catholic parents basement for awhile after I ran away from my abusive alcoholic first husband. There is something sinister yet comforting. I felt I couldn't get any lower. It was tough with no support. It was so satisfying leaving the dungeon when I finally did. It took a long while and a lot of low lonely nights, but I made it. We are here for you to vent anytime.

[dandylin]

Not wanting to get out of bed. I will put a time limit on the time spent here today.

[Yogurtz]

I'm hiding in a bathroom stall at work. I can't stand working here anymore but I have to come here everyday!

very hungry. my meds make me starving. i think its the Seroquel.